zaichikarky | Entries tagged with friends: jennifer

Since I said I'll post what I did in Oregon other than be annoyed with Jen, here is most of what I can remember-

She told me to be ready by 8 in the morning, and she came by 8:40 and showed off her new car. It looks so cool on the outside, but it's crappy on the inside for several reasons, none of which I care to whine about XD. All in all, because it was cheaply made and everything in it is manual and not at all as fancy as any other car I've ridden in.

Maybe I will make a map or something. We rode ALL over Oregon. I have not even been all over California like that 0_o. I visited So Cal only ONCE.... oh wait, excluding the disney land band trips, but like actually visiting other attractions, it was once when I was 8.

( oregon map )

Getting there wasn't too bad. It was very cold as we got more north and of course we faced a lot of trees... but I was expecting that. We passed Mount Shasta and I got a loverly picture of it but the picture got deleted :|. I think at one point I opened up my camera memory card port wrong and messed up the data >_<. So all my scenery pics are gone, except that shasta one was the only decent one so that don't matter.

Her biodad's family was really fun. It was her biodad and his two daughters(not related to him). His wife was in the hospital with a bad flu. She's kinda crazy I hear, just a bit. Not as bad as Jenn's mom, but I kinda wanted to meet her anyway. They had a PS2 so I automatically asked what games they had and they had crappy ones. I told them that I would officially introduce them to fighting games and so we all went to blockbuster. I picked out SCIII from all the fighting games they had because I thought that's the one they would enjoy the most(it's good for beginners and has lots of stuff to do in it).

I also picked out Burnout 3 for them cause they said they played lots of racing games. I heard online appraisal for it. I played burnout 2 with TG when I first met him and thought the game sucked ass. Burnout 3 is slightly better, however I ONLY liked this new mode thing where you would race around a bunch of cars at superfast speeds and try to wreck them as much as possible. Winner would be who wrecked the most cars or who would wreck like 9 cars and the opponent(s) would get their cars trashed too much. Yeah I played that mode tons of times. I hate crash mode in Burnout. It is NOT fun at all. Very boring as a matter of fact and they coulda done a lot better with it.

They loved SCIII a lot and at times would manage to beat me if I used certain characters. I also unlocked some new characters for them. Story mode is very awsome in it. the tactical game is okay I suppose... I made a cute, black tomboy character for it to use in the tactical game. You have to make characters of your own and then as you buy more crap, you can make really cool characters as you like and battle your friends with your own characters. Justin and his friends would spend a lot of time doing this. It was incredibly stupid because most of the time they were trying to make someone from some anime, but it wouldn't exactly be them, and their character would end up really sucking at battling anyway 0_o. Oh that's right. Sean has the freaken game! I guess I know who's house I'll be at more often now :3. I completely forgot. yeeey.

So we played lots of games, watched some DVDs(I mostly liked "Murderball", a documentary about physically handicap RUGBY players). Man the sport is brutal. The guys have special wheelchairs and just SMASH them against each other... that's a big part of the game. It was an interesting documentary. Go Canada.lol.

Then we went to Jen's aunt in Ontario... she's more of a grandma family friend. There was like NOTHING between Redmond and Ontario... just a bunch of very small towns with literally populations of about 100 people. We know because we would ask almost every town that we would pass. The biggest, John Day had 1400 people apparently... Ontario, where her aunt lives, has 2000 people I think... seemed like a lot more 0_o. Maybe she was off. We played some fun boardgames and I watched a very very cheesy movie about a girl and her pet raven with her aunt.

Her aunt told us not to take highway 84 back because it was going over some mountains and we'd get snowed out and stuck there etc etc. It ended up actually being the tamest highway we took...

We ended up at chaos's very early and she was considering some New Years stuff for us to do, but we both aren't quite 21. So we played some video games that night and went to bed. I think pretty much all we did the next day/night is watch harry potter 3 in the evening with some friends of hers. It was pretty good. I didn't mind seeing it, but I'm not a big fan of Harry Potter. Jenn apparently hated it the worst out of all the movies(and apparently she's read all the books too) but she has weird opinions. She thought LOTR 2 was the best one. wtf it was the worst. I think so far Harry Potter 3 was the very best one.

The next day was mainly spent skiing! I didn't get to have as much fun as I'd have liked cause mainly I had to bail Jenn out of trouble. I had to teach her how to ski since she'd only been once like years ago. The genious skiied in a pair ofjeans and two thin sweaters. She blamed me for being cold too XD. The last trip up the mountain I took her to the very top and it was snowing heavily XD. She wanted to KILLLL me. lol. I also couldn't find my goggles from home and I hate skiing without them >_<. Skiing overall was pretty cheap 0_o. A lot better than Tahoe and the snow was much, much better from when I went this year. It was fresh and nice to ski on ^_^. Chaos originally did the bunnyslope on her own on a snowboard and then went on the hill without us. She thought it was fun sliding really really fast down the slope but didn't know how to stop so she injured herself >_<. Reminds me of the only time I snowboarded. She landed hard on her ribs, and me somehow on my CROTCH! I swear I had an enormous bruise that looked like Oklahoma down there XD.that was terribly painful though ;_;. I'm sure she's feeling better.

That night we stayed up a long time watching Dawson's Creek. She's really into the show and has all the boxsets out so far. It's the most overdramatic show like ever. She told me a lot of what was happening in it and I guess just about every character faced some gruesome end or had something terrible happen to them! I found it rather funny. She was like "oh this girl is my favorite character but then she dies by falling off the pier later on in the show."...! I still really like drama shows like it though. So when we meet again we'll probably watch more XD.

