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Marching band practice was never really fun for me. I was never in step or in line and I dropped my clarinet countless times because I would get bored and start twirling it around. When I moved on to learning the alto sax, the only reason I didn't drop it was because it was tied to my neck. I found practice, which mostly involved walking round and round the track to the drum cadence repetitive and boring. When we would finally start practicing with music, I never managed to fully memorize my part and faked playing at the parts I didn't know.

I know that bands in the south spend at least half the school year at marching band practice. My boyfriend was in such a southern band and even went to marching band camp over the summer. Most schools in California are "Concert Bands" and spend most of the year practicing for performances. The one exception for bands is the town parade which most bands participate in.

Every spring, bands in my hometown would practice for the "Rose Parade". It was a typical small town parade with lots of floats, clubs, and organizations walking or driving down the street. The bands were probably a highlight since one school would come with a color guard, a drum major, a band, and sometimes a majorette to entertain the crowd. The floats and the bands were judged and every year the same High School would win first prize. Our band had never won anything and one year our band director decided we would go all out that year and chase the gold.

First, he thought we would get extra points for choosing a non traditional marching band piece to play. He settled on a rendition of Tico Tico thinking the Latin music would be a refresher from all the Cohen the judges would be hearing. Acquiring the musical score for Tico Tico was no easy feat as Japan had the copyright and due to their strict copyright laws, it was not available overseas. He actually had a friend of his buy it in Japan and let him photocopy it for us to play.

Next he worked on our image by finding these old snazzy band jackets left from another time in the back storage of the band room thinking it would win favor with the judges. Finally, he threatened to disown us if we took anything but first prize.... I kid, I kid, but I knew his heart was into us actually placing this year.

The award ceremony came and lo and behold... nothing. Of course, Elsie Allen High School Band gets first place for the billionth time in a row. My band teacher pinned it on the judges actually balking at our song selection and docking even more points for being out of step/line and whatnot. I'm sure he was really disappointed, but most of us knew that we could never compete with Elsie Allen.

Ironically the academically worst school in the city and highly contributing to the gangster population of Santa Rosa, Elsie Allen always took the best prizes during the Rose parade. This was because it was the only band in the city that actually was a genuine marching band. They participated in many parades throughout the area year round and probably spent a significant time on the football field as well. Their uniforms of bright blue and white all around accompanying their marching tall hats were no match for our old fashioned band jackets. I was sure that their band director would switch them if they ever dared to step out of line. They were the kind of band who would dance around while marching *and* playing throughout the parade. While we spent less than a month doing marching band practice, they did it year round. They were unstoppable.

The following years, we went back to traditional marching band music and the two week long practices walking around the track during band class. Though we did get to keep our snazzy jackets as part of our official marching band uniforms to be used that one time of the year for many years to come.

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Includes picture of me in the garden by the roses with my alto sax in our new marching band uniform: white, red, and gold jacket with black pants
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Mostly about my Adventures in Wind Waker. In this game, I have been exploring a LOT... gotten lots more hearts and stuff... and more items too! In my last game I kind of just quickly went through it and did little of the miniquests... in this game a picto box was just *handed* to me, and I quickly became a big-time shutter bug XD. Although I have lack of interest to take pics of the adult characters in the game, I've been keeping up with the baddies really well, and there are only three of them that I haven't taken pics of - the grabby hand thingy, the Kagrok(sp), and the weird insect that sprays the little balls at me. Just today I've discovered the legendary pictographs... and been messing around with that. Also, in my old game I didn't learn the Song of Passing.... it makes pictographing a LOOOT easier XD. Also, this time I've noticed some more songs that I really like: the song in the VERY beginning, when the tale of the legend is being told...., the song in the earth temple when Link's summoning the Zora sage, same goes for the Koroki Wind Temple sage. And that's all I want... BTW... the Zoras look even BETTER in this game!! I'm disappointed they weren't in it -_-. I htink they were more or less replaced by the Rito... There is only one Zora and she is gorgeous ^_^. COuld possibly be the prettiest char. in the game. Gotta ask someone for those when I get to college. I want nothing else on this computer 0_o.

And speaking of college... I'm slowly getting prepared. My mom has bought me the rest pretty much everything I'll need today. I'm leaving on Saturday ~_~. I'm scared and worried and stuff... and have been SHARING these FEELINGS with some online people... and they tell me I'll be fine and I'll get to visit my parents and stuff. I still think I'll be homesick, though ;_;. I'll miss my hoooooome and my friends ~_~. I'll try to visit my parents every weekend at first... this will help me get used to things better.

Anything else to say? I'm visiting Piner in the morning. *loooks at time* Er... yes, there WILL be naptime tomorrow 0____o. There always is when I get fewer than about 7 hours of sleep ^_^*. I can't wait to visit my teacher and band members and stuff. It'll be fuuun ^_^. I'll just sit and listen to the band play for an hour and a half XD. Scotto says that 60% of the band is freshmen 0_o. I can't believe it. I'll have to see it for myself, heh *prepares to be overwhelmed*. One more last tidbit.. I keep trying to make friends from TRHQ XD. I'm not sure if Koji and I will be friends or not... but I'll be happy to just be a "casual acquaintance who randomly comments in LJs" XD. Ok, time to sleep. night, all.
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Today, while the rest of the seniors were doing the traditional Senior Awards for the Band, I was playing graduation music. Every single year we practice the Can Can, among other songs, for the Senior Graduation Ceremony. I look forward to playing the Can Can the most. Sadly, I won't be able to play it this year. Well, the last band practice ended with the Can Can. *wonderfullness*. My last concert ended with "The Great Gate of Kiev", one of the most boring songs we've ever played. At the end of practice, Mr Simpson asked if we wanted to play anything else and I exclaimed "CAN CAN AGAIN! CAN CAN AGAIN!" At first he replied with "You're a senior, I don't care what you think!" But I was persistent, and I got what I want. We took it up tempo to make it even funner and finished it in 37 seconds XD. Yeah, of all the high school expericences, I will miss my band the most ;_;. Lots and lots... even the TRUMPETS *gasp*.

