zaichikarky

schizotypal

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bored of reading bored to nintendo. The night chat is not the same as I remember it. Maybe I've been gone so long and it just changed... Or maybe today they were just all in computer geek nerd discussing things I don't want to know, don't care to know.. this makes it easier. I don't think anyone really cares about my presence there anymore. It makes it easier to leave. Easier to leave them all and not care about coming back. I feel it happening. Now, it's almost as if it were only a matter of time. A matter of time before it happened.

I felt fine before I came online. Stupid rhyme, but it has presidence. I want to blame everything online for my misery right now. I've been slowly doing it but it's like schitzophrenia... the other side of me argues that my online friends love me and don't want me to go. Meh, I think it could be true... with probably 3 people. Maybe 4. Can those 4 people keep me online? I feel my nerves burning. It's like I can't deal with anything.

Damn, I don't even remember who I talked to before I went into the whole night chat thing and got swallowed up. I don't remember... i don't... not anymore. I know that I didn't go into the chat at all, who did I talk to... must have been someone? Maybe I didn't spend any time online/on AIM at all. I don't know... It's a bad time to think now. I can only hope I can remember. What I do know is that... no one was close to me, and that was how I liked it.

It's the end now.

Damn, I'm *bored*. I should have stayed in bed with Jurrasic park.

2 nights ago I uninstalled IM. Couldn't sleep and wanted to see if Titus was on so I reinstalled it at like 2 am. Only Koopa was on, so he unwillingly got the whole "I want to destroy AIM" shpeel. Poor Koop, he and I talk so often that he seems to get all sorts of shpeels ^_^*. I think he's getting one as we speak. I can't say that AIM is my one source of anger/discomfort. No... maybe not, but it is a BIG source. I wonder when will be the next time I uninstall it.

During that anger moment, I also killed TRHQ in my bookmarks. Hell, that actually feels better! Meh, I'm more bored, so what. It will help me get over this easier.

Damn, I'm getting sick of all these pointless ramblings. I think it has to do with my personality. I can't bring myself to be rude and say "I don't feel like talking about this". Hey, if someone wants to talk for hours about their Chrono Trigger tactics, or intarnet luvars, or RL luvars, or costume parties and I don't give a FUCK, I just deal with it. And let's not forget Jeneher, the biggest rambler ever. To call me almost daily with no point whatsoever. Like today for example "WOW you sound like SHIT". YAH, I only told you 3 times how sick I am 0___o. Lately it feels like I just lurk around in one-sided conversations, not contributing anything other that "yeah... yeah... that's nice...". Pretty ironic how "rambling" was my topic for my pet peeves speech way back when. WOW, I must be pretty nice hearing all these people out. Either that, or I like being stepped all over. No, I can't be like that... I've NEVER been like that.

Hehe, I can predict the future. I can predict that it will be *this* topic which everyone will read. How funny. How stupid. Ahh... I think it's time for Jurrasic Park again.

Ya know, I liked beig a freshie. 8th grade was my apex, everything after then kind of got progressivly worse. Lucky for me though, 9th grade wasn't much worse, and I had plenty of fun.

I made the transition to high school easily enough. Rebecca and Jeneher went to different schools... but I still had Wei-Chen... and now Kaffi came to Piner too : ). I liked ALL my classes, all my teachers.

Gah *is having trouble where to begin * XD. Okay, since I neglected to mention this in the 8th grade year, I have to mention my pokemon websites thing... Somewhere in 8th grade, I found the very first two Team Rocket websites. Both called TR Headquarters ^_^*. There was the impressionable one from Exo/Josh... the *famous* one... and then there was the other one which became the Romantic interlude. That place just opened up a whole world to me 0__o. FICS, PICTURES... just a whole LOT of stuff...

Eventually I found TR palace... the first TR site completely devoted to TR fics. Gah, the rest is history. Joined the message baord... my very first one, and started writing fics of my own, but alas they're all gone now ;__;. I still miss my good old ramble land. My first online buddies... it was great. NEVER any fights always so peaceful, always got along. Sometimes I regret shutting it down, but I know it's for the better. The new BBS that WIndie made up went dead in like a month -_-. It's just that no one had a place for Ramble Land in them anymore...

Well, ANYWAY. Where was I?

I think the most important part of my whole 9th grade thing was that I met Krysta 0_o. h00 we had FUN. FUN FUN. She was so cute and just as silly as me. For the first time, the whole rain thing was born... where we would even stand under gutters. I'll never forget this quote from Mrs Mansell

"Oh, did you guys get baptized during lunch?" LOL!!

Yah, Staa and I had fun... Met Aubrey in band in 9th grade again. We became buddies that carried over for the remaining time she was in bad. I miss her ;_;. Yah, found out like the *second* day of band that she liked James and pokemon 0__o. What else...

Basically... fanfiction, pokemon and playing with Staa in the rain were my highlights from 9th grade.

Next session: TENTH GRADE. *cowers*

skiing was fun ^__^. I tried snowboarding for the first time and I wasn't as bad as i thought! I could actually stay on the darn thing for a while without falling off. But then i decided to cut the lesson short to go down the hill with my dad. THAT was a nightmare 0_o. I fell about 20 times... but I had a REALLY nasty faceplant >___<. it HURT BAD. And i got two really huge bruises from it. One on my knee and another somewhere else.... They're both this nast shade of red/purple. Those take a looong time to heal. Most of my brises are brown...

Now I'm back at the mall by my grandma's house... I had to beg them to go. but I doubt I'll get to talk to teegee anyway ;_;. At least I got to wish koop happy birthday ^_^. I'm pretty bored now...