Before that her roomate was out with us watching Jen's bootcamp training DVD with us and then when Jen went to sleep, he stayed up and showed me pokemon crap for like... a really long time 0_o. Some of it was interesting but unlike Chaos i was too polite to tell him to go away XD. He's a nice enough guy, I just would never want to live with him. I doubt he's too much worse than Stephan actually, but she must have an incredibly low tollerance for him. Listening her talk to him is hilarious for me because she goes out of her way to insult him and find a reason to yell at him XD. I find these things incredibly funny so I tried hard not to laugh when they'd be bickering:

Chaos: Does anyone honestly want to hang out with BRANDON?
Brandon : What else would you be doing if you weren't hanging out with me?
Chaos: Not being with you which is infinately better than this.

They also were arguing about this stupid Godzilla game that we were playing. She hated it and Jen did too. It was overall a stupid game and I'm pretty sure he liked it only cause he has an obsession with Godzilla. So they would be arguing about what made it a stupid game XD.

And then lastly I petted her cat, Rival, a lot. WAIIII I loved him!!! I think I'll go upload a pic of him now. He is one of the tamest cats I've ever met and he's sooo cute! I like Orange cats. Second only to black cats. I doubt I'd be thinking he was so cute if he actually peed on any of my stuff, but he never did. He was so nice and cuuuuute and liked pets ^_^.

I took lots of pics of him and we set my camera on self time so me and chaos got a shot in with each other. I really liked how one of them turned out ^_^. Yaaaay. I hope she'll come visit me in California sometime. I always know lots of fun places to take people. lol. Too many plaaces in fact ^_^*.

I don't have pics this time. Next time when I'm back in Santa Cruz.

Wei-Chen's been over recently. Today we went to Japan town. Maybe I'll post about that and my classes some other time : ).

Current Mood: cranky

I was so busy and lacking internet acess for a long time.

first ski trip
On Dec 23-25th we went skiing in Heavenly which is half on the california border/half on the nevada border. It takes about 4 hrs for us to get there, but it's kinda worth it. so we skiied half a day from 12~4 and from the first lift, my parents abandoned me! They skiied off without telling me where they went while I was fixing my ski boots or gloves or something. So it was kinda fun that day not to follow them around and go off on my own. The second day they went out on their own and I got stuck in the hotel with terrible cramps all day. Primarily because my period was late. That day the weather was the very best. *sigh* ;_;. My dad then bitched at me and said that I could have went and just ignored the pain. Uh no? He's like

"you think I don't know how that feels? you've never been smashed in the balls!"

That's COMPLETELY different. That goes away after a little while, my badcramps go away after HOURS. I asked him if he would want to be skiing if he had smashedballs pain for hours and he was like

"yeah I would! I'd just be like *meeeep*"

He complained about wasting money on the ski rental,but they would have wasted more money if they'd bought me the same ticket that they got, which was for 2 days. I told mom to get me a one day ticket from the start because I knew I was going to get terrible cramps.

We had a hotel also right on the nevada/ca border but on the californian side. It was so funny. Right when you would go across the border of CA all the casino/casino resorts would start. What is with Nevada and casinos? I wish I was 21 ;_;. I want to badly go to las vegas for my birthday, get drunk off my ass and gamble all my money away. I'm already planning for this :3. I went to 2 large arcades in the casinos when I split from my parents one night and ended up not even using a dollar in both of them because man they sucked so much. they had those games for the kids where you get tickets and other stupid crap... mainly racing games. One of the arcades was really huge too 0_o. I was disappointed : (. I expected at least a couple fighting games. So I guess the santa cruz arcade is still supreme for me, and it's not even that great cause the joysticks are messed up on so many machines, especially my favorite games. The only time I really go there anymore are when Justin comes down.

On x-mas day, the weather was terribly windy and the gondola was closed because of that. My parents only went skiing on that day because of me :3. We got stuck on the nevada side of the mountain, the worse side, because the lifts taking you to the california side were all closed. Most of the lifts were closed, actually... When we got to the top of the mountain, we got stuck in this huge wind that actually made people blow into us(we were on flat ground/snow). So then we decided to go back home ^_^. It took us like 5 hours to get home because it was raining really hard. Just about every single time we go home from tahoe, it rains like that. Weird :3. Dad was saying how he can't remember when it hasn't rained like that on the way back.

bitching about Jennifer for a very long time

So Jen and I went to oregon on her brand new pontiac sunfire. It's a very pretty(on the outside) but bad on the inside car. Every thing is manual in it, including the transmission. So she wouldn't let me drive it at all. she was teaching me stick shift on her old car. Also her CD player would skip after it was used for a while.

Also the only CD she brought was of course her Dixie Chicks one and of course insisted upon listening to it a bazillion times. We never listened to the radio like I wanted either. She ended up buying another country CD in Wallmart(forgot exactly where) and it really sucked(other than the first song "The Devil went Down to Geogia"). I bought an ABBA CD for 4 bucks which she hated and wouldn't let me listen to and a Kelly Clarkson CD because I actually really like her XD. I forgot to let Chaos copy them : (. Man I hate the Dixie Chicks so much now *cri*. I used to really like them to. Thanks a lot, Jen!

I probably should mention that it's hard for me to spend 24/7 with just about anyone. Jen wasn't the most terrible person I could spend like 9 days 24/7 with. That would be Stephan ^_-. But she isn't one of the best either. First of all, she does take after her mom in several ways, including the "it's my way or the highway" thing. She has to have things her way or she will be a huge bitch. Fortunately for me, I love to capitalize on moments like that and just provoke her to get even MORE pissed. Some people know that about me, especially Adr :3. I usually don't do that to my friends, but Stephan and Jennifer are prime targets, sometimes Justin too. Because if I think they're getting really bitchy for really retarded reasons, I just pick on them a lot and annoy them further for my own amusement *isbad*.fortunately, I am VERY tolerant of just about everything, at least, for a while : ).

Like we got stuck on the way back through several heavy snowy areas in this gas station with snow all around. The snow was sticky(very fun) so I rolled this enormous snowball in front of her car. She was like "GET THAT FUCKING THING OUT OF THE WAY I CAN'T GET AROUND IT *cusses a lot more* XD" So I of course was like " no : )" She had to go in reverse and it was a pain to avoid it. lol. She almost drove off without me XD. She locked me out of her car for a while. lol.