What else: Today, for my Personal anthology presentation, I played all of "Mr Roboto" for the class. They enjoyed THAT, but not my annoying reflection, I think they were pretty bored ^_^*. Also, Ozvaldo gave a speech for me which included my butterfly quote at the end. It was pretty well-written. He was all "I'D BETTER SEE YOU TEARY-EYED". Gawd, he always cries during speeches , hehe. Jeremy wrote me a very nice entry in my year book and gave me those Velvet Teen CDs that he was supposed to give me months ago, so I wrote him a five-page letter with hello kitty stationary today. I've found some of Nyars old CDs, including the Evangelion movies I'm watching now. ^_^.

On the negative side: I think my easily-bruised body is becoming worse. MORE bruises. I don't like it ;_;. My hair also keeps falling out -_-. I don't know if it's summer shedding or what, but it's becoming scary. I'm also tired all the time, worse than usual and I've been getting enough sleep... ;_;. I don't want to say what I think I have the symptoms of.

I'm graduating in 3 days ;___;.
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Here is what I'm supposed to give for my Speech final. If I'm lucky, I won't have to. I just finished WRITING it today 0_o. Someone told me I was a slacker last night at around 2 am when I wanted to write this. I THINK THIS TESTIFIES FOR IT. Actually, I think it's more "senioritis". Gah, my time management was BETTER last year, really ~_~. We have 8 seniors who are doing speeches tomorrow. I doubt we can get through them all. And don't make fun of my butterfly metaphor >:o.



I don’t know if I’ve ever felt like a senior. Really, I remember the beginning of this year in English class when we had to write a letter to our teacher describing ourselves and our lives, I wrote that I don’t feel like a senior. Most people who didn’t know me always guessed I was a Junior, I was always with people younger than me. Now, nine months later, I really don’t know how far I’ve gone. The only distinction I really see between lower classmen and myself is that I’m leaving in a matter of days , I’m going off somewhere, and everyone else gets to stay behind. So the genuine truth is that I don’t want to go. I don’t want to spread my wings and fly far from here, I’d like to stay inside my little cocoon, still trying to grow those wings that are supposed to set me free.

When I look back at it, I realize that indeed my metaphoric wings have taken long to develop. I’ve always been immature, enjoying hobbies most kids my age weren’t into. Pokemon, for instance, kept my attention throughout most of high school. While other students lobbied around the quad at lunch to listen to the music and contests of all sorts, I was more into chasing people around and trying to throw them into bushes, a process I called “bushing”, and doing “the daily splatter”, a tradition that involved throwing food against the “sacred wall” and seeing how well it splattered. It was only the second half of this year when the hard facts about my graduation were pressed upon me that I began to rethink my actions during school in a sort of depression. I don’t know where I’m headed in life, I don’t know what I’ve learned in high school, and I don’t know what will become of me. While everyone I know is staying put in Santa Rosa, I am entering a four-year college come this September. My parents kept telling me their stories in Russia after finishing the Russian equivalent of High School. My dad was drafted into the Soviet Army, enduring a frozen hell, and my mom had to look out for herself after her mother married a second time. Perhaps my feelings of isolation and abandonment aren’t as profound as theirs were, but I still feel this enormous anxiety towards leaving that I really don’t think I will be able to shake off. I do realize I need to grow up and leave, but I am wondering what will happen to me now that it is being thrust upon me. If a butterfly is ripped from its protective cocoon earlier than it should, will it ever fly?


I BETTER not have to read that -_-. *crosses fingers* I hope I can ...sleep... ;__;.
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Tomorrow is Senior Ditch day and one of my senior friends is bailing on me, so I'll probably be doing nothing. My mom is also planning to stay home, so this can be either a good or bad thing. This No Job thing is becoming increasingly difficult. Most of the websites I've jotted down are either dead or don't offer jobs I can do.

Also, no one is really writing in their LJs now! GAH. I can only commend Titus who has nobly kept up the tradition of regularly writing one or two sentences which are incomprehensible to me.

W00T, TITUS!

XD. I am making my own self celebration for him. He can kill me later.

I've been very tired as of late too... I go to bed around 10:30 and then sleep for 3 hours when I get home from school 0_o. WEIRDNESS, I SAY! I think I'm rather tired right now, actually...

I have nothing else to say right now. Yuup...
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I'm posting this 'cause I can't send this survey back through e-mail. It probably would have ended up here anyway...

Sadly, I LIKE THESE! Hehe, so yus, you will indeed get this forawrd back!
--- Alexis Atherton <drmaqueen@sbcglobal.net> wrote:
> 1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Ready for it? HERE GOES! Yelizaveta Leonidovna Zakharova
> 2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? light colored jeans...
>
> 3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Nothing... hmm... MUST CHANGE THAT... When will I get tired of "Mr Roboto"?
>
> 4. WHAT ARE THE LAST FOUR DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE
> NUMBER? 9589
>
> 5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? chocolate...

