zaichikarky | Entries tagged with badminton

Let's go in chronological order!

1. That my "I'd rather die than cry" approach failed this morning.

2. That I lost my keys *finally* permanentely. Rest in Peace, Cubone.

3. That the favorite Japanese pen was lost permanently too.

4. That I had to spend time revising my Hamlet essay, something I should be doing right now : )

5. That I can't help my friends

6. I had more difficulty speaking than usual

7. That I can't tell Brian to GET OFF ME.

8. That , because of my frequent badminton absence, I would no longer play mixed doubles, but girl doubles . Forever. the only match that counts.

9. That my badminton abilities suck

10. That I don't have as much fun as I did last year with Rachel

11. That I can't *can't* have as much fun

12. *MOST IMPORTANT* I have to take some sort of English Placement test for UC in eary May that I should have gotten registration material for... but was either lost/never recieved. Oh yay. I think the test is an essay.

13. I've calculated that yes, it takes 3 times as long for me to do any work

14. I can't bring myself to harm myself in any manner except for punching random things which leaves niice purple splotches I can stare at! After I started at someone's cuts yesterday, the desire to to that fell drastically.

15.That I only know my French grade, which leaves all the other grades unknown and unknown as to failure.(OOPS, OUT OF ORDER)

16. I could do some of my homework

17. I CAN'T COMMUNICATE er the incommunicado X2!

18. Just about the only thing that made me smile was two emoticons jumping around a screen XD.

OH DAMN , TOMORROW IS TUESDAY. $*)%)*($^#$)+@. I've realized it since this morning.

I realized on Sunday that a foreign language major means you only learn one language.

This is mean *grin*

This essay is haunting me. That AP engrish class continues to haunt me. *extreme anxiety*. My dad is coming in here to haunt me some more. Oh how fun. I'm constantly reminded about how this is my last quarter and I will spend it like this.

"OH WOE IS ME!" *LOL*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111111111111111

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THis is pretty funny actually.

I'm all over the depression ^_^. I feel good again. I feel normal and happy. I'm glad I'm done depressing....

Hmm... Badminton has been eating up my time... On thursday I stayed at school until 8:30, friday, until 7. I got to be secretary on Friday and write down scores and stuff...

I've been... working on my story. it's coming along NICELY. Nice indeed... I like it so far. I hope and pray I can finsih it and it won't be too long because i want to submit it to my school's literary magazine.

I finished "Sphere"... was a great book, but had a crappy ending. I don't know if I feel like summarizing it now.Meh, WHY NOT

Okay... SO. This phychologist, Norman is the main character. He was sent to the south pacific on a top-secret government mission . When arriving there, he finds out that a mysterious ship crash-landed in the ocean 300 years ago. Eventually they find out that the ship is from the future, and had the ability to time-travel. Norman and the team *he* set up years ago on a project go down there in an underwater enviornment so they can board the ship and explore it...

After getting down there and meeting the crew that ran the station, Norman and the group go down there and find the ship has a "Sphere" an alien object that they are unfamiliar with. They find out that they could talk to whatever is *inside* the Sphere. The *being's* name is "Jerry" and they talk to it... And then... then the madness starts. People getting killed by giant squid... giant squids wrecking the underwater habitat. Eventually, there are only 3 people left. The Mathematitian, Harry, who was the first to step inside the sphere, Beth, the only female member and biologist, and Norman. They find out that the Sphere manifests their thoughts... gives them power by only thinking. So yeah... after that part in the book when the 3 of them are left... they discover more about the Sphere and find ways to stay alive. Beth kind of went mad... Harry was put out because Beth and Norman believed only Harry was making the manifestations when all three of them together were.

Okay, the ending was pretty sucky and I didn't like it, so I'm not writing it XD.

Today I hung out with Alexis and we had LOTS of fun with this tire XD. I found this tire while we were waiting for the bus and we messed around with it alot. We pretended we were hicks from the south XD!!

Me: woot's tha matter? Y'all don't laike mai taaire? Mai uncle Bubba gave it to may. He haz a taire faarm.

Alexis: yaah. I knoow thaat uncle. Hay's tha one that's married to his second couzan...

Me: yaah. woot are all thayse people lookin' at? this taaire's may freeend. Ay mean, it's laike thay've nevar seen a taire in thay're laife

Alexis: I knoow. Back home, avarything's made out of taires! My outhouse, may car....