With how immature I am, she can be a LOT more. Another incident was when her biodad(biological father) took us to some restaurant and she decided it'd be fun to make a ton of freaken spitwads and spit them all out at me. ewewewew I told her to stop about 5 times before I had enough and thrown half a glass of icewater at her XD. That was hilarious except I kinda accidently wrecked this drawing one of her step sisters was making cause the water got all over it :|

I also can't stand her cussing all the time. She never used to do it when she was younger because her mom would get pissed and her whole family was TEH TRAINED. With her going into bootcamp, it got WORSE. On the road it's "fucking *this*" and "fucking *that*" fuck everything >_<. I hate it when people cuss for no reason. I don't care if it's occasional, but I hate it when they do it out of surprise, excitement, or just because. Justin cusses all the time out of excitement and I'm training him not to, at least around me because I don't like it at all and it's a terrible habit. Like if he sees something he finds even slightly interesting it's a long string of the f-word for no reason.

I kid you not when I say I have NEVER heard either of my parents say a foul word. I don't think dad even says "shit". If I ever said one when I was younger, I got a "zatreshina" or a "padzatilnik". In Russian, there are about 5 or more words for a hit on the head. How creative. I don't even remember the differences anymore, but one is a hit to the back of the head, there are 2 different flicks to the forehead, and there are some other ones, I think. But my dad never cussed in Russian and never permitted anyone to teach me Russian cuss words, and my mom became like that too :p. He said that cussing reminded him of the vulgar lower class in Russia. I actually didn't know there WAS a lower class in the USSR, but I guess he meant uneducated people. So I was brought up never to do it around my parents, and now I do it only when I'm pretty pissed or sometimes very high excitement .

I also had to share a bed with her every single night which could be a pain because she not only takes over the whole bed and rolls around a lot, but likes to talk in her sleep XD. I used to hold conversations with her sleep talk when we were younger, but now it's just usually moaning. Also her mom would take the liberty to call at 5:30 in the morning and she would keep the phone on at all times. One morning that especially pissed me off was when her mom decided to start calling every 5 minutes starting at 8 am. I told her to turn the damn thing off but she was like "noo, I'm expecting a call from someone". Of course they never freaken called at 8 in the morning. So after that I would put her phone, on silent without her knowing about it.

I gave her/let her borrow my old cell phone by the way because she broke hers, and I don't think I want my old one back now. She always opens it with her mouth when she's driving in the car and I told her she was retarded because it's a flip phone and you can open up with a FLIP, and I demonstrated. She was like "oh that's too much of a hassle". I don't see how using your thumb to open a phone is more of a hassle than using your lips. So her slobber is all over the phone now. Also she must have played WAY too many games on the scroll pad thing because that doesn't work well anymore. gr. that was my favorite phone :|. It's much prettier than my current bulky MANPHONE and my parents stuck a cool larger battery in it. we also had the ugly model Justin has, that one went through the washing mashine and started working again after several weeks XD. I should have let her take that one, but I thought I'd be nice and let her use the better one.

The last thing I can think to complain about is that the last night I was at Chaos' she was especially annoying with rolling around all over the place and I slept for an hour. I was in a bad mood most of the way back until I rolled that giant snowball in front of her car XD. Then she decided to make a detour in her old college town,on the way back home) to get some crap in her old apt that she left behind. Her dad called and said that she should get her old car towed so he could work on it. So she made it her quest to find a truck/trailer to tow that car that night. Her grandmother said she didn't have one, so she started asking her old Russian roomate, Daria. Daria had 2 new roomates but said that one of them had a truck but wouldn't let ANYONE drive it cause I guess it was a piece of crap.

Man were her new roomates nerdy as hell. I'm sure they were engineering students. I told her I wanted this to be a SMALL detour and she said it would be. So we get there at 9 and spend half an hour getting all her computer crap together. I had to push aside tons of crap/tables/etc trying to free her ethernet cable(it was a 25 ft one). It was a mission that was finally sucessful. Then we waited another half an hour for her to argue with the nerdy guy about letting her borrow the truck. I don't know what they were talking about, but I think about half an hour of that was spent charting out the various ways to sebastopol(town nearby us) with all the flooding, traffic, etc. So I was talking to the Russian roomate about various things. She's a triple major. I kid you not. I think it's in physics, material sciences(something to do with computers I guess) and then something else. Crazy, crazy girl. Jeez. She used to have minors she could have finshed too. She has 7 engineering classes and worth 25 units this quarter. she entertained me because my phone had completely died as well as my gameboy. But she is a very interesting person. finally I told Jen I wanted to leave and we left at 11:30. So we spent 2.5 hours there. gr. I was expecting to get home at 10:30 so I could get to bed and wake up early for my dentist appointment at 8 am. I got back at like 1 or so.

So I'm unhappy cause I've slept 6 hrs in 2 days. I can get very depressed when that happens! But I'm not worried about it.

So now I'm doing a ton of laundry and writing this. I'm going to write about the fun parts next time. lol.

I hope I can see some friends before I head back to santa cruz later on tonight >_<.

naptime.

Current Mood: cranky

Before I get along with the rest of my NY tale....

I went to the UCSC website and checked out what classes I'm enrolled in. There is just *one* tenative thing, I decided. I still don't know whether I'll go ahead and shoot for calc again, or just be content with pre calc. My mom wants me to go for calc... I seriously learned LITTLE from pre calc. It fucked me up. Only "limits" did not confuse me... that was the easy part, heh... I wish I had my pre calc final. I studied a *LOT* for that... I swear for 3 full days in a row I did nothing but study for that test. I'm sure I did very well on it too... Anyway, if I manage to place into calc, I will end up having to end school at around 3 pm... if not, I end at 1:40 on fridays... this is important to me, because I'd like to end up going home evry weekend. it's be harder for me if class got out later...