> 6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
> Purple
> 7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? it's getting hotter >_<. I don't like it...
>
> 8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? oh gawd... PHONE. Er, I talked to my dad a few minutes ago... for a few minutes. Does that count? If not, then Alexis...
>
> 9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE
> SEX? um... humor...
>
> 10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? I <3 her XD
> 11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? better
> 12. FAVORITE DRINK? JUICE. Many different flavors...
> 13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? coctail... peach probably
>
> 14. FAVORITE SPORTS? badminton>
> 15. HAIR COLOR? JETBLAK! straight jet black... Too bad that color really doesn't exist very much, without the aid of hairdye. Even most asians have dark brown hair...
>
> 16. EYE COLOR? Green ^__^. OHH GREEN EYES ARE SO PURTY *droool*
> 17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? NOPE. Glasses... and I don't want contacts either -_-
>
> 18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? none ;_;
> 19. FAVORITE MONTH? December
>
> 20. FAVORITE FOOD? Chinese, Russian...
>
> 21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? X2
> 22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? hmmm... *thinks of random day *... November's always a good month for me ^_^*. Okay, Novermber the 32.
> 23.ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Ask someone out? I probably wouldn't do that, so yeah...
> 24. DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING MOVIES
> BETTER? Probably the latter...
>
> 25. SUMMER OR WINTER? winter>
> 26. HUGS OR KISSES? huggles!
> 27. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS? XD. What a funny question. hehe... one night stands. Because they just sound like so much fun, even though I coudln't really see myself having one of those...
> 28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? how abotu FRENCH vanilla?
>
> 29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? I'm only sending this back to one friend.
>
> 30. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? no one
> 31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? NO ONE!>
> 32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Ma maison est assez grande : ).
>
> 33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Not much ... no time, no patience. I'm trying to get through this Orsen Scott Card Book... "Lost Boys".
>
> 34. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? PIKACHU! Seriously...
>
>
> 35. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? monopoly...
> 36. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST? homework... mindless TV
>
> 37. FAVORITE SMELL? chocolate.
>
> 38. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU
> WAKE UP IN THE
> MORNING? "SHIT, I HAVE TO GET UP" *starts crying/has a fit*


Today Seniors had "senior activities" while the rest of the school was doing testing... We listened to this motivational speaker and one thing he said stuck to me "When you get into college, make sure YOU yourself know what you are doing there. Not your mom, or councelors who told you you should be there..." -_-. I think I'll be clueless when I arrive. *sigh*. Got my cap and gown today. The gown itself was very pretty ... girls get to where white. But GAWD those caps looked so dorky, and I really don't usually mind dorky, it's just that this one was a BAD dorky. I'd like to know WHO came up with the design of the graduation cap...

I felt a little better after school, somehow... well, that's a plus.
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On Friday Adrienne and I went on this Asian Heritage night thing at school... some of the singers were really cool, others not so great. The dancing was the best... especially the Tahiitan dancing ^___^. *WIGGLE YER BOOTY*. But I think the best part of that night came when Adrienne persuaded me to walk home with her AND walk in the middle of the street XD. It was great because I started running and tried to step on all the dots in the middle of the road. We did that until we got exhausted. That was great fun ^__^. It reminded me a lot of our old traipsings... something we haven't done in a while ;_;.

Saturday, I went with Jeneher to this outdoors concert at a vineyard she performed in. The best part of that was that there was an abandoned railcar just sittin' there 0_o. Despite Jeneher's protestations, I climbed up to the top and ran around it back and forth a few times. Couldn't get inside the thing, but it was real nice on top anyway. I really enjoyed sitting there and looking at the pretty vineyard scenery ^__^.

The rest of the weekend involved me *attempting* to do homework. Well, I got some done, anyway. I'm very tired of my life right now ;_;. It just irritates me greatly. Maybe it will get better some day. I can only hope so. But right now, I can only see it getting worse and worse. As this time in my life ends, I'll get new worries and pressures and it will become even worse.

I'm just so tired of it all. I'm tired of feeling exhausted, I'm tired of doing work that makes no difference to me in the long run, I'm tired of forgetting everything, I'm tired of comparing myself to everybody, I'm tired of trying to talk when I can't, I'm tired of mutilating my hair as a nervous reaction, I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of all this school work, I'm tired of worrying about my future, I'm tired of being stupid.

That makes up some "BAD POETRY". If only it was in the correct form.

If I could sleep my life away
Nothing would lead me astray
I would only have my dreams to keep me alive
No conscious life could ever arrive
I want to stay warm in my bed
With no thoughts of depair running through my head
And if I should fall into the never-ending abyss
I could just rest assured there was nothing in my life to miss

Okay, I'm bored of this and it's late. Oh, this is wonderful "BAD POETRY". YUS.
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I had a whole week to finish the engrish book , and I start reading it half an hour ago. I'm starting to feel it return to me, I can feel the anxiety, my head is starting to morph into that cloudy stage...

I'm not sure why I didn't read the book. I knew I didn't like it, I don't like this book. Alexis told me a few days ago "It's James Joyce, I told you to run for it if you ever encounter James Joyce!" Or something like that XD. NOW I remember! Well , anyway, I didn't read him at all last week and I think I was supposed to finish the book, or something crazy like that. SO now I'm very shaky thinking about it, and trying to read it. I know it's my fault I put myself into this, but I still can't help but to find someone/something else to blame.

I go to sparknotes and then fall into the spell that my engrish teacher created. "I challenge you all NOT to use sparknotes, don't let some literary guru think for you!" Okay, so I'm not reading that because I feel dirty someway...

There are a bumber of things I could do right now.