XDDD. That was fun XD

Haven't updated in a while. I'm pretty glad no one reads this thing sometimes XD. And when they do, they seem to be attracted to the WORST kinds of topics. Meh, oh well.

Lesse what I did recently.

STARTED BADMINTON. YAAY. Okay, it's not as awful as I imagined. There is no Rachel and no more pokemon noices or silliness for me, no friends... but I find lots of people to play with, mainly first year players -_-. But I did get to beat a few first year players that were close to my level recently and really... it's not so bad. When I play badminton, I forget about all I've been thinking about, no internet friends... no school work... no college... it's a nice feeling, to be so mindless and abstain my mind from such thoughts... even if it's only for a few hours in the day.

NEXT: after badminton practice one day... last friday actually : ). Brian came( well actually it was more like RAN) up to me with a donut and I told him I wanted some. As usual, he wanted something in return. He's always told me that the only way I'd be able to bush him is if I'd kiss him -__-*. He wanted huggles, so I huggled him and he kissed my neck. It was reather cute because as I was leaving , he said "I've been afraid to do that ever since I met you!" AWWW. Kawaiiness XD. He blamed it on the donuts, but the guy's been hitting on my for over a year now ^_^*. He's told Richard, who told me he respects Brian about not telling anyone... I... HOPE -_-.

What else... depreshun, bla bla... I've been feeling nostalgic a lot today . Talked to Solomon today about the old days and the pokemon rap he wrote out ^_^*. waaw... AND saw Rebecca 0__o. Yah, saw her throught the literacy night. Not so great student selections, LOTS of good books, picked up a few ^_^*.

I've been meaning to do this for a while, but I want to type up ALL I remember about my life... starting from 7th grade, because everything before then was pretty pointless and the elementary school generalizations can be used for all of my elementary school days.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: none >_<...

Mainly because somehow I got myself into manic depression again. I stayed up 'till talking to Titus 'till 8 am... RECORD w00t , but that was 2 weeks ago. told him that I could possibly go into manic depression from it, and I did 0_o. It wasn't his fault though, I just didn't think it could happen and plus it was nice convo. I think I was paranoid about failing english and then I got a "C", I found out. It's kind of bad when you never get a C in your life. That class annoys me. All my classes annoy me right now actually. I don't have any friends in any of them, which never really bothered me, but I want distractions sometimes -__-.

Then I'm really paranoid about this badminton thing. I don't know if I want to do it this year and I have been dreading it. Also, I'm pretty behind in Japanese 'cause I've missed more than one class. And I don't like the German class very much right now 0_o. It's really nice learning about the German culture and what sports they play, and how they like brass instruments, what revolutions they had, but that's all that seems to be sticking right now other than "ich bin blau".

I can't talk very well anymore either -__-. I have much trouble saying things and I'm on an guilt trip for every possible thing imaginable... what's worse is that all I can really think about is doing school work and how I can't do it. It takes 3 times as long as it used to to do it.

I think the main problem is what the $R&()#%#*&% I'm going to do after I graduate. Despite the hell the SATs put me through last year, I want to be a junior again and not graduate. I'm too immature to go off to college and be by myself. I don't want to let go -_-. And it sucks because my family is financially sound enough to out me through uni too. I don't like most of the colleges I applied to now, and I didn't apply out of state when at first, that was all I wanted to apply to. In AP Engrish(hehe...) *ahem* we had to respond to this short article entitled "Endings" about how it is necessary to end things and go on with life so you can achieve what you need to and go on with your life and how it takes courage to do so. I just think that when I go to college, I will end all my friendships both on and offline and be alone for the rest of my life, which in a way is how I want things to be. It's scary being close to somebody, they depend on you to keep happy, you depend on them. I want to... depend on my nintendos, which I have barely played in a while. I think all in college I want to study and... play nintendo. All Ive been doing for the last 2 weeks is try to study and it's annoying because I'm good at it, usually. I studied so hard on my chem test and got an 89 on the final, when most of the class failed it. I know I have what it takes to study and learn... so I want to go to college, but I like sameness, I don't welcome change, it seems. I want to go back and be immature and stupid. It seems I like I have to abruptly END that now though. And I feel guilty for whining . The only reason I put it off was quite truthfully, Adrienne is the only one who reads this thing and this is pretty st00pid.