Anyway, the tenative schedule is as follows:

US History(to 1877)-8 am- I <3 US history just tons and tons. Should have loads of fun with this class. I've just been *dying* to learn about the civil war. Only, it sucks that it's so early, heh.

Math- Pre Calc- 12:30. Meh. I don't know if I will keep it or move on to calc. I'll feel dumb for repeating it... but *shurg* I don't know....

Core- Jeez. Annoying. This is a class I *must* take. It sucks because for all other colleges, you take it for one semester. I have to do this the whole yar -_-. They already sent me an assignment due the first day of class. I'm somehow supposed to get the reader, and I have no idea how to do that.

Band- I don't know if I have to audition or what 0_o. But I'll probably be doing this mon/wed 5-7... I'm not in it yet. Can't enroll until school starts.

I just had the most ANNOYING couple of hours. I just went to the JC to request a transcript when I find out they HIKED it up to 5 dollars -_-. I'm really pissed now. I didn't have the 5 bucks at the time and had to come back. I guess I'll be going there tomorrow -_-. SO then I went to Jennifer's house to try to getn my nintendo stuff back from her sister and I find out it's locked up somewhere. Her sister isn't home and I end up having to take her other siter to soccer practice... bah.

I don't really know what I'm going to do tonight either ._.. I'm quite afraid. I keep going back to read old conversations and I realize that I won't ever have those kind of conversations without feeling wrong and stopping again. This saddens me and I don't know whether I have the guts to confront my fears , or do I keep running away? I'm going for more of the latter right now. I'll run away from everyone so no one has to feel uncomfortable about being the middle-man again ~_~. A big part of me wishes I wasn't in love anymore... but that won't happen for a long time. I'm still deeply in love and it's very hard ._.. Running away seems to be the easy thing to do, but it might not be the right thing. I don't know if i will run or not... We'll see.

Current Mood: scared
Current Music: U2

I'm tired. Kikaider is JUST on the brink of being too late for me... Jeez that show is SAD. I cannot stress this enough, it just may be the most tragic anime I've ever seen. I think someone dies in every other episode.

I'm almost done with my Kim Possible marathon. Today I saw the BEST episode of Kim Possible evar. I mean it makes me all spammy with glee XD. SPINNING TOPS OF DOOM! It was when they first meet Senior Senior Senior and Senior Senior Junior and Ron gives them the idea to turn their mansion into a lair XD. "Never EVER tell anyone to buy spinning tops of doom!" I can't watch that episode enough XD.

As for the NON TV news...

Tuesday

I went to Ukiah with Adrienne ^__^. I wasn't bored on the way there because half the time we wrote notes to each other about a bunch of random things. Lesse... Jeferry X Guh Guh X BLOATCAT *snickers*, um, my mom opening up her own BRA Museum... Spanish/French? That's all I could remember anyway! I gave her grandma my interview and found out she was from Kentuxx0rs like this other dweeb I know ^_-.

Then we went to this LAKE. With DAMS, but the dams had to be invisible or something because I did so NOT see any >:0. We walked around a LOT in the heat , up and down lots of hills. I got very jealous because I saw many jet skiiers and I wanted to jet ski *whaaa....*. I was quite sweaty and tired after all that XD. Then I found this BAT. Adrienne and I fouht over it, but I was TEH MASTAA and whatnot ^_-.

WEDNESDAY

hehe. Jeneher had CAR PROBLEMS XD. I was walking home after class and suddenly I see her by the freeway off ramp outside her car. What started with "Can you do me a HUGE, HUGE favor ended up with her and I pushing the car to a few different places" ^^*. She somehow got it started so she could get to her class, and I tagged along to hear her speech, but after class ^_^*. She ended up getting it up a street and we got out and pushed it some more. Hehe. A few people went out of their way to help me in the back until this lady stopped her car and did some really cool BUMPER X BUMPER ACTION. We easily pushed it into a parking spot at that point. Then we walked to the bus stop not before we stopped at her grandmother's Honey Sliced HAM store and she got me a free ham sandwich ^_-. This was a very GOOD ham sammich. It had THICK slices of ham, quite a difference to me than the thin, store-bought stuff I was used to. I still gave half of it to Jeneher because she's the one who got it for me ^_^*. I must buy more ham sandwiches from there, though. *drool* Haaam....

Hmm... that night I offered to snail-mail copies of my Chrono Trigger Sheet music for someone XD. Their birthday was in August, so it works out well ^_-. He told me "Why don't you find your 5 favorite songs and just send those over". ^_^*. I ended up looking through ALL my songs, and finding all my favorites XD. Actually, it was only 10 songs I like in there, heh.

I hope I get some ZELDA done today 0__o. I'm in this huge dungeon and even though I have that little cute bird-girl Medli in there with me, I ALREADY don't like it. I'm stuck in the very first room, pathetically enough -_-. I do not like dungeons very much. Jazzy accidently spoiled who will be in the NEXT dungeon with me! RARG. I hate spoilers XD. Oh well, he didn't mean it. But Medli is so cute ^___^. I think I go play NOW. Yeesssh....

Yeah, Hearst Castle was the destination on Tuesday... I have seen a LOT of castles in England and France, and I must say that W.R Hearst's Castle was nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing could beat the beauty of Leed's castle in England. That has to be my favorite one ever.

So W.R Hearst was a Publishing tycoon who built his private estate up here in the 30s. He hired a female architect by the name of Jullia Morgan to head off the project. The insides of it were very similar to what I've seen in England, the dark rooms and all. The outside pool was pretty gorgeous, though, and he had his own cinema inside his house too XD.