1. Go on AIM and try not to mention this or how horrible I feel.

2. Go on AIM and talk to someone about how horrible I feel .

3. Uninstall AIM

4. Go to bed.

5. Try to read this book some more.

I feel pretty calm right now, but I know that as soon as I even TRY to read the book, I will start again. I wish I didn't have mental problems, not all people have them. Most know how to deal with stress/anxiety. I wish I knew their secrets XD.

Well, looking at my options, I'm not sure which path I want to take. Going to bed would be the best choice, but it's almost midnight and I've been going to bed later... I probably won't be able to sleep because of the book and time would be wasted on trying to fall asleep.

Meh, uninstalling AIM would be just stupid and I'd reinstall it the next day or something -_-. Of course, I blame it for everything, as usual...

Going on AIM would... it could make me feel better, but I would be losing sleep.

I have tried reading the book, yeah. There is no way I could calm myself down in time to get anything done.

*stupid cryptic, HAH!*

Je ne me souviens pas que Titus voulait se coucher! TROIS HEURES?! C'EST UNMANLY. Je suis triste parce-que j'ai voulu parler avec lui ;__;.

Hmm...

Apr. 15th, 2003 04:40 pm
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I had a nice day today. FOR A CHANGE.

Um... lesse what was good. Lists, la... are a bit annoying.

1. I talked intelligently about catapults with David for all of lunch. All of lunch. It was rather nice because... I dunno... I learned and... I followed him. He's building a catapult it's a type of catapult with this foreign name I keep forgetting... It's all very interesting to me... Of course, I couldn't help him out, but I hope he accomplished it ^_^*. The beams will be 20 feet 0__o and I'm hoping to see sometime...

2. Over all, I felt more alert/intelligent/NOT pessimistic....

3. I passed my driving test

4. I'm confident in the economy test... because I new all the answers in the pre-test game 0_o

Other things I've realized...

I'm leaving high school in about a month... Yeah, I just wish I'd spent more time making friends and not feeling sorry for myself. I mean, there are about 3 guys in class I'd like to have made better friends with this year.

1. Jeremy... I'm *SORTA* friends with him, now, actually... he's just so silly and fun to talk to ^___^. Not to mention nice AND I sometimes talk to him on AIM.

2. Waldon- he's one of the THREE people I like in AP engrish class . Too bad he's so quiet and all the guys like to make fun of him. I remember I was friends with him in the 9th grade, somewhat. When we had freshman english together and I remember talking to him.

3. Nathan- Another one of those guys others like to pick on. I was friends with him in 8th grade when we played pokemon together ^_^**. I remember the first time I battled him. He had 3 Mewtwos leveled over 70 and a Mew. FAIR MATCH. He was much different back then. Much more hyper , but also, much more picked on. He's quieted down, and is picked on less... but still he is VERY nice and now we sometimes talk Metroid... He was nice in 8th grade... that never changed. He is one of the two people I like in the Econ class. GAWD I HATE THAT STUPID CLASS.

*random rant* my schedule is so interesting XD. It seems like 3rd period AP engrish has the most intelligent/cocky students in my grade and then BAM 4th period economy comes and I'm in the redneck class. It's pretty funny, actually XDD

Anyway... I was talking to Nathan today because Mr. The Flash moved me to a group because I sit alone and I'm always put in some group unless I object and get to "be my own group". Nice guys are a rarity in high school, they really are..

4. Aaron is another guy in my AP Engrish class I like. Even though he's so disruptive/silly and very popular as a result of that, he's VERY intelligent and likes me for my pokemon impressions ^_^*. He's nice to me and even *GASP* talks to me sometimes. No one in that class does, really XD.

5. ADAM- Another nice guy. His girlfriend is REALLY scary though, and always all over him, so uh... I don't talk to him much anymore from when he was in my French class. He's also very nice... but he's nice to everybody XD. And he's not too popular. He's always a pleasure to talk to.

Sadness.. I don't feel like there are any girls I would have gotten to know better ;__;. Maybe Linda... and Veronica... after moving away from them in class, I don't talk to them anymore ;_;. Most girls are more polite in HS to geeks like myself. I was never really made fun of by girls... ONLY GUYS. But the funny thing is, somehow, I could relate to them more. THAT MAKES NO SENSE.

I want another year, dammit XD. I feel tired right now. I'm afraid the Japanese class just might burn me out... what i want to do is show up for tutoring and ditch the class -__-. hehe.. I wish I could use my lisence... LIKE IT'S MEANT TO .


I had a GOOD Star Trek quote! *(P@^@(_^@. omg *blame aim for it's disruptiveness!*
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I had a nice, long rant planned out from the end of school, really! But I spend *so* much thought into having a simple conversation, that I really can't do more than that at once. It's even more difficult when you have 3 peeps talking to you at once because I don't like to ignore anyone.

Anyway, I feel more inadequate today. We had to write an in class AP essay in engrish class. I can't spell because I don't read enough

We spent a while in speech class talking about futures and the path people are on. Mrs Mansell talked about how some people went to college and just flunked out because they couldn't deal with the style of learning, how different it was from high school. College is all about passing tests. And I know how well I do with those. Panic and fail 0__o. Badly.

Well, I belive I didn't get a good enough education in good ole Ghetto Piner. I've had only 2 real challenging classes. This year's AP Engrish and last year's semester of Pre Calculous. In both classes, I felt too stupid and didn't try as hard as I could have.

