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Yeah I'm not writing about "Inside Baseball" this week. I don't like the topic and I take it upon myself to read all you guys' horribly off topic entries (some of you anyway) so because I'm annoyed there was no free topic this far into the game, I think I'll just write whatever I want to and see if I make it to next week. It will be most amusing if I do, but help me accomplish my goal because this season, it's to week 15.

I think I'll just write some bitchy thing about the competition because I'm lazy and don't really feel like thinking of something any more interesting to write about.

First of all, I'm really pleased with the tribe system this season. It was a very easy solution to what I sometimes perceive as unfairness considering the people with the biggest friends lists (tribe 4) obviously always get the most votes.

That's not to say that the suck-tribe, tribe 1, doesn't deserve to be on the bottom rung of this hierarchy. Other than maybe some of the people who keep coming in from Second Chance Idol, some weeks I really vote for maybe 3 people from tribe 1. That doesn't really come from having small to non-existent friends lists, it comes from either sucking in general, or hardly spending any effort in writing.

Let's go to the last point for a minute. I'm sorry but in my very humble(HAH) opinion, if you don't spend at *least* half an hour trying to write an entry for us Idol readers to read, you aren't putting enough effort into your entries. There are a few of you who are like this, and I don't vote for you 90% of the time. It really irks me that people who genuinely do put effort into their writing are voted out and a one paragraph entry does well.

I think that at least 80% of poetry is a cop-out. And it's not only because I have never liked poetry. I actually have voted for poetry about 3 times this season- all three times when I see that the person has made an effort to not only connect their poem to the topic, but to make it interesting.

I dislike fluffy writing. Maybe that's not the term, but whatever it is that many of you do where there is nothing happening in the context of the entry but a lot of metaphors and description. I've never voted for any entry where it was about some idea or metaphorical gibberish. I never understand it or maybe if I do, I think it sucks and I won't vote for it. I hated the Lord of the Rings saga- the Tolkien, not the movies, and that was a major factor.

Second Chance Idol is pretty cool, I have to say. I think you guys should be paying more attention to it. Again, I'm kind of annoyed that some good writers from it aren't voted through, but they have kind of a small circle of voters to begin with.

I think some of you are horribly over rated, but I'm not going to name any names just because it's mean to single out people and even I'm not that bitchy.

I am more impressed with the quality of fiction this year. Though I will have to admit that the few of you who are/were writing the sagas did lose my interest at some point.

I would say that the last thing that annoys me is that some of you don't write on topic, but hey, look at me this week :).

Feel free to disagree with everything and air your complaints about this entry. In other words, I always am open to any kind of criticism . I have a feeling that at least some of you are going to complain that I'm trying to start drama. I would definitely disagree, but if you feel that way, then that's fine.

If I go out, I go out "blazing" I guess. That would be really funny if this were a gate keeper week. If I don't make it through this week, next week I am going to comment on every single one of your entries. Even if I hate it, which will happen quite a few times. You made it to week 13. Either you are talented(at least somewhat), ambitious(by not flaking out due to "real life") or have a nice friends list. Both are cause for celebration, really.

Edit:

According to [livejournal.com profile] spydielives, this entire entry actually fits the topic well and thinking about it, she's probably right. I guess I just find that amusing where I spent a long while trying to write my first entry only to give up and write this and somehow it ended up being on topic : ).
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I'm almost certain I know who it is now... That Jason person I've heard of SO MUCH. Let's gather some more evidence ^_-. He... trolled my LJ the very first time the very day he heard about how upset TEH GIRLFRIEND was about a certain thing... Er, I won't link it 0_o. And then, he's giving out my LJ to Tuffie's friends. Seriously, can we all say "WTF". This idiot obviously is trying to ... well hell if I know. HE WANTS ME TO DIE. Hey, he even said so XD. Anyway, I've ADDED him as a "buddy". So he'd better hope he gets his arse on before TEH GIRLFRIEND so he can get chewed out first : ). And if not... well... okay ;_;. Then I'll keep hunting >:O.



PS.

Math sucks ;_;.

How many of you can solve this (for y)?

x=(y+2)/(y-3)

Well, the book helped me with THAT one when I thought there was no hope, but I had to call my dad up about this one....

x=(y-3)^2.

I felt dumb about that one ;___;.
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To tell you the truth, I wasn't quite expecting that XD. Oh well... Moving along. Did lotsa stuff today which began with classes... then moved onto meeting Alex at the food place AGAIN and talking about gaming until my last class started. OMG, the TITUS-CLONE(yes, that's what his name will be from now on) prof wore a hawaiin shirt today. Haha, I laughed. He also wore a very MANLY flowery barret. Now, I don't remember Titus telling me about what he USES to tie his MANLOCKS back.