Hmm... so today I went to see Hulk with Jeneher. GOOD MOVIE. Better than I thought it would be. Though it should be called "The Incredible BOUNCING Hulk" because he got around largely through BOUNCING all over the place. Man could he bounce high! I think Ang Lee likes his characters jumping like that, Crouching Tiger, heh. We had to wash this car for her dad, though, because I slept in for the original time, and she could only get that offer. It was HOT and I didn't have my bathing suit like her ~_~.

What else... Yesterday I called TG and had fun with that, so I bought a bigger phone card. I called Titus today, and should call Shivs tomorrow ^_^. I've never heard Shivs's voice before. I bet it's cute XD. TG's voice is ubercute XD.

And, I got my first savings account... yey ^_^.

On Friday Adrienne and I went on this Asian Heritage night thing at school... some of the singers were really cool, others not so great. The dancing was the best... especially the Tahiitan dancing ^___^. *WIGGLE YER BOOTY*. But I think the best part of that night came when Adrienne persuaded me to walk home with her AND walk in the middle of the street XD. It was great because I started running and tried to step on all the dots in the middle of the road. We did that until we got exhausted. That was great fun ^__^. It reminded me a lot of our old traipsings... something we haven't done in a while ;_;.

Saturday, I went with Jeneher to this outdoors concert at a vineyard she performed in. The best part of that was that there was an abandoned railcar just sittin' there 0_o. Despite Jeneher's protestations, I climbed up to the top and ran around it back and forth a few times. Couldn't get inside the thing, but it was real nice on top anyway. I really enjoyed sitting there and looking at the pretty vineyard scenery ^__^.

The rest of the weekend involved me *attempting* to do homework. Well, I got some done, anyway. I'm very tired of my life right now ;_;. It just irritates me greatly. Maybe it will get better some day. I can only hope so. But right now, I can only see it getting worse and worse. As this time in my life ends, I'll get new worries and pressures and it will become even worse.

I'm just so tired of it all. I'm tired of feeling exhausted, I'm tired of doing work that makes no difference to me in the long run, I'm tired of forgetting everything, I'm tired of comparing myself to everybody, I'm tired of trying to talk when I can't, I'm tired of mutilating my hair as a nervous reaction, I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of all this school work, I'm tired of worrying about my future, I'm tired of being stupid.

That makes up some "BAD POETRY". If only it was in the correct form.

If I could sleep my life away
Nothing would lead me astray
I would only have my dreams to keep me alive
No conscious life could ever arrive
I want to stay warm in my bed
With no thoughts of depair running through my head
And if I should fall into the never-ending abyss
I could just rest assured there was nothing in my life to miss

Okay, I'm bored of this and it's late. Oh, this is wonderful "BAD POETRY". YUS.

It's amazing how this easter I'm probably not going to get ANY chocolate at all! EASTER IS MADE FOR CHOCOLATE, I TELL YA! I just want to go drive down to some store and buy a ten-pound bar of milk chocolate and eeet it ALL. ALL BY MYSELF. *drool* I need chocolate ;___;. *withdrawl*

I rented Metroid, I like it better than I thought I would, But it is hard for me. I got killed VERY easily and couldn't save when I got pretty far! GAH. You should be able to save anywhere you want in that game, I tell ya. It's pretty hard to figure out... The game is a one-week rental, so I'll be kept entertained during break, methinks...

Um, I also rented "Ringu" , finally. Heard enough hype about the Japanese version. It was such a good movie. It was rarely scary, but I got teary from fright sometimes ;_;. I HATE, HATE HATE it when things just pop up with an annoying , skeery chord. It's like "DRRRRREEEEEEEEE *SKEERY IMAGE*". Yes, I get scared -_-. Ringu had that. It was a GREAT plot though 0_o. I mean, you never woulda guessed, with the video tape ^_^*. I felt sorry for the ex-husband ;_;. The wife didn't seem remorseful at all. And I didn't know whether to laugh or be scared of Sadako XD. Some things are left unclear. For instance, why is the movie called "Ringu"? There was no ring symbol in the movie... I think it refers to the telephone call, but the ex husband never got one and he was killed by Sadako, not the reporter! AHH. Weirdness... I liiiike that movie...

^__^.

I've been pretty happy lately... hmm... it should last 'till the end of the school year, if all goes well. Only AIM has been )@(*^@(*^###) ! It annoys me greatly sometimes. I don't wanna uninstall it, though ^_^*. 'Cause it takes too much time to fix my preferences.

Humm... I've been searching for College dorms I need to select to live in. It's hard. I can't find one I like -_-. They all seem the same to me, and I don't remember much of them from the campus visit... Gah. Maybe I shoulda done a spring break campus visit... um, I want to go there by myself >_<. Like my parents will ever let me though, *sigh*... This is kinda important. I don't want a crappy dorm XD. Oh well... I'm sure I can find one 0_o.

I'm off to Jeneher's now. I like my spring break lots. It's so eventful! Really XD.

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: NONE.

This one was the BIGGEST. I liked 8th grade, a lot. Sure I got made fun of, but that was the case for all of my school years XD;.

Hmm... Somewhere in there, I made friends with Jeneher, and went over to her house a lot. I liked it there. Her siblings and I got along half the time, half the time we fought XD. Elizabeth wasn't as nasty back then, but peter was nastier 0_o... I remember back then, they didn't have any new housing there, so we used to ride our bikes through the dirt lots and played this fun game with a tennis ball. Fun stuff, man! I spent the night there a lot...

Hung out with Rebecca a lot too. Meh... The three of us had one class together... that US history class where we made projects the whole entire year. We didn't get along very well... ehehehe. It was somewhere around 8th grade where I started to get annoyed with rebecca's "problem" of chronic lying and making up really stupid shit like being involved in a gang fight and whooping guys who were twice as big as her... Her mom took me home a lot... the second half of the year, I rode my bike.

One of my favorite classes was that 6th period science class I had with Mr Blake. I loved him 0___o. He was so experienced and always made things fun. Neil was in that class... but I remember that at the end of the year we worked on this project where we bent glass straws... and I broke mine ^_^*. Neil was my partner. He was also in my algebra class where I remember one time he ditched class to see the Star Wars remake. I remember WEIRD things 0_o.