So, I feel I'm not prepared to go to a 4-year college. I had a good start in 9th grade. I have a good start in everything, but I never carry it out. I've done so many activities in HS, but never concentrating in one so I can be *really* good. I'm good in French, Japanese, badminton, altosax, barisax, writing but I know I could have been so much better. I didn't take what I could have out of this whole HS thing, and it shall be over damn. almost 2 months. And I wasted time. A whole lot of time. I compare myself though, to everybody. That's another problem... I look at someone and think of myself as either not as smart as them or not as dumb 0_o. Not as sucessful and not as lazy...

There is also the part abot immaturity. I've improved a little over the last 4 years, I really have. But my mentality is still comparable to an average 12 year old male. I like throwing food at the wall and making it splatter, I like wrestling with freshmen, I LIKE the maturity level of freshmen(most the time), I like acting stupid so others laugh at me, and I like being a dork. I'm not even CLOSE to acting independant and yeah... I am too immature. People who go to college are responsible -__-. I *have* no responsibility.

#&(@&)%#)&$#)$&$# @ time. The engrish work is making me feel so anxious that I have been putting it off. And I'll have to do it tomorrow. I feel like uninstalling AIM again. It takes up so much energy ~_~.

I don't know why I feel so sorry for myself. OH YES. My mom had another one of her fits at me again today. "I WANT YOU TO GET A GOOD EDUCATIONAL!" Usually they involve her coming into my room numerous time and yelling/saying nasty things to me. She comes in once, yells, cries to my father, my father calms her down, comes in a few MORE times XD. I think this time it was because I told her I wanted to persue Liberal Arts XD. Hmmm... parents can sure fuck up your life : ).


Windie wrote me a comment. I felt like crying... almost because I miss my ramble land friends. I really do -_-. And I sort of ended that long ago now... I'm not good at keeping friends. I'm pretty bad actually.

*HUGGLES WINDIE*.

I think something positive happened yesterday. I found my keys at the lost and found 0_o. Guess I can't lose everything after all. Snart that I whine about losing them forever before I go to the lost and found. I want to glomp whoever found them XD.

I don't deserve to whine. But since this is a free LJ, I can exercise my right XD.

So much more, so braindead.
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Let's go in chronological order!

1. That my "I'd rather die than cry" approach failed this morning.

2. That I lost my keys *finally* permanentely. Rest in Peace, Cubone.

3. That the favorite Japanese pen was lost permanently too.

4. That I had to spend time revising my Hamlet essay, something I should be doing right now : )

5. That I can't help my friends

6. I had more difficulty speaking than usual

7. That I can't tell Brian to GET OFF ME.

8. That , because of my frequent badminton absence, I would no longer play mixed doubles, but girl doubles . Forever. the only match that counts.

9. That my badminton abilities suck

10. That I don't have as much fun as I did last year with Rachel

11. That I can't *can't* have as much fun

12. *MOST IMPORTANT* I have to take some sort of English Placement test for UC in eary May that I should have gotten registration material for... but was either lost/never recieved. Oh yay. I think the test is an essay.

13. I've calculated that yes, it takes 3 times as long for me to do any work

14. I can't bring myself to harm myself in any manner except for punching random things which leaves niice purple splotches I can stare at! After I started at someone's cuts yesterday, the desire to to that fell drastically.

15.That I only know my French grade, which leaves all the other grades unknown and unknown as to failure.(OOPS, OUT OF ORDER)

16. I could do some of my homework

17. I CAN'T COMMUNICATE er the incommunicado X2!

18. Just about the only thing that made me smile was two emoticons jumping around a screen XD.

OH DAMN , TOMORROW IS TUESDAY. $*)%)*($^#$)+@. I've realized it since this morning.




I realized on Sunday that a foreign language major means you only learn one language.


























































































































This is mean *grin*

This essay is haunting me. That AP engrish class continues to haunt me. *extreme anxiety*. My dad is coming in here to haunt me some more. Oh how fun. I'm constantly reminded about how this is my last quarter and I will spend it like this.

"OH WOE IS ME!" *LOL*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111111111111111


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THis is pretty funny actually.
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I never update this thing anymore because it's supposed to be a *live* journal, in other words, something people look at. And no one will appreciate this. I don't want to privatize it, though 0_o. So I just don't write ^_^. Well, something happaned On a nice change of pace. I actually DID something other than sit around and do HW.

The overnight trip that we were supposed to take up there ended up just being a trip up there, which worked out in my favor anyway because I had to go to San Francisco early the next morning.

It was EXTREMELY cold and for the first few hours while we were up there it rained and hailed. Now the hail was great. It was the biggest hailstorm I've ever seen up here. The hailstones weren't huge, but they were ABUNDANT. So it looked like there was snow.

After the rain went away though, everything turned out to be great... got to see some new constellations, I still can't ever see the Gemini twins -__-. And I found the north star ^_^*. The best thing they had up there for us was that 8'' refractor, though.... You could actually see some of the *colored* clouds on Jupiter. It was GREAT, I've never seen the clouds before. And the MOON in it. It was great... yuus....

Er, quite a few people were more *affectionate* than usual. Brian was just more affectionate towards me because

1. He told me he felt jealous over Kirstin's new luvar
2. He was with me for an extended period of time.

He was all over me every chance he got. Of course, I let it go and kind of took advantage of it at some points *actually* initiating the hugging ^_^*. But, I didn't feel as I should. There came a point when I thought I had feelings for him... but now I think I don't anymore. *shrugs*.

And then that DAVISH. HE WAS ON SOMETHING because all he wanted to do was rub mine and Adrienne's backs . It felt nice though. *omg uber touchy-feelyness*.

And today was pretty horrible : ). WAIT, NO. I ... VOICE CHATTED. That was the best part of my day : ). *whines more about privating every post*.