I'm in colorado now... visiting the grandmothers and geting fat of chocolate!! My dad told them before "Don't buy any chocolate for Liza!" so they go buy loads and loads ^__^. I'm going skiing tomorrow!! how exciting ^_^. Now I'm visiting uncle Roma and Aunt Maya , our favorite relatives. Buuut instead of socializing with the grownups, I'm chatting with Shivs... it's a little more fun ^_^.

I get to skii... I get to skii ^__^. I wish tg was on ;_;. With how late he comes on now, I doubt I'll be able to catch him at all. Guess I'll have to wait... TILl NEXT TIME!

They're so beautiful 0_o. I just went on my scholarship list to find a scholarship that was about writing an essay about your favorite instrument I've never played a soprano sax before , but after I saw the soprano soloist and the violin soloist duel it out at riverdance last year, I've been obsessed 0_o. I want a soprano so bad... I'd love to play it in jazz band even more. I want to beg my parents to buy e one, but they'll just say "you won't play it!" and they'll probably be right -_-. I just downloaded a soprano sax solo of "Let it Snow" . My second time hearing the soprano! I still want the saxie though, it's so pretty 0__o. I feel so drawn to it, I don't know why 0_o. Somday I'll get one...

Also, that night I stayed up till 2 or 3 in band nerd mode with TG, I remember finally looking at picture of a contra bass sax- the biggest beotch of woodwinds. I found the following pikcha

Horace-Alexander Young performs "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" at the Chicago Music Mart (December,1997) on the new L.A. Sax Contrabass Sax. No oxygen tanks were used in this performance.

OXYGEN TANK?! WTFFFF??? Man... I want to blow into the thing someday ^_^*. Hooonk! I find it invigorating to blow low notes on my bari sax, but low notes on this bitch will send me flying 0_o.

Yesh... in other news, I got loads of HW to do this weekend and probably won't be able to do anything else ... Alexis will hate me.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Let it Snow- Soprano sax solo

I couldn't make my Thursday goal... So I went online at around 1 or 2 am after the traipsing : ).... and talked to koop, adrienne, Titus aaaannd Teegee ^___^. I was a very happy Arky.

OH YUZ, the actual traispsing! I came to Adrienne's house at about 11... and she was like "what are you doing out here so late?!" I finally convinced her to go out with me :P. mwahahaha!! *ahem*. She let me have this really weird tasting energy drink and we went to the sacred ghetto bench at the park where I found out my platypus story was painted over ;_;. *wails* IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER WRITTEN!!!!!!!

ANYWAY, so we go past Scoggy's house to the railroad tracks. The while time I hear "Johan johan johan..." wait! there WAS a bit of "Shyva" mixed into that too! Suuu... we walk along for a while... and we see some BATS! Well, we thought they were bats! So I started practicing my bat impression... which turned into a bat mating call... and now I'm SO good ^__^.

When we turned back, we heard a bunch of dogs HOWL. It sounded like a wild pack of coyotees, really 0__o. SO WE RUN and RUN and then we get tired and start walkin' again ^__^. That was actually kinda scary... On the way back Adrienne got us lost! But I, being the brilliant navigator that I am, found the way again! THAT WAS HOW IT WENT, REALLY. we were on this street "batter sea" XD. I kept thinking of how I wanted to be on the Santa Rosa Street naming committee so I could rename everything to bush. That street would be great! "Batter Bush!"

oh... and Adrienne and I wanted to be cannibals and form a new donner party. We couldn't decide a name though!

Earlier that day, Aubrey came over : ). We palyed Mario Sunshine a lot and watched that movie I borrowed from Wei-Chen. It had to be one of the sappiest movies I've ever seen, not to mention the little WENCH in it. GAAAHHH. I was SO happy when the main character slapped her! That beetch was the most manipulative little thing I've ever seen 0_o.

Oh, and instead of sleeping, I went to Alexis's house with Adrienne again. i hat ehr!111111 she got an intarveew :p. I go steal it from her. And then I'll steal that green card and monkey wrench she wants to steal from me too! MWAHAHAHAHAAAAA!! YESH, anyway, we laughted like a bunch of retards there.

And ROTFL. AND STIFFU. STIFFU : ). Alexis was confused. Poor internet- deprived thing...

Oh, and I think I'm failing chemistry again. I hate that class.

The internet broke for a week 0___o. I was dying from it!! No Koopa, TG, or Chelz for a whole week!!! 0___o. But it's all good now. My dad made me take care of it and a techie just came over today to fix it ^__^.

Yesterday, I bought da sequel to Shadow of the Hegemon finally! Now I'm at least 2/3rds done. I realized Brian is a fan and he wanted to borrow it too ^_^. Shadow Puppets is book is even better than Shadow of the Hegemon 0___o. It deals with Petra and Bean's realationship a lot ^_^*. It's quite cute though. Bean cries a lot... hehe...

That same day I got my book, I went over to Mrs Mullinger's house for the pre thanksgiving dinner she threw for the class :P. They made me do my pokemon impressions!!! The different part this time though was that the whole class wanted to hear them and not just Hank and Aaron ^_^*. As usual, Aaron laughed himself to tears ^_^*. Enspecially when I did my Wheezing impression. We also played Trivial persuit and there was this question about Laika in it!! It was for our group and I knew it, of course ^_-. hehe. Everyone was like "How on earth did you know that?!" And I replied "Just some useless Russian trivia...". ^__^. My dad talks about that dog too much for his own good!

OH! I stole another quiz from Dyani. I don't belive I got this result 0__o

What kind of Rocketshipper are you?

The test was made by Eevee

There was a "semi shipper" result that I liked much better :P.

Noffin else that I can remember ^_^*.