Hm, afterwards.... whoaaa. Bought records, hah, Abby Road, because the cover is simply a work of art and the Killroy was Here albums.. now all I need is a record player. In doing that, I also found out there is apparetly a FLEA MARKET every weekend in town. Dude, I'm definitely going 0_o. Saw Underworld... the plot was pretty complicating, but the movie rocked. I mean, the JUMPING and the outfits. Heh, catsuit with a trench coat? Anyway, it was a great movie, anyway, don't have too much to say about it , though -_-. I hid a lot, yes. yeah, people. Some of you ALREADY know not to take Arky to a scary movie XD. We went to the boardwalk.... Alex still kicked me in SC2, but I finally beat the game and saw the ending of Sould Calibur. I'm getting better, though. I swear, it's the first thing I'm buying with my first paycheck in 2 weeks. I also played Guilty Gear XX just for Amada's sake AND used May XD. Got 5 characters SMASHED with just her. not a bad game... easy controls, awful to try to run in, though -_-. Still didn't get to Laser tag, because I pissed Alex off by saying he would get OWNED by some dumb character who upgraded his sword from last battle. Well, i was right. So he took that that to mean "NO LASER TAG FOR j00, I PLAY TILL I WIN". I eventually ran out of money and told him I was leaving by myself if he didn't get off >:O. I didn't stay bitchy for long, though ^_^**. Came back, did a bit of math, FAILED at TG's math... er... time for bed soon ;_;. *tired*. And no more arcading... or anything much for that matter because I will soon be depleting my checking account ^_^**.

Nuff said.

Sep. 28th, 2003 12:26 pm
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It's back . And I'm proud, yo ^_-

Edit: updatorz...

Atty: Majestic Arcanine, get help. now. (paraphrased...)

MajesticArcanine: *TACKLE GLOMP*
Amada: LOL. Heya. XD What's up?
MajesticArcanine: I hope you're here
MajesticArcanine: OMG
MajesticArcanine: this is.
MajesticArcanine: shit.
MajesticArcanine: wait a sec
MajesticArcanine: http://pub26.ezboard.com/fteamrocketheadquaterssfrm3
MajesticArcanine: tell me what you think
Amada: LOL.
Amada: bad girl
Amada: bad bad girl
MajesticArcanine: *g*
Amada: *g*
Amada: ?
Amada: XD;
MajesticArcanine: I thought you'd be the only one who would be amused by it
Amada: LOL, it is kind of funny. :X
MajesticArcanine: it means *grin* heh
Amada: butttt
MajesticArcanine: I know XD
Amada: ohhh so mean.
MajesticArcanine: but baaaad?
MajesticArcanine: *g*
MajesticArcanine: I know
Amada: Bad to the bone.
Amada: LOL. Corny saying. [:
MajesticArcanine: you are too much of an influence on me, I think ^_-
Amada: XD; I'd hope not. :3
MajesticArcanine: except, you're not really a spammer

Hehe, this one was kinda funny.

MajesticArcanine: http://pub26.ezboard.com/fteamrocketheadquaterssfrm3
TCs Art of PiMP: hey its the forum 8-)
MajesticArcanine: yes it is, yo
MajesticArcanine: what do you think about "the forum"? ^_-
TCs Art of PiMP: it's dead
MajesticArcanine: did you go there?
TCs Art of PiMP: oh wait
MajesticArcanine: Because I kind of livened it up a little
TCs Art of PiMP: you spammed .-_.-
MajesticArcanine: yuuuuup

I rather liked Koji's too... but that's in the ikkle comment box ~_~. More updates later as more people get online.
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Ah... the best fucking piece of art I have seen in a loooong time. I swear, last time I was so obsessed with a fighting game was when I first bought my N64 way back when and popped Super Smash Brothers in for the first time. Soul Calibur was unlike any arcade game I have ever player. Firstly, as Titus said, the game is all about timing. And with me, it's great, because my reflexes are good and timing is decent too. However, there are no shitty combos to learn on it and no zillion-button moves. I pulled a massive combo on people just hitting my joystick and K on them. I swear, I beat the effing game first time through. Don't remember the name of the character I used, but it was the ninja girl. I woulda spent more time there, but the arcade closed at 11 and I got there really late. Literally they turned off all the machines the MINUTE after I beat Nightmare.... I believe he was the last boss. Yes, this jewel will be revisted by me in the arcade again. i'll make sure to take Alex with me next time, couldn't seem to find him today....

And about my journey there- well O_O. First of all, I effing ran into a MEXICAN PIMP DADDY wanting my "business". I told him I didn't fucking want to get raped so once again, "NO THANK YOU". I bet some of you guys think I dress like a slut to promote this behavior or some shit- I dressed like an effing hobo today. I wore ugly track suit bottoms that my badminton coach gave to me way back when, and one of my oldest, most favorite, grundgiest teeshirts. (RL buddies- it was the black "Je suis un genie" one in case you wanna know). Nope, just WALKING by myself gets me this whorish outlook on life! Fuck, this never happened to me in Santa Rosa ;_;. I don't wanna be a fucking whore, leave me along you fucking horney pedos. I am BARELY above legal age to even HAVE sex >:O. Bah, sorry I worried you Titus, and Koop too. I'm ok, I can take care of myself, but I just don't like being looked on as some sort of whore- for whatever reason they have.