Note: I have neglected the life history and the quotes section long ago. My brain cannot function for the life(actually, High School) history. I wish I didn't neglect the quotes though.

Damn. #@)&(*#@)@*&@)*&@@*(_^ @ time. AIM's gunna send me into uninstallation mode again, soon, I know it.
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Got woken up at around 9 am with my mom coming in demanding I take my drugs. Couldn't get bacak to sleep after that.... Around noon, I went to school, trying to find out missing work.. couldn't find any 0__o. DIDN'T FIND DUELL. #(*&#%@)*&@%. Meh, found Adrienne. She was happy to see me. Scoggy wasn't really. Oh well, he sucks anyway XD.

I went home and ALEXIS CAME OVER. YAAAY ^___^. I was so happy... and she was so nice 0__o. She brought me all sorts of stuff to make me feel better, including SOUP XD. She hung around a while and we watched The 2 Towers... AND POPPED BUBBLE WRAP. AHH SO DAMN FUN *$E)(^$_(*$#^_#(*^)@(&)!! Crap, IM made me stall in this. I had lots more to say ^_^*. Um...

Started reading "Sphere", also by Micheal Crichton.... It's good 0____o. can tell already. I'm nervous about going back to school on Monday ;___;. But I haven't been feeling depressed for a few days now, and if THAT holds up, I should do fine. Or else, slink back to it ^_^*.

I need to start back on my life history again XD. Hopefully I can remember to do that next time.
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Ya know, I liked beig a freshie. 8th grade was my apex, everything after then kind of got progressivly worse. Lucky for me though, 9th grade wasn't much worse, and I had plenty of fun.

I made the transition to high school easily enough. Rebecca and Jeneher went to different schools... but I still had Wei-Chen... and now Kaffi came to Piner too : ). I liked ALL my classes, all my teachers.

Gah *is having trouble where to begin * XD. Okay, since I neglected to mention this in the 8th grade year, I have to mention my pokemon websites thing... Somewhere in 8th grade, I found the very first two Team Rocket websites. Both called TR Headquarters ^_^*. There was the impressionable one from Exo/Josh... the *famous* one... and then there was the other one which became the Romantic interlude. That place just opened up a whole world to me 0__o. FICS, PICTURES... just a whole LOT of stuff...

Eventually I found TR palace... the first TR site completely devoted to TR fics. Gah, the rest is history. Joined the message baord... my very first one, and started writing fics of my own, but alas they're all gone now ;__;. I still miss my good old ramble land. My first online buddies... it was great. NEVER any fights always so peaceful, always got along. Sometimes I regret shutting it down, but I know it's for the better. The new BBS that WIndie made up went dead in like a month -_-. It's just that no one had a place for Ramble Land in them anymore...

Well, ANYWAY. Where was I?

I think the most important part of my whole 9th grade thing was that I met Krysta 0_o. h00 we had FUN. FUN FUN. She was so cute and just as silly as me. For the first time, the whole rain thing was born... where we would even stand under gutters. I'll never forget this quote from Mrs Mansell

"Oh, did you guys get baptized during lunch?" LOL!!

Yah, Staa and I had fun... Met Aubrey in band in 9th grade again. We became buddies that carried over for the remaining time she was in bad. I miss her ;_;. Yah, found out like the *second* day of band that she liked James and pokemon 0__o. What else...

Basically... fanfiction, pokemon and playing with Staa in the rain were my highlights from 9th grade.

Next session: TENTH GRADE. *cowers*
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Mainly because somehow I got myself into manic depression again. I stayed up 'till talking to Titus 'till 8 am... RECORD w00t , but that was 2 weeks ago. told him that I could possibly go into manic depression from it, and I did 0_o. It wasn't his fault though, I just didn't think it could happen and plus it was nice convo. I think I was paranoid about failing english and then I got a "C", I found out. It's kind of bad when you never get a C in your life. That class annoys me. All my classes annoy me right now actually. I don't have any friends in any of them, which never really bothered me, but I want distractions sometimes -__-.

Then I'm really paranoid about this badminton thing. I don't know if I want to do it this year and I have been dreading it. Also, I'm pretty behind in Japanese 'cause I've missed more than one class. And I don't like the German class very much right now 0_o. It's really nice learning about the German culture and what sports they play, and how they like brass instruments, what revolutions they had, but that's all that seems to be sticking right now other than "ich bin blau".

I can't talk very well anymore either -__-. I have much trouble saying things and I'm on an guilt trip for every possible thing imaginable... what's worse is that all I can really think about is doing school work and how I can't do it. It takes 3 times as long as it used to to do it.

I think the main problem is what the $R&()#%#*&% I'm going to do after I graduate. Despite the hell the SATs put me through last year, I want to be a junior again and not graduate. I'm too immature to go off to college and be by myself. I don't want to let go -_-. And it sucks because my family is financially sound enough to out me through uni too. I don't like most of the colleges I applied to now, and I didn't apply out of state when at first, that was all I wanted to apply to. In AP Engrish(hehe...) *ahem* we had to respond to this short article entitled "Endings" about how it is necessary to end things and go on with life so you can achieve what you need to and go on with your life and how it takes courage to do so. I just think that when I go to college, I will end all my friendships both on and offline and be alone for the rest of my life, which in a way is how I want things to be. It's scary being close to somebody, they depend on you to keep happy, you depend on them. I want to... depend on my nintendos, which I have barely played in a while. I think all in college I want to study and... play nintendo. All Ive been doing for the last 2 weeks is try to study and it's annoying because I'm good at it, usually. I studied so hard on my chem test and got an 89 on the final, when most of the class failed it. I know I have what it takes to study and learn... so I want to go to college, but I like sameness, I don't welcome change, it seems. I want to go back and be immature and stupid. It seems I like I have to abruptly END that now though. And I feel guilty for whining . The only reason I put it off was quite truthfully, Adrienne is the only one who reads this thing and this is pretty st00pid.