Hmmm... the only real interesting thing I did today was sneak out with Adreinne to walk around at 12 am. Before that, I was STUCK on this stupid Mario Sunshine level that I spent over an hour on! I got so frustrated , I couldn't belive that I beat it ^_^*.

Anyway, I met her on the corner of her street with my skateboard. I decided to take a skateboarding lesson. We went to the park and played around with my skateboard on the basketball court. There were a bunch of teenagers(maybe in their 20s) close by. When they told us to shut up(we weren't even being loud!), I yelled "Whatcha doing? Smoking pot? Don't worry, I won't tell anyone where you are!" After a while, Adreinne and took turns sitting on the skateboard while one of us pushed the other around ^_-. The idjits were like "You know, the freeway is really close! Why don't you play there?" I thought that was hilarious for some reason ^_^. Adrienne later told me that I should have yelled at them in Russian :p. Hehe, I wish I'd have thought of that!!

Then we decided to walk to school :P. She pulled me all the way there while talking about her internet friends ^_^. She talks an awful lot about Johan ^_-. He seems to be a very interesting character. She said that we should talk to each other, but now she says she's afraid to let me loose on him 0_o... okay. We went past school and to the park next to it. Then I played on the swings and thought a lot about Wei-Chen because we used to spend a long time taking turns on that one swing at the park, talking about whatever :p. Now I only see her once a week -__-. It's pretty sad that we're growing apart, but I can't really do anything about it, it's unavoidable... I was pretty quiet for the walk back...

My goal is to turn this computer off after I'm sone writing this thing, even though I want to go talk to Koopa, TG, Chelz, and other peeps that come in at this time, but I have to resist -__-. I can't do it. My goal is to stay off aim for one week... let's see if I can do it.

Hmm... a few days ago, I watched Mimi wo Sumaseba, a Miyazaki movie 0_o. I loved the main character!! It was so darn cute. The ending was weird, but I loved it. I ALMOST cried. Hehe, I could never cry, but I sorta had tears in my eyes ^_-.

Seiji: When I return from Italy, will you marry me?

Shizuku: Yes.

Seiji: Shizuku... I LOVE YOU! *glomps Shizuku*

And this is from two charcters who never even were going out, never kissed, nothing 0_o. Then there's "Country Road". The song is my new obsession. Shizuku actually makes up the song in the movie ^_-. Gawd, I can't remember the last time I was obsessed over a new song ...

Hmm... what else.... ah yesh! Shivs introduced me to "threebrain". hehehe ^_^*. Oh, they are QUITE interesting. I really like one song! YAY, lyrics!!

Holding on to me
I wanna go and swim with the other fishies
and swim with the other fishies
I wanna go and swim with the other fishies

You FUCKING Octopus!
FUCK YOU!
Let me go...

I want to swim
Free like a duck(or is is fuck?)
Free like a birdie
FUCK

Octopus, go fuck yourself!
Fishie... fishie, FISHIE!
My name is fishie and I like to swim
In the seeeeea
In the seea

I'm a fishie...
I'm a fishie...

That was FUN!

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Mimi wo sumaseba- Country Roads.

Omigod, a freshman got bushed today 0___o. I got to bush him too, but not before he got bushed twice, one a belly flop bushing !! Okay, I was overly excited. Jeremy did the bushing. He's so nice 0__o, well, to me. He never is mean to anyone really... Now that I think of it, he's the second nicest Jeremy I know 0_o. The Jeremy in my french class is really nice to me too and I don't even know him that well ^_^*. *isn't used to guys being nice*. hehehehehe...

Anyway, after the bushing, I climbed up on this metal cage and jumped into a bush after the cage started vaving in from under me ^_-. It wasn't a good bushing, I didn't jump from up high. After that happened, Scoggily said something interesting to me.

"You know, I think you're going to die from some FREAK accident someday, and I'm gunna laugh when it happens!"

...

I HOPE SO! I'd LOVE to be remembered as the fool who, with the unnatural percision, dived straight on into a bush from 1500 feet in the air, thinking the bush would have broken her fall. Oh yez, I have the PERFECT suicide planned, it it doesn't sound like a freak accident anymore! Well, maybe a little. All I need is a plane and a REALLY big bush ^_-.

THPS said that his plan included killing a bunch of people and then elaborately killing himself . It was pretty detailed. He said my plan sucks, but still think it's teh bezt!!!1111

Oh yes, I got through my concert today. My dad said he didn't hear my solo, I got very angry because there was no way I could have been louder.

I've become distracted from writing this by midnight TRHQ chat -__-. Now I'm too tired to write anymore...

Adrienne's dad took me out on another ride today!! I think his name is Logan ^_^*. Her mom's name is Phillis ^_^*. THERE GOES TO SHOW YOU! My theory about every male name having a female counterpart. Phillip----> Phillis ^_^*. This time we went out for about an hour ^_^*. Almost all the way to Calistoga. I saw that sign out there "See Old faithful Geyser!" Last time I went there, I got to pet a kid(a baby goat ^_^*). Yeeesh... I wanted to pet more goats, but I didn't ask to stop there ^_^*. Logan is suu nice to let me go on his motercycle. I told my mom about my rides, and I think she doesn't approve of it. She tried to express that with my dad, but for the *first* time, he really didn't care 0_o. I was surprised. Had he supported her, that would be the last of my times riding on the motercycle. She can't make me do anything without consulting him... sheesh. Unless it's something stupid, then all she does is scream her head off until I get scared and do it .

Hmmm... what else... I've been thinking about THPS *WAY* too much. It's what happens when someone vents on me about depressing topics. I can't handle it too well. I mean, I'm happy I'm there for them and would rather take feeling worried then not being there at all, but it takes a large toll on my psyche.