Kay... in band... I played a mix of parts 0_o. The 7th graders played first clarinet most of the year and I got stuck in the back a lot.. where I met NYAR. I don't even remember how we got started inusing our names backwards, but Nyar just STUCK. And I still use it ... hehe, half the time. Okay, he talke to me... a LOT and ya, was irritating sometimes, but I liked him and most of the time, he was pretty nice to me. When we got to talking about games, one day he was like " I'm bringing Chrono Trigger for you. It's the best game EVER." So he brought it for me one day... and I took it home, and was annoyed. I'd never played an RPG, other than pokemon, and didn't know what the hell a real rpg was about. I was gunna ditch it, but Nyar was pretty adament about it and told me some stuff... and I stuck though, with the help of the VERY long guide he printed from gamefaqs. Yah, that was when I was introduced to gamefaqs too. CTCTCTCTCT... THANK YOU NYAR. I could go on and on about my CT antics... but I'll save that for later ^_-. basically, CT changed my world, becoming my most favorite video game...

OKAY, now for the important part. Fall, 8th grade. I rememebr being on my Sailor Moon thing and hearing about this *new* Japan-born show. I hated the idea. This new, stupid show was gunna replace MY Sailor Moon! I was adament that sailor moon would always be better and I'd never like it... until... everyone in my little group started talking about it. First Rebecca... then Jessie... AND THEN Wei-Chen. We started talking about Pikachu, and we didn't know how to pronounce it and she was all "Pikasoup"? SO that name stuck for a while XD. So I decided to watch an ep... don't remember what it was, remember I didn't like it. I said "this show SUCKS, man." But... somehow my curiosity got the better of me and... I watched the 15th episode. It was the first of the St Anne trilogy, James was getting his new voice and it was the first time(and one of the most memorable) when he cross-dressed. When I heard the "COOOL! ... COOOL!! ... COOOL!" thing for the first time, I was doubled over, laughing XD. I called Wei-Chen, I think even during the commercial 0_o, and we were laughing about it.

THAT started my pokemon obsession... which lasted for years... the first time "The battle aboard the St Anne" was shown. Then I was hooked. I recorded every ep, I made sure to catch pokemon every day after school, not ever missing ONE ep... I was so hooked... got the games, got entranced playing through 4 straight hours of pokemon red. Cheated and cought all the pokemon, and Mew was given to me^_^*. Eventually got into the card thing... but it wasn't until 9th grade when I bought the charizard card off a kid for 10 bucks XD. I rememeber Ben and I did some pokemon stuff... during that time in 8th grade, he was half decent to me. I got the players guide then and had more fun(but I lost that ;__;...).

Did Baby-think-it-over. heheh... twice. Had more fun the first time, in 7th grade. I thought they were pretty cute and I got to play dress-up. Hey, what girl doesn't like to play dress-up?! Of course I didn't like being woken in the middle of the night, but who does? ^_^*

Some how, I neglected to mention Stephen in all of this... Oboe player... made friends with him too in 7th grade. We became pretty close until Rebecca got in the picture and they became a couple... and broke up after like 2 weeks 0_o... then Stephen and I kind of drifted apart. I felt pretty bad, because I let Rebecca influence me too much, when I wish I would have been a better friend to him... I still regret that. Sometimes I wonder how he turned out. How he's changed... I'll never know, though.

Everything plays upon everything else... I met Solomon through Stephen and learned about his Pokemon obsession too. He memorized ALL the pokeraps and typed them up for Rebecca XD. Gawd, that was FUN. We talked pokemon a lot... Hehe...

8th grade eventually ended... along with all the fun. There WAS the Great America trip, Alcatraz, and the 8th grade Windsor Waterworks... hehe... FUN. I was hesitant to leave that Jr High. It was like a prison, I mean detentions for leaving your backpack unattended 0___o, but I generally didn't get in trouble. Yah, I regretted leaving...

There's so much more I can type and type... but mom's waking me up early to go turn in that college form that'd due eh... tomorrow -__-. $*&($##(*&.

Yeah, I liked 8th grade. A lot. I'm rememebring stuff I didn't mention now. Too lazy to go back. Maybe next entry. OOOH... FRESHIE!!

I don't really see what the point is for me writing these things is... except maybe that I'll look back on it later in life, but it gets annoying that I feel like I HAVE to write in it when something I think is even semi- important comes up.

After doing a whole lot lof chores for my parents, my dad interrupts my Mario Sunshine play time with "Why don't you take the dog on a walk?". I finally agree, and I decide to go to Jeneher's house with him.

However, that's not what happened. Parallel to her house are these railroad tracks. I can't belived I've never walked on railroad tracks before. Railroads tracks are so symbolic for me 0__o. Railroads seem to just stretch out FOREVER. They are something that is infinite... I can only wish that the railroad tracks close to me had lovely scenery like ones from movies, but I guess I'm not that lucky. I can't wait to walk again. Today was the perfect time to first do it. The weather was really nice... not too warm, not too cold... Weisse was behaving really nicely too. I really loved my time there 0_o. The scenery wasn't anything too special, but walking along those tracks was really... just great. I didn't think of much at all. Just: Who I wanted to walk with next time.

Scoggy and Wei-Chen. Wei-Chen because I think she'd enjoy such a thing and we really never spend any time with each other anymore, and Scoggy because... well, I don't know why. I want to walk with Scoggy in the summer because I think after the school year is over, he and I will no longer be friends and I want that one day to spend time walking with him, even if we don't walk about anything in particular... Scoggy and I will probably never be close and I've accepted that, but I'm getting sad thinking about the time when I will leave school and he will be one of the people I lose contact with. So anyway, I plan to ask Wei-Chen to walk with me during Turkey break next week

Oh, after that, I did stop by Jeneher's house and we went to Sunday night badminton. We played a match of mixed doubles ^___^. I was happy, of course. Mixed doubles is more or less, my specialty.