Also, I miss Wei-Chen ~_~. She told me how we just see less and less of each other every year. But at least she said the wanted to come over . That makes me happy 'cause NO ONE really comes over and she's spent the night like, twice ^_^*. My parents suck. Sometimes, I don't want friends at all. I want my nintendos ~_~... I'm nawt a good friend because I only know how to be funny and when something serious comes up, I am very silent and then get traumatized. I'm not good with dealing with serious things at all. I went over to Alexis's house last weekend and listened to her for hours talk about her mother. I'm STILL scared 0_o. Which is kind of contradictory because I'm pretty good at handling things like that online... maybe.

I want to sleep without waking up in the morning/middle of the night. That'd be good.

I think the best part of all this mayhem was that I got to go with Adrienne to ... eat a sandwich in the intersection today ^_^. I yelled at some guy in a monster truck . I don't think staying up 'till 11 is cutting it anymore either. I'm tired of jazz band... yah, among not thinking well, not speaking well , I can't play my instrument well anymore either.

'Nuff of the whine fest....

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: smile . dk- Butterfly(DDR)

Yay! Today was the first Sunday in a while that I got to play badminton again! My dad didn't go with me, so I invited Rachel instead ^_-. We played together for a while, and then got to play these two guys in mixed doubles ^_-. My partner had long hair 0___o. *no further comments* . They won, but we got SO close in the second game. The won by one point -__-. By that time, I got all my skillz back, and I asked the Russian dude to be Rachel's partner because I like playing mixed doubles... They were picking on me a bit because I didn't have a partner so Rachel was like "Why don't you ask THAT guy?". Some dude was standing, looking bored. Without even thinking, I went up to him and said "be my partner" ^_^*. He agreed. Then we played and we SEVERELY beat beat Rachel and Russian dude. That was fun , I can't wait until next Sunday!

Before badminton, I basically did nothing. My parents refused to allow me go to the anti war demonstration -__-. Their excuse was "You need to help paint and clean the house" -__-. Yeah right, my dad spent hours lecturing me yesterday about how "those losers out there protesting aren't real Americans if they want Sadaam in power".

SPEAKING OF LECTURING, I've just about had it to here with lectures from my father. When I first was into Communism, he started lecturing me about how evil it was, and now, for some reason, it's starting AGAIN. He just keeps telling me story after story of what happened to ordinary Russian citizens . I mean, they're interesting stories, but sadly, they're influencing me too much.

One he told me yesterday inspecially was sad... My dad was a part of the Soviet Army at my age (school ends for russians after 10th grade). When he applied for this University, a question was asked about his father: "where is he". My dad either said or wrote that he didn't know. The truth was, my grandpa was in America , trying to be a permenant resident . The KGB somehow looked into it, and made it so my dad failed his exams and was drafed to join the Soviet Army. My mom thinks it was because he's Jewish by nationality. For centuries, Russians have always been anti-semetic. I asked his why, and he said "because by nature, Russians are VERY envious people. They saw how well Jews prospered in their country, and became jealous. They did everything they could to set them back". Okay, that's story number 1. He told me some more tomorrow about life under comrade Stalin 0_o. I've heard of these stories before, because my dad calls me this name "Vridetil". I break stuff on accident, and my dad says I do it on purpose because I'm a Vridetil. Vridetils are the name of people in Communist Russia who broke stuff on accident and were sent to Siberia 0__o. He said "If a construction worker accidently broke his drill, someone who didn't like him could tell the KGB 'tavarish, I know someone who broke a soviet drill! He is a capitalist and enjoys breaking soviet materials!' Then bam, the person would get thrown into Siberia" 0__o. Then he goes on to tell me how one time my grandma's relative overslept work and got sent to Siberia for 2 years.

Gah... Okay, these strories have kind of turned me away from Communism... but it doesn't mean that I don't like the idea. I like Socialism better anyway... Democratic Socialism like the Green Party and what they have up in those Scandinavian countries. Capitalism turns people greedy, I'm not greedy by nature. Truthfully, the only material things that make me happy is my computer and my nintendo. My dad is a serious Social Darwinist 0__o. "Poor people are only poor because they're lazy and don't want to work and are welfare bums" He also REALLY likes Reagan, and is mad at me because I don't like him ^_^*. That's all for today, I guess...

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Mashina Vremeni