Also, I think I'm failing chemistry 0__o. Dat isn't too great. Duell's class is just like Wellman's. Duell REMINDS me a lot of Wellman. They're both as old, they both have almost identical grading systems, they both like to pick on their students, they both like to yell at their classes, and they both are HILARIOUS 0__o. Hence, I like Duell already. Too bad I SUCK at chemistry and got a 30 on my test. I've never even got that horrible of a score on any of wellman's tests. I just MAY get a bad grade in his class. The stupid thing is... I REALLY don't need chemistry! GAH. I am a senior with 6 classes and 3 years of science already. Why I'm taking a 4th year of science, I'll never know. I need to drop the class... *really*. *whines on and on and on*

Yay! Today was the first Sunday in a while that I got to play badminton again! My dad didn't go with me, so I invited Rachel instead ^_-. We played together for a while, and then got to play these two guys in mixed doubles ^_-. My partner had long hair 0___o. *no further comments* . They won, but we got SO close in the second game. The won by one point -__-. By that time, I got all my skillz back, and I asked the Russian dude to be Rachel's partner because I like playing mixed doubles... They were picking on me a bit because I didn't have a partner so Rachel was like "Why don't you ask THAT guy?". Some dude was standing, looking bored. Without even thinking, I went up to him and said "be my partner" ^_^*. He agreed. Then we played and we SEVERELY beat beat Rachel and Russian dude. That was fun , I can't wait until next Sunday!

Before badminton, I basically did nothing. My parents refused to allow me go to the anti war demonstration -__-. Their excuse was "You need to help paint and clean the house" -__-. Yeah right, my dad spent hours lecturing me yesterday about how "those losers out there protesting aren't real Americans if they want Sadaam in power".

SPEAKING OF LECTURING, I've just about had it to here with lectures from my father. When I first was into Communism, he started lecturing me about how evil it was, and now, for some reason, it's starting AGAIN. He just keeps telling me story after story of what happened to ordinary Russian citizens . I mean, they're interesting stories, but sadly, they're influencing me too much.

One he told me yesterday inspecially was sad... My dad was a part of the Soviet Army at my age (school ends for russians after 10th grade). When he applied for this University, a question was asked about his father: "where is he". My dad either said or wrote that he didn't know. The truth was, my grandpa was in America , trying to be a permenant resident . The KGB somehow looked into it, and made it so my dad failed his exams and was drafed to join the Soviet Army. My mom thinks it was because he's Jewish by nationality. For centuries, Russians have always been anti-semetic. I asked his why, and he said "because by nature, Russians are VERY envious people. They saw how well Jews prospered in their country, and became jealous. They did everything they could to set them back". Okay, that's story number 1. He told me some more tomorrow about life under comrade Stalin 0_o. I've heard of these stories before, because my dad calls me this name "Vridetil". I break stuff on accident, and my dad says I do it on purpose because I'm a Vridetil. Vridetils are the name of people in Communist Russia who broke stuff on accident and were sent to Siberia 0__o. He said "If a construction worker accidently broke his drill, someone who didn't like him could tell the KGB 'tavarish, I know someone who broke a soviet drill! He is a capitalist and enjoys breaking soviet materials!' Then bam, the person would get thrown into Siberia" 0__o. Then he goes on to tell me how one time my grandma's relative overslept work and got sent to Siberia for 2 years.

Gah... Okay, these strories have kind of turned me away from Communism... but it doesn't mean that I don't like the idea. I like Socialism better anyway... Democratic Socialism like the Green Party and what they have up in those Scandinavian countries. Capitalism turns people greedy, I'm not greedy by nature. Truthfully, the only material things that make me happy is my computer and my nintendo. My dad is a serious Social Darwinist 0__o. "Poor people are only poor because they're lazy and don't want to work and are welfare bums" He also REALLY likes Reagan, and is mad at me because I don't like him ^_^*. That's all for today, I guess...

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Mashina Vremeni

I just came from Alexis's house and learned something NEW about Yamato that she wasn't gunna tell me, but I got her to tell me. I didn't want to, but told her he was just lying and didn't care to hear about it, so she told me anyway!

He was very angry or upset that I threatened to have him kicked out of my life FOREVER by telling my homophobic parents he's gay. I wanted him to be upset at the time, now I guess he's more upset with me than with me at him. I'm not even angry with him anymore. I'm not sure if I want to allow this to end our friendship. He's a guy, I've NEVER EVER kept close friendships with the race of men for very long. It goes back to the rant about Scoggily. I'm allowing Scoggily to be closer friends with me -__-. I should learn not to do that...

This one guy did a speech in class today , debating a speech that this girl did about what she hates most about guys: they don't understand females and can never understand us because they're different. I guess I sort of agreed with her, but then listened to the rebuttal : "I love girls because they're hard to understand and they're different". He went into how much he loved being around females and if he could melt a girl and inject her into his veins, he would take her as a drug. The metaphor sounded so weird, but I LOVED it 0__o. Yes, I too love males because they're so different from my girlfriends and my girlfriends are pretty different than me... I like Scoggily and Yamato a lot, but I don't want to get closer to them >_<. I know that eventually, I will grow apart from them, just because that has happened to every single male I befriend.

Omshiva is an example from the internet. I really liked talking to him during the revolution, it was a lot of fun. Eventually , the revolution ended and we kind of stopped talking... Then he took his "leave of absence" and this time, I thought he'd never return ;_;. So at the spur of the moment, I decided to IM him and ask him to return. Now we're becoming friends again... Who's to say he won't get tired of me again? I don't want to be sad later on because now I think we're closer than revolution time >_<.