By the way, it appears as though TG, Koop, and Titus are in some sort of contest to see me! XD. Okay, no one ever said that to me, it's just that they all seem to wanna come someday... er, TG is questionable, but I assume he wants to see me anyway. Right now, it appears as though TITUS has the lead- looking at a NOVEMBER deadline. Koop's uncertain- few months I think.... I can't say I'm impartial to this race, my heart tells me I want TG to win. Well, I really wouldn't mind whomever won, but I still wish TG would take first place, because he deserves to WIN THE TROPHY! XD. We were all talking about stuff we want to do. You can bet that Titus and I will spend loads of time in the arcade... Koop wants to spend time just exploring my town with me, and TG , well, i don't care what we do, just as long as someday he makes it over.

<3,

Arky
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Seriously, just listen to this. I had a loooong but accomplishing day already.

Woke up at 8 am to write something rather, but not really private about something in here... Then slept for a whole hour later after my GRANDMOTHER decides to call me -__-. God, wake up later, old woman -_-. Anyway, decided it was then time to head off to do my interview. Go there and find out it's a non profit commision-based business based on SOLICITING at peoples doors 0_o. I fear that most people don't like soliciters -_-, of ANY sort. However, I'm always willing to listen to non-profit organization ones.... And this happens to be one of those jobs. They said they'll get back to me... I hope they liked me. I wonder if writing on the back of my application that i was a long-standing Socialist worked in my favor or not? XD. I know that this organization worked for Green Peace in the past...

Anyway, I try to walk back a DIFFERENT way, and suddenly find myself lost, on a road like up Gurniville up by SR. SO what do i do but stick my thumb out and ask for directions... FINALLY come across some older guy in a truck. I ask him for directions and he tells me where i need to go. Then....

Me: Sorry, I guess I just kinda got lost. I won't ask for a ride since it's the other direction...
Guy: Well, ok. Do you want to make some money?
Me: Uh... how?
Guy: Well, how about a blowjob or something?
Me: Well, heh, I'm flattered, but no thank you
Guy; Are you sure?
Me: Yeah... No thank you
Guy: well ok.
Me: Sorry for bothering you, thanks for the directions!
Guy: No problem.
Me: Bye.
Guy: *drives off*

Now that I think about it, WTF was I thinking? I should have fucking done it. let me give you the reasons.

1. I'm almost sure he wouldn't have raped me
2. If he'd have tried ANYTHING, he'd have to kill me before he get his dick anywhere NEAR my cunt.
3. I was hungry... fuck, I think cum woulda filled me up reeeeal fast *g*
4. I was fucking horny ;_;. I've been keeping my masturbation down a bit as of late because of my roomie... and just *thinking* about his dick in my mouth was turning me on 0_o


Well, I left and made it downtown, stopped by the ATM and some japanese Udon Lunch... *makes mental list* Yet another place I need to take Teegee and Koop... Anyway, they liked my japanese and made me special Udon I asked for XD. I also stopped by a basic networking(hah, thankyou Teegee for teaching me what "networking" is) store to compare wireless ethernet cards... and then got a library card. Checked out a new Ben Bova book. Now it's time to rest and reeeeeed...

One more thing TG, I blocked you.... I'll come back later, and this time, i'm not changing my mind this time. If I know you well enough, tonight you and Emily will be at it and I do not intend to stick around and make things worse. Also, I can't even handle you myself right now. I still love you -_-.

Hm.

Sep. 18th, 2003 12:49 am
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Today I was playing Wind Waker and just got so INSPIRED by a scene that I really loved between my two favorite characters, that I wrote a fic based off it. It's short, once again... I'm not posting it here this time, though. If you want it, IM me - MajesticArcanine or e-mail - the_magestic_arcanine@yahoo.com . Except, inconciderate people who value their lazy sleeptime rather than spending 15 minutes reading it don't get to read it at all. Oh well, sucks for them.
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I go looking at my friends page, and read three entries in a row about what a crappy time everyone has been having. Eep. Now I feel bad that I'm not having a crappy time XD. <3 to all of you, hehe...

Anyway, for you peeps who have this need to know about my love life... it's uh... fine. Actually, it's about 90% back to exactly how it used to be, and I'm sure the cybering stuff(pretty much the last of it) will come back in like... days too -_-. I don't really want that, but I think it's better than leaving and never coming back.I think it's because we can't resisit each other... and can't go on without showing exactly how much luv we have... *siiiiigh* it's kind of hard because I think I got nothing accomplished ~_~. Oh well, at least we have each other. I think the only way I can really feel at ease is if

a. He breaks up with his gf
or
b. I get a bf in college.