Dammit, in other news... I need to do homework. The stuff that I actually DIDN'T forget at school is not done. I have never been a procrastinator, really... I can't wait until Turkey Break ~__~.

I get home from a VERY boring day, after losing my keys and go to Alexis's house. I find out that she is VERY pissed at Matt because he said he broke into my house and she didn't like that. I knew he was in my house, but I wasn't surprised because that's why I left the door open for him. I went home and told him that Alexis demanded an apology from him, he thought he did nothing wrong though, and said he wouldn't go apologize.... So Alexis, her mom and I left to buy groceries for our raunchy sleepover. Alexis then came over to my house, getting mad at Matt because he kept calling her grumpy. She left... then he called her, telling her to come back. Yeah... he did a bunch of things to annoy me before then, by wasting the third roll of film in my camera, picking up the phone when I told him NOT to, and finally I just had enough and blew up at him. I told him he was the most annoying person I've even known. I did feel a bit bad though... I really hurt his feelings 0_o.

At that point, Alexis came and I left. I went over to Jenneher's house, chatting for a little while with her mom , Peter, and her... She fed me some spaghetti. Yummi 0_o. I went back home, expecting to not find Matt there... I find Alexis first, and she gets very upset because she said that Matt told her I didn't want her over because I felt jealous and I wanted to be with him only. OKAY... I was really pissed then. I found him hiding, and told him to get out of my house. He said he wanted to talk to Alexis alone, and they come back much later. I confront him then and tell him he's not the most annoying person I've ever known, he's the most despicable. Him and I fight for quite a while, exchanging insults. Then we make up 0_o. That was probably the worse fight we've ever had. Our fights just keep getting worse and worse.

Alexis had to go then... and we play Smash Brothers for a while... then he decides to get all horny and rape me. Ya know... a girl's boobies are just as private at a guy's nuts. They DON'T want a member of the opposite sex looking at them. Yamato ripped up my bra, and finally got a few peeks as revenge for the last time I raped his nipples. My boobies hurt a while after that. We wrestled for a long, long time and got pretty sweaty... Then we stopped after he took a good look at my booby -______-. He's such a fucking pervert! Grr... Oh well, he's not doing it again.

After he calmed down a bit, we had this lovely idea to try to hot wire my car. We tried unsucessfully for about an hour. He burned himself with my jumper cables and made sparks fly all over the place... He left at about 9:30 and let me keep his necklace(pendant :p) and his shirt... I'm wearning both now.

I talked to Zach on AIM for a while... he wants me to burn a Rammstein music video CD for him... I LOVE Rammstein now 0_o. They's pretty darn cool!

THEN, Yamato's friend calls 0_o. His friend, Cody, called because Matt called earlier, wanting to know how to hotwire my car. Cody was gone at the time though, so him and I got to chatting. First he tried to walk me through how to hot wire it, but then changes his mind beacause he thought I would fuck up my car. Okay... so we talk for about an hour. Mainly about Matt... but also about his philosophies... he should be a famous philosopher with the way he talks. He struck me as being very intelligent. I really enjoyed talking with him. He talked about learning to use the system to help ourselves and how to be self sufficient. Smart dude ^_^. I'm supposed to meet him tomorrow. I hope I do. Then he can hotwire my car for me too.

Gawd, I hope the sleepover doesn't end with Yamato and I in an even bigger fight than we had today.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Rammstein

Matt told me that his friend got drunk one day and did that phone call. He's pretty sure because I'm not quite so sure yet ^_-. Oh well, I don't mind much actually, I was VERY amused by it.

Gah... so much school ^_-. I'm having some fun so far actually! I was so excited before school started that I got to sleep at about 3:30 am(and no, no one called me this time). At school, I found out that Matt's brother was in band. He's pretty kewl actually ^_-. Scoggly was scared of him. I had Scoggly over to my house the other day for the first time. Jeneher called and we messed around with her..

Jeneher: Hi
Me: Can I call you back in a few minutes?
J: Why?
Me: Because....
Scoggly: Who's that?!
Me: No one!
J: Is someone over at your house?! Is it a guy?
Me:*goes to the baffroom* NO! It's a girl!
S: WHAT?! Hey, who IS that?!
Me:I think he's having identity problems now actually.

Then he wanted the phone so I had to wrestle it away from him. I hung up on Jeneher and then she called back a few more times... then hung up when Scoggly answered the phone. After that, he ran out of my house when I told him my mom was coming 0_o.

I start Jazz band tomorrow 0_o. I'm playing bari sax. It's the BIG one 0__o. I even volunteered to do it. In band, Simpson wanted one of the altos to switch to bari. I wasn't volunteering for that one. One of the THREE(!!!!!!!!!) new Alto freshman can to that ^_-. Eric volunteered to play tenor -_-. I told him that I'll get lost every four meadues without him -_-. But the new freshmen are pretty good, I think! Well, I guess I will play more firsts this year.

SO, enough about saxophones! This year, Wednesdays are great for me again ^_-. Band(^_-), AP English( I hate the students but love the curriculm and teacher !), and my public speaking class! But on Thursdays I have to carry these books and big binders around 0_o. Gah...

Suu... I think that's all for now.

Arky's daily events... take 234423! Hmm, On Thursday( I seriously don't remember what happened on Wednesday 0_o) I went to the library to work for a while ^_-. I shelved some books and then did some work on the compie... until it crashed 0_o. Then I went into Hot Topic!! Wha... that store has got to be the best store in Santa Rosa ^_-. It has the cute stuff ! Afro Ken, Invader Zim, care bears, and the best shirts. Ever. Yeah, I just go in there to stare at the shirts...