And now speaking of internet friends, there is this PROBLEM I have with the internet... I keep thinking of Lietennant Charles Barkley from Star Trek 0__o. Okay... this dude was OBSESSED over the holodeck. It had some kind of psychological effect on him. I would be obsessed to... a world that goes the way I want it to go... does whatever I want it to do... deep stuff. He got therapy for it later though, but then he showed up on Star Trek Voyager and was trying to find a way to contact Voyager 0_o. In order to help him think, he designed a Voyager holodeck program and spent hours in it, talking with the crew. His superior officers thought he was having a relapse of his Holodeck obsession and told him to take a leave of absence 0__o. He almost didn't get to contact Voyager. I don't want to be like Barkley, I don't want to be emeressed in a world that is not real. I mean, the friends I have are real, but they're not. I know I'm not talking to little bytes of information when I communicate with them, but the truth is, I will probably never get to see them and know how they truly are...

Today, during my SAT, my mind started wandering because I was getting so tired and losing focus. A 90 question history test tends to do that. For some reason, I thought about Koopa for about 5 minutes before I came back on track. I don't even remember what it was about, I think how it would be like playing videogames with Koopa ^_^. Another one of my weird dreams is to play video games with a WORTHY opponent who is as good as me on select games. And after TG, Chelz, Koopa and I had that little chat a few days ago, I couldn't concentrate in school because I was worried about TG >_<. I think... I think too much 0_o. One part of me tells me I really shoudln't care about my internet friends so much, but another part of me wants just to talk to them all day long... I'm stuck between the two.

I think i need another leave of absence from the internet... I take them when I get bored of it from time to time, but right now, I'm in one of my phases that I just want to sit all day on it 0_o. My dad just LOVES to lecture me about how much I'm obsessed with the internet. Before, he set up this program which restricted my time on it, I sort of want him to do it again -___-. I think I need will power to keep away from it for a week at least... maybe more than that. Who knows, I think Yamato will not call me again, and now I think I'm too afraid to call him when I'm ready -_-.

I don't even know if this is about the internet. Had I not made friends through the internet, I wouldn't be so obsessed with it. I think I'll just take time away from IM... then I won't feel so guilty. But I will miss talking to the un-American peeps and TG on chat late at night... I like talking to them a lot >_<. I don't like it.

I'm glad I *think* not too many of my 'net friends read this thing... Omshi might since he mentioned something about it one day ^_^*, which is kind of bad since I used him as an example... only because he's a sole part of my internet obsession. Shivs is way too loveable ^_^. I hope you paid the most attention to that part, Shivs! If any of you do read... I'm sorry >_<, but I need a break before the internet ruins my life or something drastic -_-. Gah.. it will probably never even happen. I can't get away from it for too long at all.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Kakurenbo- White Berry

At least, not for a while. I just took them again and this time I was hardly nervous at all! The day before, my mom came to pick me up at the park and lectured me in the car "I want you to go home and study because you haven't studied AT ALL for this test. You can stay up the whole night, studying. That's okay, we did that in Russia before a test. Just you even GET a bad score on the test" ;_;. Then I went on AIM later and Koopa cheered me up ^_^. He showed me how to... RECORD myself on the compy! Wha... I've always wanted to do that. i got so excited and spent time recording a bunch of stuff and sending it to koops, tg and Chelz. I did this really weird version of "it's a small world" and then some stuff in russian.

Also yesterday, I was thrilled when Scoggily and I got to spend time in the park again. We got to talking about the Iraq war when these CHILDREN came up to us. They were older than the usual ones and by far the most annoying. They kept asking these stupid question like "raise your hand if you're gay", "is he your boyfriend? Are you lesbian?" and then started spitting on us. They got Scoggily. I was SO pissed. I told them if they spit on me, I would kick their asses and they just mouthed off to me more. Then somehow Scoggily found their mothers and they ran away 0__o. That was when I saw my mom and had to go home. stupid fucking kids. They were like the third set of annoying children but by FAR the worst little brats I have EVER encountered. These children just wreck the time with me and Scoggy at the park -____-. I wish they'd just leave us alone before we decide to not be there anymore *is sad* ;_;. The only time Scoggy is actually serious with me is when we're at the park... I sort of enjoy that -__-.

Oh, and I found a new hobby! *pastes stuff* Here is my latest one to Shivs...

That was one of the best letters ever written.

-Shivs

--- Majestic Arcanine
<the_magestic_arcanine@yahoo.com> wrote:
> omigod. i luv u, seriously. i do. i have been to ur
> site ever since it opened and i fel in luv with u. U
> R
> SO SEXAY. i have put it of for months and months,
> but
> i CANT hold it bak no mor. I HAVE to tel u how i
> feel.
> i mean, i... hav this REALY funny feeling whenever i
> look at that pictur with u and teh snowman. i don't
> realy no what it is, but ive never felt it befor! u
> look so misterious in it, like ur staring at
> ME!!!111
> R U?!!!? becus i hav printed evry pictur of U and
> put
> tham on my wall in a minishrine like u no... helga
> in
> hey arnold! my mom wants to no who u r becuz she's
> seen ur picturs in my room, but i wont tel her becuz
> she wil freek out, she hates internet. i luv it tho,
> it brot me to U!!!111!!!1111111111
>
> also, i LUV how u wer blak so much. it maks u look
> even mor SO misterious to me. i like goths ALOT. r u
> a
> goth? my bezt frend iz, his name is thurgood. i luv
> him but i luv u mor. TO BAD THURGOOD, im
> taken!!!!!!!!!!
>
> i also went on ur frends list and i want to be on
> it.
> i think i shuld hav my own category "LUVERS". i want
> to be teh only one on it. w00t do i have to do to be
> on it?!!! oh, i wanted to also tell u that becuz u
> seem to like history and wars so mutch, I watch the
> history chanel once a week now. Did you know that
> people first had sex in cars in the 1920s?! i saw
> the
> history of sex yesturday. but the history chanel
> never
> seems to hav speshuls on comunizm on. becuz u like
> it
> so mutch, i wanted to lern about it. I really like
> red, a lot, my lips r red. but i dont no exactly wat
> comunizm is. is it like... a groop in rusha? becuz
> my
> other bezt frend is rushan. her nam is svetlana and
> she liks red a lot to. but she doznt no wat comunizm
> is eether. PLEZ TELL ME!!!! well, i gotta go...
> thurgood is caling me up again. PLEZ EMAIL ME SOON I
> HAVE TO HER FROM U!!!111

And here is my personal favorite one to THPS ^_^.