Uh, I think both of those are very very far away 0_o. It's harder now because I found out that I actually *want* to try and have a real relationship with him, and he knows this. Whereas in the past I told him I didn't want one... I'm not hoping for the better with that though, I think I have like no chance for one -_-. For now, I think I'll just keep hanging on until I can't take it any longer once more. I hope I can last a while ~_~.

ho hum, and now down to business...

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Manhattan

I don't remember the exact order of things, so I'll just describe most of the stuff we did there during the last few days....

We- SAW TWO BROADWAY SHOWS. One was called "42nd Street". It was a great classic type of musical. And it was unique because this was the very first tap dancing musical I'd ever seen. I really enjoyed it 0______o. They danced really wonderfully. The other musical was called "Rent" and it was kinda a modern musical... VERY weird. Like homosexuality galore, I swear. *snickers*. It had a great plot and nice musical numbers, but the plot was confusing and hard to understand because they sang just so much 0_o. My parents and I found it pretty hard to follow...

We- Went on a few bus tours. I have more to say about them in a seperate entry where I took notes on all of them 0_o. I know, I'm a dorky nerd. But we toured pretty much all of Manhattan and then Brooklyn. There is like NOTHING to see in Brooklyn 0_o. I swear, I don't even know why they even made a tour. Instead of paying attention to the tour guide, I talked to this Hollish guy who was sitting next to me XD. We talked about travelling and stuff... and I told him about American culture and why we generally don't like Canada XD. He told me he was driving to Florida! I was like ";___; take meee!"

One day, we went to se tha statue of liberty and Ellis Island. That was pretty interesting... Ellis Island is like a bigger/better version of our own, local angel island... it was interesting to tour around there and learn about the history of the place.

My dad and I went up to see the Emprire State Building... it was his favorite thing to do, to look down at the bright NY skyline in the dark... There, I talked to some French ladies in line for the first time XD. That was lots of fun and I felt quite PROUD. I wish I could still take French ;_;. My dad said I was good, heh

One night my parents went out and I was too tired so I went and used up the rest of my cellfone minutes on Titus. He was cleaning his house and found his old collection of GAYPORN... He seemed to give me the impression he didn't want it anymore, so I begged him to send it to me for my birthday ^_-. He seemed reluctant to give it to me >:O. I think he wanted to get back into his old hayday of the INSANE MASTURBATION with them. It's like he found an old friend again. Isn't that RIGHT, Titus?

Oh, one other important thing. We went to the RUSSIAN CAPITAL of the US- Brighton beach, Brooklyn. I swear, I've never seen so many RUssians in my life before 0_o. We went into a really cheapo bookstore and bought some books and CDs... fun. And THEN we went into this GREAT hole-in-the-wall little resaurant. Had the best food we had in NYC... probably like ever. I had some borsh and blintzes. They made really grat blintzes, my mom will try to replicate that for me on my bday, heh.

I'm being bugged to do a few things... I don't think I forgot anything, if I did, oh well XD. Later, folks.
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Before I get along with the rest of my NY tale....

I went to the UCSC website and checked out what classes I'm enrolled in. There is just *one* tenative thing, I decided. I still don't know whether I'll go ahead and shoot for calc again, or just be content with pre calc. My mom wants me to go for calc... I seriously learned LITTLE from pre calc. It fucked me up. Only "limits" did not confuse me... that was the easy part, heh... I wish I had my pre calc final. I studied a *LOT* for that... I swear for 3 full days in a row I did nothing but study for that test. I'm sure I did very well on it too... Anyway, if I manage to place into calc, I will end up having to end school at around 3 pm... if not, I end at 1:40 on fridays... this is important to me, because I'd like to end up going home evry weekend. it's be harder for me if class got out later...

Anyway, the tenative schedule is as follows:

US History(to 1877)-8 am- I <3 US history just tons and tons. Should have loads of fun with this class. I've just been *dying* to learn about the civil war. Only, it sucks that it's so early, heh.

Math- Pre Calc- 12:30. Meh. I don't know if I will keep it or move on to calc. I'll feel dumb for repeating it... but *shurg* I don't know....

Core- Jeez. Annoying. This is a class I *must* take. It sucks because for all other colleges, you take it for one semester. I have to do this the whole yar -_-. They already sent me an assignment due the first day of class. I'm somehow supposed to get the reader, and I have no idea how to do that.

Band- I don't know if I have to audition or what 0_o. But I'll probably be doing this mon/wed 5-7... I'm not in it yet. Can't enroll until school starts.


I just had the most ANNOYING couple of hours. I just went to the JC to request a transcript when I find out they HIKED it up to 5 dollars -_-. I'm really pissed now. I didn't have the 5 bucks at the time and had to come back. I guess I'll be going there tomorrow -_-. SO then I went to Jennifer's house to try to getn my nintendo stuff back from her sister and I find out it's locked up somewhere. Her sister isn't home and I end up having to take her other siter to soccer practice... bah.