Also, I miss Wei-Chen ~_~. She told me how we just see less and less of each other every year. But at least she said the wanted to come over . That makes me happy 'cause NO ONE really comes over and she's spent the night like, twice ^_^*. My parents suck. Sometimes, I don't want friends at all. I want my nintendos ~_~... I'm nawt a good friend because I only know how to be funny and when something serious comes up, I am very silent and then get traumatized. I'm not good with dealing with serious things at all. I went over to Alexis's house last weekend and listened to her for hours talk about her mother. I'm STILL scared 0_o. Which is kind of contradictory because I'm pretty good at handling things like that online... maybe.

I want to sleep without waking up in the morning/middle of the night. That'd be good.

I think the best part of all this mayhem was that I got to go with Adrienne to ... eat a sandwich in the intersection today ^_^. I yelled at some guy in a monster truck . I don't think staying up 'till 11 is cutting it anymore either. I'm tired of jazz band... yah, among not thinking well, not speaking well , I can't play my instrument well anymore either.


'Nuff of the whine fest....
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I don't feel very good about that AP english class of mine. I didn't turn in 3 assignments and my notebook SUCKS so, I dont think I'm doing well, at ALL. There will be a surprise when grades come -__-. I hope it won't be too bad of a surprise. *is nervous*

After school today I went to visit Mr Duel 'cause I needed some help... after yelling at me because I still didn't know my "HON IIV A", he told me he wasn't worried about me, unlike 75 % of the class and if I looked over the questions a bit, I should do fine. Well, I HAVE been doing that when I went home, and now there is just a few select problems that I don't know. *still is worried though* ;_;.

AS FOR YESTERDAY... afterschool Scoggy , Adrienne and I walked home after a very long time of not doing that. I prank called her mom after hearing some really cool stories about when Dan and Jim spend hours prank calling a bunch of places. I wish I could have such skillz, but I ALWAYS start laughing whenever I start a prank call, and sure enough, when I called Adrienne's mom, that happened XD

Me: Is this the Guadalajara Mexican Resteraunt?
Phyllis: No... this is the Johns' residence.
Me: 'Cause I'd like some *HAHAHAHAHAHAHA* Na *HAHAHAHAHA* Chos *click*

XD;

Then we went to the PARK! OOOHHH ^_^. It was MUCH more fun than the days of scoggy, me, and melissa at the park ^_^. We played a many games there ^_^. First game: writing scoggy's name as many times as we could in the wet sand and having him try to fractically erase it XD. Second game: Adrienne throwing sand at us. YEAH, that game SUCKED so.. Scoggy proposed that we play pictionary! WHEE ^__^. that was FUN. Best pictionary: Scoggy's one of Kevin. It was a stick figure holing something. I was like "trumpet player!" and scoggy lit-up XD. Then he smashed the picture all up and I was like "KEVIN!" XD!! Oh that one was good. Scoggy seemed to be the subject of ALL the pictionaries after a while 0_o. I mean all the stick figures had "S's" on them ^_^*. After we got sick of that, I guess it was my turn to think of a game ^_^*. They were making this huge moutain of sand... so I SAT in it... and made a "butt-print" XD. SO then we all made butt-prints and compared them XD. We even got scoggy to take of his precious letterman's jacket to play that game with us XD. THEN I went home and... slept

And today I walked home in the rain ^_^.

SO YESH my daily events are TERRIBLY interesting, ne? ^_-
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OOOP, no title. Today went pretty crappy for the most part, I found out that I didn't make it to NorCal when Scoggy did and I was very dissapointed/upset. What surprised me was that Marshall didn't get accepted either, and he's like the best musician in band 0_o. He said he didn't practice though... meh... I did practice, a lot. I even took the damn fat-arsed sax home with me. I tried hard.... but I guess I knew it. My last section REALLY sucked. Badly. -_-. I must have been a joke ;___;. I seemed to get over it quickly enough during school, but now that I'm thinking about it, I've gone all depressed again -___-.

I found out that I have a D+ in chemistry. There could be a chance to raise it to a C. I hope so... gawd, I CAN'T get a D, I mean... 0_o. aof[ihsdoifdsoiuhfdsopidfsyhfdsiodfs. I fucking hate that class.

The only thing that really made me happy today was hearing about Ms... wait, now she's MRS Lacey's marriage in Vegas. Damn that was funny. She said she has a tape. She had the Elvis Impersonator be her minister, sorta. I really want to see the tape, badly XD.

Hmmm... also, we just got our new speech assignment. We're basically doing this monologue. I've looked all over for material from Boromir, but didn't find his monologue to be interesting enough.... Hmm... I'll be STUCK.

Hmmm... I guess I have a quote 'o the day... but it's by me, 'cause I'm such a damn funny bitch and all....

MajesticArcanine: Would you marry someone in Vegas?
Team Rocket TG: Sure
MajesticArcanine: : )
MajesticArcanine: I want to have a wedding in vegas, if I ever get married.
Team Rocket TG: Awww
Team Rocket TG: ::snuggles close::
MajesticArcanine: *snuggles*
MajesticArcanine: I want to have an elvis impersonator be my minister and run down the isle in my catsuit.

homework >_

Dec. 5th, 2002 07:01 pm
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I shuld be doing it. But I'm taking quizes instead!