I wuz surfin aroud on ezbord today when i fond ur
name. u lok like a animal luver to mi, so i dicided to
emale u!!!11111111

furst, i wanted to tel u abot my favorit animles. im
only in 23th grad, but i kno that sum dey ill wurk
with animals. I luv them so much!!!1111 i hav so mani
pets in my tralor home bot my pappi always cums to
thro tham otsid when he loks angry at mi.i dunt no y
bat i alwaz get them bak. out her in new jersy ther r
los of animles for me to bring hom bat ther is 1 i hav
nevr siin anywere.

TEH BLOFISH! my grannie marigold onc gav mi a bok abut
fish sinc shi new i like animles so mutch. in it, ther
wa a pictur of a blofish!!!!!!1111111 did u kno that
in frech fish is "posson". that sonds so
funni!!!!!!!11111111!!!!!!!!! i dunt now abut blofish
tu mutch becuz its rely hard tu read for me. in new
jersey im a yer behind becuz i tok math in 22th gard
insted. bat sumdey il lern to read su i can liv out mi
drem to wark with animles!!!! but mi bezt friend,
cornwallis, told mi that blofish can gro rel big by
puffin themselvz up! isnt that kewl? did u no
that????!!!!blofish nevr get fleas, ethr. did u no
that?????!!!!!

my uther favorit animles BTW is fleas! fles are anuthr
grate animle. ther so pretty! becuz i hav so mani
animles in my traler fleas liv with us tu. thay suk
blud frum othr animls. i luv fleas so mutch becuz they
luv mi. they mad my bodi ther home . probabli becuz i
havnt waken a bath in 3448 days. i no that becuz my
mom stoped paing for watr at hom 3448 deys ago and i
wont wash in teh rivr becuz my animal frends liv ther.

PLEZ tel mi abut ur favrit animles!!!!!!!!! we can
becum bezt frends.

-animle fan

He hasn't responded to that one yet... He'd BETTER read it 0__o. *is not mentioning it to him*

And HERE is the one that started it all... The one to Scoggily. When I brought it up, he didn't know it was me! LOL! He thought it was a friend from southern Cali.

> hi. i jist wanted to becum frends w/ u. i rely liek
> skwerl adn i wantd to find fello skqerl fan.
> O i went on www.stalker.com and caled up a number tht
> charjed mi 214890641 buks for info on u. i fond out
> that u go to piner! OMIGOD! gues w00t? SO DO I! were
> liek destind to bi
> frends!!!!!!!1111111111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!pleeze tel mi
> ur 1st period clazz and ur name so i can be ur frend.
> im frends with ur frend, Keven vanderdorken, he told
> mi abot u.
>
> I LUV SKWERLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111
>
> - skwerl fan

I asked for e-mails from trhq and stuff, so I don't know who I will write one to next. Shads maybe .

I just spent an hour typing TG an e-mail... I hope he appreciates it... maybe... I'm happy I spent time writing it though.

Hmm... I'm about to go to bed. I've been getting behind on homework and have been doing like NONE for all of this week because I like staying up until 2 am with TRHQ chat... I can't help it >_<. It's talking a toll on my psyche, but I am so glad I was there for the "three ringed circus" today.

Okey... YESTERDAY! OMIGOD! I RODE ON A MOTERCYCLE! With Adrienne's father ^__-. He was so nice to take me out on a ride. He asked me "how fast do you want to go" and I said "very fast", so that's just what he did! When it was safe of course ^_-. We went 70 mph down a 40 mph zone. It was SO fun. I relished every moment of it 0__o. It was like... flying in an automobile with the windows open on all sides of you 0___o. That's the best analogy I can make... it was so wonderful.

Today Adrienne and I went to Barnes and Noble. We looked at a bunch of gay porn pictures and I read outloud how a man is supposed to feel happy with the extra skin on his penis. THEN, I chained myself to a tree and staged my very own Green Peace rally. I bought my dad a book about the female fighter pilots in the soviet army. I hope he will like 0__o. Also, Matt returned my video tape. I think he tried to call me too... but hung up on my parents 0__o. Apparently, he is too scared to talk to them. -___-

Other than the nice time I had in Barnes and Noble, chaining myself to a tree, trying to converse with Chelz in Japanese, and witnessing a psychological breakdown in the chat, that was all that happened to me. I'm so happy I was there for TG ;_:. Even though I wasn't part of his or Chelz's argument... I think I MIGHT have helped him. I hope so...

Yesh, first an internet quiz.

Yeah, next a rant.