I don't really know what I'm going to do tonight either ._.. I'm quite afraid. I keep going back to read old conversations and I realize that I won't ever have those kind of conversations without feeling wrong and stopping again. This saddens me and I don't know whether I have the guts to confront my fears , or do I keep running away? I'm going for more of the latter right now. I'll run away from everyone so no one has to feel uncomfortable about being the middle-man again ~_~. A big part of me wishes I wasn't in love anymore... but that won't happen for a long time. I'm still deeply in love and it's very hard ._.. Running away seems to be the easy thing to do, but it might not be the right thing. I don't know if i will run or not... We'll see.
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I KNEW IT! I EFFING KNEW IT !

#{)*^@)(@%^@)*&%@)(*&$.

When I stopped at Kingston I knew it sounded SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO familar, and I was right. I just talked to Tuffie and she said it was her town 0_o. I stayed the night there too, and she was away at caaaaaamp.

Oh well! I was talking to Jeferry and... he's staying the night!!! I'm so excited! Lots of cuddles ^__^. Anyway, my parents gave the okay. He's spending the night for my birthday : ). Probably coming thursday and leaving friday... It will be loads of fun. I'll invite him, Adrienne, and Alexis for Russian food on my b-day : ). I know what Adrienne got me XD and Alexis has something in mind too, I guess ^_-. Now all I need is that dildo SOMEONE promised me ^_-.

I'm kinda depressed now. Slaggie became the middle man between me and TG today , and now a lot more is clear to me... I still don't know if I wanna talk to him like right this moment, though... Right now, I don't know if I need more time to think, or if I'll be okay. I'm really not so bitter anymore, and I miss him more than anything that I really need to think about... It sort of feels like I am playing hard to get, but I'm not even trying to ~_~. I guess I wanted to come back on my own time, when I was ready to. Now I know it isn't going to be months, or even weeks... but days. That should be plenty of time, heh.

Some day I will have a NY-related entry... really! I'm not lying XD
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Gah, I'm tired. Maybe going to bed at 9 to wake up at 4:30 isn't the greatest plan. I was tryig to catch the LAZY HIPPIE, AKA: TITUS, but I guess I missed him... Instead, I caught something else. Now I'm just confused about a lot of things.... I dont wan' love anymore. I want it to leave me alone and never come back... so I can live the rest of my logical life with none of these heart-pounding dramas -_-. It probably would be a lie to say that what I wanted from my uh "subject of my last entry like this" 0_o. Rarg, if I wasn't afraid of him being pissed at "publically humiliating him", I'd just use his name >:O. I'm the one with nothing to hide. Anyway, it'd be a lie to say that what I wanted was not what I read... but I don't think I'm completely satisfied. Actually, all along, I *knew* he'd write something... but I also knew, that whatever It'd be, I wouldn't be completely at ease... I think the one thing I'm most distraught about is the fact that he think I want to forget him. I don't know how on earth I can make it more clear to him that I'd never do that -_-. But he can think what he wants, I suppose. Because in the end, what matters is the way *I* feel. After all, it is myself that will get me to him.

A part of me thinks that he is the one who wants to forget me and forget *I* ever even happened. After all, apparently I am number... five XD. And he was number one in my own book , hehe. I am just *another* chapter in his very extensive book about his lovelife. I wish he were like me and didn't love so easily. But he had none of this when he was my age. I still doubt I'd be like that in 10 years time....

That all being said, I still miss him ._. . And I still find myself longing, and even *gasp* find tears,though all this. And I will for a long time. However long I decide to keep this charade up. I did promise I'd come back, and I will...

Insanity

Aug. 22nd, 2003 03:34 pm
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it has been a fucking insane couple of hours, I swear. FIRST, my "luvar" and his OTHER significant other were at it and I was just so close from messanging her and cussing her out -_-. It has come to my attention what is happening between the *three* of us, and I intend to solve it, in a way they don't know, since it's different from my last version. So let's see if I can even go through with it tonight *sigh*.

Then someone ELSE and I had a fight because she was pissed I was "analyzing her relationship" and apparently I don't have a right to do that. Then she decides to make fun of me by telling her luvar all about this which REALLY pisses me off, because not only is she poking fun at a serious subject, but I am still upset right now. Which moves me along to my next point

Today, about half an hour ago, a Russian lady calls for my mom. I thought it was one of my mom's Russian friends and I told her she was at work and it was a little hard to call there. Then I find out that she is an old family friend from Novato and her husband just died. Her husband, Sergei, was my mom's boss, and one of her good friends. It's a big deal for my mom, because she doesn't have very many friends ~_~. I haven't hear from them in a while, because Sergei's healf was slowly deteriorating... he had heart problems. So now she's dead and he's barely 50 ~_~. I had only met them a few times, but I liked him ;_;. I won't cry... but the chocked up tears still remain, I think.