But I got too excited! I'm FINALLY Hermione!! *jumps up and down* after like 10 different quizes :p


Hermione%20Granger
The Ultimate *Which Harry Potter Character are You?* Quiz

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Duel has made our chemistry test on Monday, GOOD. The whole class failed our last chemsity test (excpet one D by the Tennessee girl :P) but I got the worst F at 7 percent. I got one problem right. He told me not to get discouraged, but I'm discouraged already. I've never failed a class before in my life. Never even gotten a C before... this is all very stressing ~__~.

Today Simpson yelled at me 'cause I was looking at Danny and that horrible echo of the brushes and thus, not coming in on time. Sometimes when I'm nervous, I giggle and I couldn't stop laughing. Simpson got more pissed ^_^*. "You missed rehersal yesterday and now you're screwing around. it's NOT funny". mehehe..

I'm stuck on this essay that's due tomorrow. AND I have tons of history homework. Because of lack of sleep, I'm beginging to go psychotic and brain dead again. I hate when that happens. I hope it doesn't get any worse.

All I want to do now is go on IM and talk 'cause this isn't helping -_-.

This is all very stupid, I should just make every entry private.
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I couldn't make my Thursday goal... So I went online at around 1 or 2 am after the traipsing : ).... and talked to koop, adrienne, Titus aaaannd Teegee ^___^. I was a very happy Arky.

OH YUZ, the actual traispsing! I came to Adrienne's house at about 11... and she was like "what are you doing out here so late?!" I finally convinced her to go out with me :P. mwahahaha!! *ahem*. She let me have this really weird tasting energy drink and we went to the sacred ghetto bench at the park where I found out my platypus story was painted over ;_;. *wails* IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER WRITTEN!!!!!!!

ANYWAY, so we go past Scoggy's house to the railroad tracks. The while time I hear "Johan johan johan..." wait! there WAS a bit of "Shyva" mixed into that too! Suuu... we walk along for a while... and we see some BATS! Well, we thought they were bats! So I started practicing my bat impression... which turned into a bat mating call... and now I'm SO good ^__^.

When we turned back, we heard a bunch of dogs HOWL. It sounded like a wild pack of coyotees, really 0__o. SO WE RUN and RUN and then we get tired and start walkin' again ^__^. That was actually kinda scary... On the way back Adrienne got us lost! But I, being the brilliant navigator that I am, found the way again! THAT WAS HOW IT WENT, REALLY. we were on this street "batter sea" XD. I kept thinking of how I wanted to be on the Santa Rosa Street naming committee so I could rename everything to bush. That street would be great! "Batter Bush!"

oh... and Adrienne and I wanted to be cannibals and form a new donner party. We couldn't decide a name though!

Earlier that day, Aubrey came over : ). We palyed Mario Sunshine a lot and watched that movie I borrowed from Wei-Chen. It had to be one of the sappiest movies I've ever seen, not to mention the little WENCH in it. GAAAHHH. I was SO happy when the main character slapped her! That beetch was the most manipulative little thing I've ever seen 0_o.

Oh, and instead of sleeping, I went to Alexis's house with Adrienne again. i hat ehr!111111 she got an intarveew :p. I go steal it from her. And then I'll steal that green card and monkey wrench she wants to steal from me too! MWAHAHAHAHAAAAA!! YESH, anyway, we laughted like a bunch of retards there.

And ROTFL. AND STIFFU. STIFFU : ). Alexis was confused. Poor internet- deprived thing...

Oh, and I think I'm failing chemistry again. I hate that class.
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I don't really see what the point is for me writing these things is... except maybe that I'll look back on it later in life, but it gets annoying that I feel like I HAVE to write in it when something I think is even semi- important comes up.

After doing a whole lot lof chores for my parents, my dad interrupts my Mario Sunshine play time with "Why don't you take the dog on a walk?". I finally agree, and I decide to go to Jeneher's house with him.

However, that's not what happened. Parallel to her house are these railroad tracks. I can't belived I've never walked on railroad tracks before. Railroads tracks are so symbolic for me 0__o. Railroads seem to just stretch out FOREVER. They are something that is infinite... I can only wish that the railroad tracks close to me had lovely scenery like ones from movies, but I guess I'm not that lucky. I can't wait to walk again. Today was the perfect time to first do it. The weather was really nice... not too warm, not too cold... Weisse was behaving really nicely too. I really loved my time there 0_o. The scenery wasn't anything too special, but walking along those tracks was really... just great. I didn't think of much at all. Just: Who I wanted to walk with next time.

Scoggy and Wei-Chen. Wei-Chen because I think she'd enjoy such a thing and we really never spend any time with each other anymore, and Scoggy because... well, I don't know why. I want to walk with Scoggy in the summer because I think after the school year is over, he and I will no longer be friends and I want that one day to spend time walking with him, even if we don't walk about anything in particular... Scoggy and I will probably never be close and I've accepted that, but I'm getting sad thinking about the time when I will leave school and he will be one of the people I lose contact with. So anyway, I plan to ask Wei-Chen to walk with me during Turkey break next week

Oh, after that, I did stop by Jeneher's house and we went to Sunday night badminton. We played a match of mixed doubles ^___^. I was happy, of course. Mixed doubles is more or less, my specialty.

Dammit, in other news... I need to do homework. The stuff that I actually DIDN'T forget at school is not done. I have never been a procrastinator, really... I can't wait until Turkey Break ~__~.

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