I hate men, seriously. thps2f and I got to talking and I realized why I always seem to have such problems with men. They always get sick of me... seriously! I don't know what it is... I don't start treating them any differently or anything like that... All the guy-friends I have ever made eventually just ignore me and never want to talk to me. It is starting to happen to Scoggily too. He's been ignoring me all this week. It's like... they think they're too good for me or something. A "male manifesto" 0_o. All the males in the world evntually end up turning from Lisa. Matt is different. He thinks of me as his best friends. He's my sexay bitch, Yamatokun. I know he'll never abandon me : (. We're pretty close. In the past, I've been hurt by males getting sick of being my friend and I have decided that I will not make anymore guy-friends for the rest of high school. College is anothere story. That means that I am renouncing my friendship with Scoggily tomorrow. I don't know if he'll care or not because he's been igoring me anyway, but it's to prevent myself from being hurt anymore. I don't need this my senior year... from now on, Matt is my only true boy-friend. I trust him.

Okay, so what have I been doing lately? We're starting to paint my house! WE CHOSE THE PRETTIEST COLOUR! I love it... it's like... melon green ^_-. Um... I did go to see that saxophone player. I got to dance to his folk music 0_o. My parents wanted to leave an hour early from that. I was mad -_-

Um.. yesterday I went to get some extra credit by going to a book fair. I bought Ender's Game !! FINALLY it's mine! It's making me a bit sad though. WIthout Scoggily, I would never have known about Ender. *sigh*. I'm not sure if I want to denounce our friendship tomorrow. I may regret it in the future. I will do it though. I want to know how he will react to it.

Not much else happened... Windie is talkign to me now... that's making me happy. She might call me up on da phone later too. I'm still sad about my male theory though. Yesh...

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Digimon Frontier : Fire

I had such a nice dream this morning after my mom woke me up for the first time. And I actually remembered it ... wow 0_o. I met this goth skater somewhere. At first we hated each other and at this one point he wanted to kick my ass. Then somehow we became friends and he taught me how to ride the skateboard. We ditched first period to go skating. Ahh... I loved that dream. Then it somehow turned into my dog wanting to bite everyone. That one was weird. He would like... start licking my family in a frenzy then bite.

Anyway, I loved the dream and I decided that I wanted to go back to trying to ride my skateboard. So I go in the garage to look for it... and it's fucking gone -_-. I don't know where it is. My dad said I gave it away to my neighbors. Yeah right! Is that why I never let them play on it because I didn't want them messing with it?! I haven't seen it in a long time... after I decided that I didn't want to try it anymore. Now I do and it's gone. It probably got stolen one of the times our garage was left open. Maybe I'll ask my mom for a long board for my b-day (wow... my birfday is next Thursday). I'm so pissed off. Is that what the dream really meant?! That my skateboard dissapeared and I'll never ride it again?! I don't know.

Lately I've been posting on quite a few message boards. Ramble land is really... inactive and I don't know what to do to make it get out of that way. On this japanese oekaki I visited, I posted in romanji about 3 times and got a responce to one of them. I'm not sure if the girl will respond again.

I've been drownded in homework lately. But it's just busy assignments pretty much. I failed my gvt. test and I was so mad. I read the whole section and what's more, I knew all the material. At least I thought I knew it all before. I mean, it was about the enlightenment thinkers and the where the ideas for democracy game from, dammit, I know that ALL 0_o. My teacher assured me that my score(6/14) was just the median for everyone else, but that didn't make me happy. I have more GVT HW now and I read that all closely too. There'd better not be a test.

On a more cheerful note, I saw Keith yesterday (the dude who I inherited the bari sax from). He was visiting ^_^. Here's what happened when I saw him...

Me: KEITH!!!!! *runs up to Keith in a frenzy*
Keith: Lisa! AHHHH! He started to run away.
Me: GUESS WHAT?! I GOT YOUR BARI SAX!!!! It's mine! All mine!
K: ?!!
ME: DAMMIT! I had to wash your slobber out of it! I had to soak it in detergent for about an hour and keep scrubbing to get all the crap out of it and it turned a really weird color.
K: What?! You soaked the instrument ?!
Me: NO! Just the mouthpiece'
K: *phew*
And your SCREW! What the hell happened to the screw!? I want it! I need it! I don't care what you did with it.
K: Oh that, it broke off
(well, I knew that, so i left him alone. Then he went in search of out band directer ^_^).

Just when I thought I had enough of Keith for one day, he shows up in my speech class and "screeches me". Last year him and a few other guys would grab out sides and make us "squeak". But I don't squeak, I "screech". I SCREAM. So I slapped him once and then he did it again after he stayed in class for the whole time. Mrs Mansell was like "do you know eachother"? Because then I proceeded to slap him, punch him and throw his hat into the recycle bin. I have a feeling that that's not the last of him 0_o.

Today I'm spendign the night when Alexis and then going to San Francisco ^_^. I think I'll discuss that later...

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: none- I really got to get back into it...

I don't think I like going into so much detail anymore! And I did this then this... wait! I did this first! Oh well, let's try to make this untedious...

I had the *brilliant* idear of seeing Signs since adrienne hadn't seen it before, so we went! At that time I didn't know I had 10 dollars sitting around, so she paid for me. The movie was even better the second time and it really got me to think. What if life were "without coincidences". I must take someone else to see it! I saw Aubrey at Carls Junior too! I bought a drink from there and the dude almost didn't let me into the theater. Only because they wanted me to pay 3 times more for it -_-. I need to do a better job at sneaking in food next time.

We went back to Adrienne's house and ate more ice cream/ colored in her coloring book. Then we went back to my house and my dad had a fit that I brought her over because he "didn't want any friends over while he was home". So we had to go. And I went back home and remember nothing else about yesterday except my mom got home real late for no reason 0__o and my brain is starting to probably get another chemical imbalance, I think. And now I'm scared because it isn't PMS...