I just hope this won't ruin her time in NY. All I can do right now is clean the house reaaaaal good, this will make her happy.... *starts doing so now*
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Only have a little while before work. I'd like to mention there are several things I like to to do onlinw when there is no one to talk to.

My primary one is usually visiting Cliff

The best site on the net. ever.

Even though he rarely updates anymore, it's still great fun, looking at the stupidity. I get insanely giggly at it for the first ten minutes, then it gets a little old. I mean, how many jokes can he crack on fat people? -_-. I don't laugh at those unless they are REALLY good.

Sometimes I like to visit peoples' old LJs 0_o. Kinda fun. Even though most of my buddies' LJ's are pretty new. Some are kinda old. But then I run into the problem of reading personal stuff and I'm like "Okay, bye page I don't think I'm supposed to be reading this >_<."

Oh, and there is oekakibbs. I like to waste time saving really cute pictures. Those Japanese people are TALENTED, let me tell you.

Something else I do occasionally - The TRHQ Revolution of '01

I am SORRY, but I loved the revolution, and I get all nostalgic still thinking about it. I tend to ignore the topics about beheading people I'm now best friends with... ^_^*. This is what I was going through. I found a french interaction between me and Stacey. I can't believe some of the stuff I said. ^_^**. Wasn't too nice. ._. . Well, at least it was French.

I look at porn. I'm NOT posting what sites I go into >:o. This is the ultimate boredness killer because it kills 2 birds with one stone, if you know what I mean ^_-

Hmm... yeah, that's it, I think. Not too much, eh? Figures that when I'm bored, I leave within 30 minutes XD.
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I remember a long time ago, in eighth grade, I found the very first Team Rocket website almost solely devoted to fanfiction. It’s still around, found out it celebrated its 4th anniversary. http://come.to/JessieRocket Damn, I was around there that whole entire time. JessieRocket’s site opened up these wonderful doors of internet reading to me, and I spent hours reading fics from her site, and from talented authors I initially found there. Well, one day she got a message board put up. I HAD to go in there and post, post… The message board was open the end of ’99…. I was happy to know I could use just the name “Arcanine” and off I went posting… I was probably the first member that stuck it all the way though. It was my first message board, and Shadowcat’s first too. Tiffany was the other founding sister, a “Birth of Mewtwo” connoisseur. I miss Tiffy ;_;. I was very welcoming to newbies, and was VERY much into that board. Shadowcat was my first internet friend and I just made a whole bunch more ^_^. I soon became known , or maybe it was a self-imposed title, as the “nick-name giver”. Such things were necessary when some people posted known as “I luv james” ^_-. Well, maybe that doesn’t make too much sense because “Shadowkitty” turned out to be longer than her real name… It was quite a girly message board, only two boys ever stuck around. I didn’t want too many of them there though. The first guy on the board was a spammer who started a flame-war between cat and dog pokemon... I never welcomed anyone I thought was a male ^_^*. Heheh. Sgt Giggles was quite cool though, I remember that much. Mushu came a long while later, brought by his sister. JessieRocket barely showed herself there and I think the fist ever role play was about what happened to her during her long disappearances. Well, one day she came on and decided to make Shads and I mods. I barely had to ever do anything except occasionally clear up advertisements just because no one ever fought or anything. The board also inspired me to take an HTML class at the JC. My page was about Seymour the scientist, the nerd who showed up in one pokemon episode XD. It taught me the most important codes I’d ever want to use, link and image ^_^*. Eventually, a time came when I decided “OMG, THIS PLACE NEEDS A NAME.” I think it was PFT who came up with “Rocket Ramble Land”. Maybe Meerey…

One of my favorite memories is being so board that my spammer tendencies took over for one topic and I sent around 20 e-mails to my inbox through them. I remember Shads saying later that she read all of them XD. I also remember Tiffany’s story about the time she chased the mailman across the street, waiting for her Birth of Mewtwo to come in XD. She later sent me a tape of it… The roleplays mildly amused me, I didn’t participate much in them, or the kitties. ANYA’S SITE WITH BOB THE CUBONE. Apparently Shads got pregnant with someone and had kittens all the members could adopt. The quizzes about ourselves were also fun! Well, one day coolboard decided to shut down -_-. I decided to bring it on myself to relocate to ezboard. It was unfavorable to some, but just about everyone made it over. The board went into decline after that and most barely came. I said I’d be the last founding sister ever to leave, and I guess I took it upon myself. There was some protestation to my closing it, mainly from Windie, but I think most understood. It also came from selfish reasons, I didn’t want to keep it up because I kept visiting it while no one wanted to talk anymore. I had started enjoying THRQ a bit and found out, that yes, I was paying more attention to it than ramble land. Out of everybody, now I keep in semi-contact with Windie and Dyani, thorough LJ ^_^*. It’s so neat how Windie and Arti met in real life. Waaw… I wish I could meet internet friends. Of course, it doesn’t help that half the ramble land members live in England, hehe.
Sometimes, I miss it very much, like now. But that part of my life is gone and I can’t really change it now. I think I’m doing this because I can’t seem to remember enough about it right now… Not as much as I like to anyway. Back then, at least I fit in somewhere. I seem to be a little lost duckling ^_^*. I never really fit in very well with the TRHQ message board folks, and I started visiting chat regularly for the first time only recently, now I don’t really anymore >_<. I know I’m going to leave sometime, sometime… but I don’t know when or how. And I don’t know what will become of me. I never took it upon myself to learn how to draw, and if you don’t know how to draw, YOU’RE A LOST SOUL IN THE ANAIM WURLD. Well, I did make new friends on AIM ^_^*. How interesting. I’m just wondering how long I can keep them.
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I had a whole week to finish the engrish book , and I start reading it half an hour ago. I'm starting to feel it return to me, I can feel the anxiety, my head is starting to morph into that cloudy stage...

