It's sad I do this to myself
Apr. 27th, 2003 11:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zaichikarkyI had a whole week to finish the engrish book , and I start reading it half an hour ago. I'm starting to feel it return to me, I can feel the anxiety, my head is starting to morph into that cloudy stage...
I'm not sure why I didn't read the book. I knew I didn't like it, I don't like this book. Alexis told me a few days ago "It's James Joyce, I told you to run for it if you ever encounter James Joyce!" Or something like that XD. NOW I remember! Well , anyway, I didn't read him at all last week and I think I was supposed to finish the book, or something crazy like that. SO now I'm very shaky thinking about it, and trying to read it. I know it's my fault I put myself into this, but I still can't help but to find someone/something else to blame.
I go to sparknotes and then fall into the spell that my engrish teacher created. "I challenge you all NOT to use sparknotes, don't let some literary guru think for you!" Okay, so I'm not reading that because I feel dirty someway...
There are a bumber of things I could do right now.
1. Go on AIM and try not to mention this or how horrible I feel.
2. Go on AIM and talk to someone about how horrible I feel .
3. Uninstall AIM
4. Go to bed.
5. Try to read this book some more.
I feel pretty calm right now, but I know that as soon as I even TRY to read the book, I will start again. I wish I didn't have mental problems, not all people have them. Most know how to deal with stress/anxiety. I wish I knew their secrets XD.
Well, looking at my options, I'm not sure which path I want to take. Going to bed would be the best choice, but it's almost midnight and I've been going to bed later... I probably won't be able to sleep because of the book and time would be wasted on trying to fall asleep.
Meh, uninstalling AIM would be just stupid and I'd reinstall it the next day or something -_-. Of course, I blame it for everything, as usual...
Going on AIM would... it could make me feel better, but I would be losing sleep.
I have tried reading the book, yeah. There is no way I could calm myself down in time to get anything done.
*stupid cryptic, HAH!*
Je ne me souviens pas que Titus voulait se coucher! TROIS HEURES?! C'EST UNMANLY. Je suis triste parce-que j'ai voulu parler avec lui ;__;.
I'm not sure why I didn't read the book. I knew I didn't like it, I don't like this book. Alexis told me a few days ago "It's James Joyce, I told you to run for it if you ever encounter James Joyce!" Or something like that XD. NOW I remember! Well , anyway, I didn't read him at all last week and I think I was supposed to finish the book, or something crazy like that. SO now I'm very shaky thinking about it, and trying to read it. I know it's my fault I put myself into this, but I still can't help but to find someone/something else to blame.
I go to sparknotes and then fall into the spell that my engrish teacher created. "I challenge you all NOT to use sparknotes, don't let some literary guru think for you!" Okay, so I'm not reading that because I feel dirty someway...
There are a bumber of things I could do right now.
1. Go on AIM and try not to mention this or how horrible I feel.
2. Go on AIM and talk to someone about how horrible I feel .
3. Uninstall AIM
4. Go to bed.
5. Try to read this book some more.
I feel pretty calm right now, but I know that as soon as I even TRY to read the book, I will start again. I wish I didn't have mental problems, not all people have them. Most know how to deal with stress/anxiety. I wish I knew their secrets XD.
Well, looking at my options, I'm not sure which path I want to take. Going to bed would be the best choice, but it's almost midnight and I've been going to bed later... I probably won't be able to sleep because of the book and time would be wasted on trying to fall asleep.
Meh, uninstalling AIM would be just stupid and I'd reinstall it the next day or something -_-. Of course, I blame it for everything, as usual...
Going on AIM would... it could make me feel better, but I would be losing sleep.
I have tried reading the book, yeah. There is no way I could calm myself down in time to get anything done.
*stupid cryptic, HAH!*
Je ne me souviens pas que Titus voulait se coucher! TROIS HEURES?! C'EST UNMANLY. Je suis triste parce-que j'ai voulu parler avec lui ;__;.