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Lesse, today! Aubrey called at like 11, waking me up ^_^. I didn't mind though because she invited me to go to Funcoland with her anyway. She bought some really cool new videogames! 0__o. Chip and Dale's rescue rangers nintendo game!! *ish jealous*. So then... I suggested we go to hot topic just because that store rules 0_o. I just go in there to stare at the shirt collection and Aubrey goes to stare at the invader Zim collection. I couldn't buy anything this time though because I spent the money I found laying around on the English book I needed and couldn't find at the library. Before that, we went into Suncoast to stare at the anime dvd collection and the toys. We found Dragon ball Z one shot glasses! LOL! That was quite a laugh ^_^*.

We left after Hot topic and headed to the new Charles Shultz museum only to find out that Tuesday was the only day it wasn't open. Then I told her to take me home because I was starving and because I needed to work on my english assignment. I still wanted to play Chip and Dale though! I hope soon >_<.

Later, I got to talk to Shivs for like... 5 minutes and THPS2F for 2 0_o. Then my mom took me to the thai restaurant. Yay fer me!!!111 Then I went to Japanese class where sensei drilled how to use commands. I still don't have my book 0_o. My dad JUST ordered it from Amazon and it will take more than a week, I think, to get here. So I'll either have to ask Kanoe to borrow her book or fail next week's quiz. I hope Kanoe still has her book!

Yesh, that's enough for today! I don't want to write anymore of "I did this then this then... this!" so much anymore now, LOL! But someday, like Wei-Chen said, I could really appreciate this ^_^.

Let's start off with some quizes I hunted down from Shivs' blog... I don't even know who this dude is! I wanted Lenin ;_;. My mom got Lenin though! I made her and FATHER take the quiz and they liked it ^_^. Mom predicted she would be lenin! *I'z soo proud*!! Dad got Breznev... and mom and I SWORE he would get Stalin! I was almost sure of it! Guess we were wrong ^_^*. Anyway, wow. Today was exciting 0_o. I will spend a long time here today... -_-

Which Soviet Leader are you? go to:the quiz!

*phew*. What did I do today... WOW. Well, I watched half of Kim Possible today until my mom took me to the mall :p. I bought some really pretty shirts there from Hot Topic! They are so kyute! I got a Mario shirt ^_^*. Umm... there I saw Linsay with her host sis from Kagoshima! I remembered her too! It was fun. Turns out it was her host sis' b-day and Linsay invited me :P. So I went home and drove my dad to her house. We got lost 0_o. But we SOMEHOW managed to find the way. It was hard. She lives like in the middle of the woods with a lot of animals 0_o. I stayed there for like an hour then they kicked me out 0_o. But the cake there was SOOO good! *is still drooling over the cake* I found out that some of the girls were going to go to Chris' mom's concert... so I decided to go. She sang all in french. It was pretty cool, but all her songs were opera style and just seemed repetative 0_o. The two songs I really loved weren't in french ^_^. One was this Spanish song she sang with another lady. Such a nice duet : ). Then for the finale, she sand Danny Boy. That was beautiful 0_o. She hit the high notes JUST right! I liked it! I've played Danny boy so many times in band and never once have I heard it sung, until today!

Then I went home and discovered Tako had something to tell me about Shivs 0_o. Um yesh... let's just say it made me very happy. I wanted to talk to him today, but he got offline while I was watching DS9. Now I may never get the courage again. *sigh*. Yesh, I did watch DS9 BTW. TOTAL nostalgia! I haven't watched that ep since the first day it aired ... years ago! I love that ep so much ^_^. It was the ep about Bashir and the genetically modified group he met. *sigh* I just LOVE ds9...

Oh, and there are some important stuff I did yesterday that I need to mention now. yesterday Tako and I decided to become friends 0_o. I dunno why, but I really enjoy talking to Tako ^_^*. She is just so easy to talk to and I feel like I can share secrets with her. That's why she knows some stuff I don't just go out and tell everyone I see :P. Yesh, I spent until 2 am talking with her... mainly gossiping about TRHQ members ^_^*. It was great. Then my dad SOMEHOW woke up and ruined my fun. She also interviewd me and that was a whole lot of fun!

Tomorrow I'm planing on going to the Japanese student party... I hope it will be cool! *liked today a lot* A bunch of neat surprises ^_^*

*Edit* More quizzy stuff ^_^*

Which Middle Earth race are you? go to:the quiz!

Um yeah... I'm a man. Yup...

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: none... o__O

Yesh, today was very uneventful -_-. Um... Lesse. I woke up at like Freaken 7 am because my mom calle dmy house. Went back to sleep eventually and woke up at 11 am 0_o. Then watched DS9... was a VERY funny episode! Everyone caught this love fever and were all making out and stuff 0__o. Hehe.... then I... did nothing much. Cleaned the house a little and then waited until my mom came to take me out to dinner 0_o. We went to this restaurant... kind of fancy and my mom is like a connoiseur and like... critiqed EVERYTHING. Hehee... the pie was really goog though ^_^. I got home and did a whole lot of nothing some more! Called Aubrey and she talked to me a while about my would be english teacher. Yesh, I learned a lot about her 0_o. Then I did an interview with Tako and that's about all I will probably do today. Um yesh. Terribly exciting, isn't it?

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Sick-TRHQ2=more LJ!

Freshie grade

suki ga daisuki!

I'm goone...

Ahh... soprano sax...

I is teh pathetic!

OMIGOD INTERNET WITHDRAWL twitch twich

Late night traipsing

TEH BUSH!!!!!

MOTERCYCLE!!! ^_-

BADMINTON!! ^_^

RANT TIME!

NO MORE SATS!!

it's... 2 am...

Rants and stifu! ^_-

My skateboard ;_;

continuing from yesterday...

Boku wa omoshiroi ! Hontou ni!

Lesse... today