I'm not sure why I didn't read the book. I knew I didn't like it, I don't like this book. Alexis told me a few days ago "It's James Joyce, I told you to run for it if you ever encounter James Joyce!" Or something like that XD. NOW I remember! Well , anyway, I didn't read him at all last week and I think I was supposed to finish the book, or something crazy like that. SO now I'm very shaky thinking about it, and trying to read it. I know it's my fault I put myself into this, but I still can't help but to find someone/something else to blame.

I go to sparknotes and then fall into the spell that my engrish teacher created. "I challenge you all NOT to use sparknotes, don't let some literary guru think for you!" Okay, so I'm not reading that because I feel dirty someway...

There are a bumber of things I could do right now.

1. Go on AIM and try not to mention this or how horrible I feel.

2. Go on AIM and talk to someone about how horrible I feel .

3. Uninstall AIM

4. Go to bed.

5. Try to read this book some more.

I feel pretty calm right now, but I know that as soon as I even TRY to read the book, I will start again. I wish I didn't have mental problems, not all people have them. Most know how to deal with stress/anxiety. I wish I knew their secrets XD.

Well, looking at my options, I'm not sure which path I want to take. Going to bed would be the best choice, but it's almost midnight and I've been going to bed later... I probably won't be able to sleep because of the book and time would be wasted on trying to fall asleep.

Meh, uninstalling AIM would be just stupid and I'd reinstall it the next day or something -_-. Of course, I blame it for everything, as usual...

Going on AIM would... it could make me feel better, but I would be losing sleep.

I have tried reading the book, yeah. There is no way I could calm myself down in time to get anything done.

*stupid cryptic, HAH!*

Je ne me souviens pas que Titus voulait se coucher! TROIS HEURES?! C'EST UNMANLY. Je suis triste parce-que j'ai voulu parler avec lui ;__;.
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Hmm... it's been over half a year since I closed it, sometimes I miss my old friends. The only ones I really know what's happening with nowdays is Dyani and Windie. I decided to close Ramble Land down because no one really seemed to have an interest in it other than me, I was clinging to something that had long-since died. Hmm... I miss Tiff a lot sometimes ;_;. I wish I was still in contact with her. Jaymie and Meerey too...

Ramble Land was my first message board, it got me into messageboaring in general when I was still *13*, and I'll never forget the original. I wish coolboard didn't shut down ~_~. Coolboard was so primitive, so plain compared to easyboard, but it was still wonderful... Shads and I ruled the joint, but never had to exersise our power. I miss Shads. Even though she's still around, I miss my 13- 14 year old perception of her as a wonderful friend and role-model. I miss a lot of things about those days. Those days from 13-15 years old when I was obsessed with ramble land and pokemon... nothing else, just those two things ate up my time 0_o.

Now, I don't know what I'm really doing. I feel out of place, because TRHQ had never felt like my "online home". Even though I have friends there now, it's like... I don't belong. If my closest internet friends ever leave, I will know I absolutely have no purpose with this identity anymore and I will simply have to leave and create a new "online life". This can be done, but I'm hesitant, only because I will miss a few select people greatly. Hmm... Right now, TRHQ really feels like ramble land XD. No one is really posting much of anything interesting. So what am I going to do if that ever closes ? 0_o.

I have a lot to ramble about XD. It's so amusing how written rambling interests me so much, but spoken rambling irritates me 0_O. Hmm... I AM TEH WEERDO.
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I think love sucks. I've never felt it before until maybe about half a year ago. Now I understand why all those annoying love songs are written. Love makes you hurt like you've never hurt before... I hurt now ;_;, only because I hurt someone else badly. And I don't think it will stop soon.... I guess I have nothing else to say...
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Hmm... I got it!

YEY, Let me spread the wealth with my annoying Marquee

DOMO ARIGATOU MR ROBOTTO HIMITSU WO SHIRITAI...

