Few random things...
Sep. 2nd, 2003 04:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zaichikarkyBefore I get along with the rest of my NY tale....
I went to the UCSC website and checked out what classes I'm enrolled in. There is just *one* tenative thing, I decided. I still don't know whether I'll go ahead and shoot for calc again, or just be content with pre calc. My mom wants me to go for calc... I seriously learned LITTLE from pre calc. It fucked me up. Only "limits" did not confuse me... that was the easy part, heh... I wish I had my pre calc final. I studied a *LOT* for that... I swear for 3 full days in a row I did nothing but study for that test. I'm sure I did very well on it too... Anyway, if I manage to place into calc, I will end up having to end school at around 3 pm... if not, I end at 1:40 on fridays... this is important to me, because I'd like to end up going home evry weekend. it's be harder for me if class got out later...
Anyway, the tenative schedule is as follows:
US History(to 1877)-8 am- I <3 US history just tons and tons. Should have loads of fun with this class. I've just been *dying* to learn about the civil war. Only, it sucks that it's so early, heh.
Math- Pre Calc- 12:30. Meh. I don't know if I will keep it or move on to calc. I'll feel dumb for repeating it... but *shurg* I don't know....
Core- Jeez. Annoying. This is a class I *must* take. It sucks because for all other colleges, you take it for one semester. I have to do this the whole yar -_-. They already sent me an assignment due the first day of class. I'm somehow supposed to get the reader, and I have no idea how to do that.
Band- I don't know if I have to audition or what 0_o. But I'll probably be doing this mon/wed 5-7... I'm not in it yet. Can't enroll until school starts.
I just had the most ANNOYING couple of hours. I just went to the JC to request a transcript when I find out they HIKED it up to 5 dollars -_-. I'm really pissed now. I didn't have the 5 bucks at the time and had to come back. I guess I'll be going there tomorrow -_-. SO then I went to Jennifer's house to try to getn my nintendo stuff back from her sister and I find out it's locked up somewhere. Her sister isn't home and I end up having to take her other siter to soccer practice... bah.
I don't really know what I'm going to do tonight either ._.. I'm quite afraid. I keep going back to read old conversations and I realize that I won't ever have those kind of conversations without feeling wrong and stopping again. This saddens me and I don't know whether I have the guts to confront my fears , or do I keep running away? I'm going for more of the latter right now. I'll run away from everyone so no one has to feel uncomfortable about being the middle-man again ~_~. A big part of me wishes I wasn't in love anymore... but that won't happen for a long time. I'm still deeply in love and it's very hard ._.. Running away seems to be the easy thing to do, but it might not be the right thing. I don't know if i will run or not... We'll see.
I went to the UCSC website and checked out what classes I'm enrolled in. There is just *one* tenative thing, I decided. I still don't know whether I'll go ahead and shoot for calc again, or just be content with pre calc. My mom wants me to go for calc... I seriously learned LITTLE from pre calc. It fucked me up. Only "limits" did not confuse me... that was the easy part, heh... I wish I had my pre calc final. I studied a *LOT* for that... I swear for 3 full days in a row I did nothing but study for that test. I'm sure I did very well on it too... Anyway, if I manage to place into calc, I will end up having to end school at around 3 pm... if not, I end at 1:40 on fridays... this is important to me, because I'd like to end up going home evry weekend. it's be harder for me if class got out later...
Anyway, the tenative schedule is as follows:
US History(to 1877)-8 am- I <3 US history just tons and tons. Should have loads of fun with this class. I've just been *dying* to learn about the civil war. Only, it sucks that it's so early, heh.
Math- Pre Calc- 12:30. Meh. I don't know if I will keep it or move on to calc. I'll feel dumb for repeating it... but *shurg* I don't know....
Core- Jeez. Annoying. This is a class I *must* take. It sucks because for all other colleges, you take it for one semester. I have to do this the whole yar -_-. They already sent me an assignment due the first day of class. I'm somehow supposed to get the reader, and I have no idea how to do that.
Band- I don't know if I have to audition or what 0_o. But I'll probably be doing this mon/wed 5-7... I'm not in it yet. Can't enroll until school starts.
I just had the most ANNOYING couple of hours. I just went to the JC to request a transcript when I find out they HIKED it up to 5 dollars -_-. I'm really pissed now. I didn't have the 5 bucks at the time and had to come back. I guess I'll be going there tomorrow -_-. SO then I went to Jennifer's house to try to getn my nintendo stuff back from her sister and I find out it's locked up somewhere. Her sister isn't home and I end up having to take her other siter to soccer practice... bah.
I don't really know what I'm going to do tonight either ._.. I'm quite afraid. I keep going back to read old conversations and I realize that I won't ever have those kind of conversations without feeling wrong and stopping again. This saddens me and I don't know whether I have the guts to confront my fears , or do I keep running away? I'm going for more of the latter right now. I'll run away from everyone so no one has to feel uncomfortable about being the middle-man again ~_~. A big part of me wishes I wasn't in love anymore... but that won't happen for a long time. I'm still deeply in love and it's very hard ._.. Running away seems to be the easy thing to do, but it might not be the right thing. I don't know if i will run or not... We'll see.