Then I found out that Jeneher had surgury on her foot and wanted me to come on over because she was as bored as hell . They broke her foot and she has a cast now. I wanted to decline because of the last time, but I felt bad for her :p. Little did I know I had to be her slave for the rest of the night. It wasn't so bad ^_-. She was a very polite ruler actually. Her dad had it so they get direct TV and all the pay per view channels for free 0_o. So we watched "A walk to Remember". Sad movie >_<.I also brought my RF switch for their N64 and we got to play it. Elizabeth had a friend stay the night too and we played Smash Brothers. She was actually the worthiest opponent I've ever beaten ^_-. Yes indeed.

In the morning, Jeneher helped me do my AP english HW that was about summarizing the biblical stories. She knew all of them 0_o. I never thought the bible could be so interesting! Some of it was really neat! I mean, God wanted to destroy this city, Sodom, because of it's wickedness. So he sent some of his angels to survey it. Upon arriving, a mob stormed the house of probably the more nicer men in town(crap, I forgot his name >_<, Tol?). The whole mob wanted to rape the angels, but they were in Tol's house and he tried to protect them. So the angels relayed the message to God and he told Tol to run away with his daughters and wife while the whole city and it's neighboring city burst into flames, ordering them not to turn back. Tol's wife did and she turned into a pillar of salt. Then Tol settled in a closeby reigon and had to start a family there... with his daughters 0_o.

Yesh, so after that I went home and did pretty much nothing for hours until Wei-Chen and I got to talking and we decided to go to the mall ^_^. Hot Topic again !! Oh yez, I can't get enough of that store 0_o. Her dad took us and we stayed there until the mall closed, going into various places. Wei-Chen bought me some pretty neat shirts for my birthday! YAY! More to add to my shirt collection!! One is a Mexican surfer shirt and the other is a make-your-own-design shirt! WOW! I wonder what kind of design I'll make with it ^_^. We got lost trying to get back, but made it ^_-.

Then I saw Invadar Zim for the first time 0_o. Dammit! I want to know if Zim and Dib will be Baloney forever?!

Yesh... that's all .

Yesh, I was so busy yesterday, I didn't have time to write in my journal :p. Well, I woke up at like 8:30 0_o and did pretty much nothing- typed my story, played on the internet. Then I set out to beat Star Fox 64 again. It's such a fun game! But no wonder it doesn't allow you to save your game, you can beat the whole freaken game in 1 hour! Which is just what I did :p. I finally got passed this stupid boss and beat the game shortly afterwards. None of the bosses in the game are much trouble at all, even the final boss, but this one I had been stuck on was just a KILLER 0_o. It was a big freaken plant! Well, after I beat the game, Nyar called and he came over :p. He brought my games that he borrowed back to me and I realized I dind't lose my Kirby game after all, he had it! Whaa! I'm so happy I have my little Kirby back ^_^. So we kind of played videogames for a while and then played on my computer. He brought over a bunch of interesting CDs he burned for me. Then we got hungry so we went to a chinese restaurant. Yum Yum :p. On the way, he was telling me about these stupid Godzilla dubs he saw. So... I just HAD to rent one! Before we stopped by Bradley video, I saw Kopa and we discussed some videogames :p. He said I should stop by today to pick up a game he'll lend me :p. I hope he didn't forget! SO then we went inside the store and found Godzilla. Nyar said it wasn't going to be that crap because it wasn't black and white, but it should be crap enough because it was a 1964 godzilla movie. SO we went home and watched it. It wasn't actually a bad dub. The special effects SUCKED though, and we had something to make fun of after all. We had a theory that the reason the movie sucked was because 98 percent of the budget went into paying mobs of people to run a certain direction because that's what we saw all throughout the movie ^_^*. I was dissapointed that the movie wasn't as sucky as I expected, just really BORING. I gotta get myself one of those black and white godzilla movies though... the very first one is the one I want to see most of all "Godzilla, King of Monsters". Nyar went home at about 7... I hope to see him soon again : (.

After he left, my friend Jenniher(no, that wasn't a typo :p) called me up and said all of her siblings were out this night and she wanted me to spend the night :p. SO I did. We didn't do much though. We watched "New Guy" and nothing else because she was afraid that her mom would send her to bed if she did anything 0_o. I think that's the last time I'm spending the night. It just isn't as exciting anymore as it was when I was smaller. Then her mom woke me up at like 5:30 because she was yelling at someone. Everytime I'm over there, I wake up earlier than 7:30 because her mom is ALWAYS yelling at something in the morning. I swear, that woman has never slept in past 7:30. I don't think i'm gunna do much today except maybe pay Kopa a visit and check out if he brought Resident Evil.

Well, this will probably be my last entry here for a long long time! I am leaving for Japan early tomorrow morning.

Lesse what I did today... mainly I finished packing all the stuff for my backpack, I played Chrono Trigger, and I went to a friends house for a while. Let's go into more detail , shall we?

What I'm taking for Japan in my japanese notebook with all my lyrics and japanese alphabet stuff in it. I printed a bunch of lyrics with my brand new cartriage my mom bought!! Yay. Like 10 pages worth ^_^. All the songs on my digimon best partners 3 and 4 cd... I also took my simba plushie with me. He goes everywhere! And I bought some neat pencils and film at walgreens...

After I went to Walgreens, I went over to a freind's house for a while to say bye bye! And also to try and install some weird thing to her compie... it didn't work ^_^*. I also listened to her play her squeak box(violin :p) for a while. And I learned that it was made in 1906!!! That is one old squeak box...

In Chrono Trigger, I finally encountered Flea! He is so cute! By far my most fav villian ^_^. Before that, I watched Frog and his flashback ... Him saying he was going ot avenge Cyrus with the help of the masamune brought tears to my eyes! Again ^_^*. I love that scene. I progressed a lot in that game today actually. But Magus kicked my butt >_<.

Since I have little time now. By FATHER is kicking me off, I won't say anymore. See ya , little journal!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Robo's theme form Chrono Trigger