DOMO ARIGATOU MR ROBOTTO... DOMO... DOMO... DOMO ARIGATOU MR ROBOTTO... DOMO... DOMO

This is great shit, indeed. I can't believe I've been waiting almost 3 years for this song 0__o.



Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto,
Mata ah-oo hima de
Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto,
Himitsu wo shiri tai

You're wondering who I am-machine or mannequin
With parts made in Japan, I am the modren man

I've got a secret I've been hiding under my skin
My heart is human, my blood is boiling, my brain I.B.M.
So if you see me acting strangely, don't be surprised
I'm just a man who needed someone, and somewhere to hide
To keep me alive-just keep me alive
Somewhere to hide to keep me alive

I'm not a robot without emotions-I'm not what you see
I've come to help you with your problems, so we can be free
I'm not a hero, I'm not a saviour, forget what you know
I'm just a man whose circumstances went beyond his control
Beyond my control-we all need control
I need control-we all need control

I am the modren man, who hides behind a mask
So no one else can see my true identity

Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto, domo...domo
Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto, domo...domo
Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto, domo...domo
Thank you very much, Mr. Roboto
For doing the jobs that nobody wants to
And thank you very much, Mr. Roboto
For helping me escape just when I needed to
Thank you-thank you, thank you
I want to thank you, please, thank you

The problem's plain to see: too much technology
Machines to save our lives. Machines dehumanize.

The time has come at last
To throw away this mask
So everyone can see
My true identity...
I'm Kilroy! Kilroy! Kilroy! Kilroy!



Fuck yah, I love this ^_^. It's amazing how easily I get over things when I'm not depressed... Hmm.. over an hour ago something crappy happened and now I'm on a guilt trip. I'm so glad I'm not *on depression* right now, or else I'd be in bed crying or some shit... It's not like I'm completely over this, but it's not getting to me as much as I think it should. Because I feel bad, but tonight I will sleep and not be in a complete guilt trip... I'm still sad though, yes. So I shall drown out my sorrows in my Mr Robotto song.

"The problem is plain to see, too much technology" Hmm.. That may be my problem too!

OMGG ^___^

Apr. 24th, 2003 11:01 pm
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Wow, I was busy today. LETUSGOOVERIT. In great detail too.

Okay, so Adrienne's friend Jeferry came over ^_^. I'm still talking to him.. Hmm... so the first thing I should mention is that he got LOST. ^^*. We ended up waiting about 2 hours for him at the bus stop and then we gave up, so we went to Denneys ^_^*. After that, around 3:30, we decided to go back to Adrienne's house to check if he managed to get there and VOILA ... THEREISJEFFERY! The fun began then ^___^

Hehe... It was a bit strange, because being an online friend we've never met, I had some guesses to how he would act, how he'd be. A few guesses, not many, because I've only been talking to him for about a week. He reminds me of Ben, that's all I know. And I decided Jeferry is defineitely someone who'd I'd be friends with in HS if he went to my school, of course ^_^.

So... Adrienne and got VERY silly and teased "Jeferry" a whole lot. I think it was okay though, because he's very easy going and I think it takes a whole lot to really irritate him. I think the only thing that really annoyed him was calling him "Jeferry" and not "Jeffery" XD. I swear saying "Jeferry" would send Adrienne into MASS giggles ^_^*.

So, I did get to do my Communist Cerimony with him... and I even got him to *gasp* watch an anime! We also... went back to Adrienne's house where we played Sorry and just goofed around. The funnest part was when we actually got him to try on her clothes. XDD!!! I managed to get him to try on this really girly pink shirt/thing and then I put on this bikini top on him XDD. *giggles* I wish I could play with boys more IRL ;__;. They're just so fun, I wish more boys liked me. No boys like me ;_;. Oh well, I guess I have internet boys who like me XD I'm excited for tomorrow so we can have more fun.

Oh, I got to driver Jeffy down to Windsor to stay with his aunt. We couldn't find Highway 101 in Windsor, so I took this road which SOMEHOW got us back home. I was proud ^__^. I didn't get lost, w00t!!

Tomorrow will help me take my mind off "online problems" which just got worse about an hour ago. *sigh* I never used to have "online problems" at all ~_~... Every single time I go online, it gets worse. I'm sad and worried right now. But I think tomorrow will be better... I'll have fun, I know... which is good.
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I don't really... understand why I go on the internet anymore. It's only because of the internet friends, really. Somtimes, I like talking to them, othertimes, it seems as if all I do is let them talk at me and , how do I put this.... be a receptor for their ramblings... or whatnot...

I feel as though I've lost my purpose... I had one in the old days, it seemed. I seemed to be more important in a sense, maybe it was because I managed Ramble Land and I was pretty popular. Actually... things have just gotten worse after I closed it down -_-. I miss it...

Someday, I'll cut off all ties to all Pokemon-related people. Maybe ! I need to find something else to be involved in.. rather than wasting time on AIM -_-. THATIZIT.

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