>:o

Trazadone CONKS Jeferry out XD. I've never met a heavier sleeper X3. He wuz snoring BADLY and annoyed my roomate... who decided to actually sleep this one night back in here ^^*. I'm stuck in the middle of this right now, I can't sleep because of the snoring and I told Jefery not to sleep . Hey, something had to be done, now it's all equal. I don't think I want to attempt sleeping at this point... 2 hours of laying around will only make me unhappy. I'e been quite happy this weekend. it was quite awsome, yes. Didn't feel depressed at all... not during a single part. Now I haven't done any HW(like I knew I wouldn't) and I'm quite stressed about that : (. I woulda done hw, but I ACTUALLY got some visitors. Randomly Hannah, Alex, and um... GREG IS HIS NAME, yesh, anyway, they decided to come over for some reason... *perhaps* Alex caught on that I felt excluded from their activities, whatever it was, I was vary happi ^_^. So we played Smash Brothers and debated/talked about a bunch of random stuff for a few hours... we were probably quite annoying to my roomate who was trying to study for a midterm. Jeferry said Greg was trying to hit on my roomate XD. That's funny... probably UNTRUE but funny. Greg wanted to come back. we never got to challenge each other with Melee because I still didn't get another controller ^_^**. Gawd I'm so tired. I've been so tired ever since I got here, it seems. I think the only way I can't be so tired is if I sleep for at least 10 hours regularly. Well, that ain't happening. Instead, right now, I sleep well about every other day... It'd be nice to talk to someone right now.... *bored and tired*, but it's awwright. *prays she won't et depressed from this * -_-. I hope not... right now it's just stress/anxiety... pretty mild.

Of course I have tons more shit to write.... but not in the mood to right now.

bored survey

Stolen from Tuffie that was stolen from Sam... heh.

LAST PERSON WHO..
. Slept in your bed: Jeferry
. Saw you cry: no one. oh fine, myself? 0_o
. Made you cry: um... Either TG or myself, I guess.
. Spent the night at your house: In my dorm? Jeferry. In my house? hell, probably Jeferry as well.
. You shared a drink with: Jeferry X3. #*^$(& TREND.
. You went to the movies with: LOL! ditto, yup...
. You went to the mall with: I believe Adrienne....
. Yelled at you: Mom.
. Sent you an e-mail: Titus? Well, the last meaningful one anyway XD.
. Said they were going to kill you: Jeferry! : )

HAVE YOU EVER..
. Said "I love you" and meant it? Definitely.
. Gotten in a fight w/ your dog/cat/bird/fish,etc.? no XD
. Been to New York? yup!
. Been to Florida? I wish... quite badly ;_;
. California? kinda live there.
. Hawaii? uh huh...
. Mexico? no
. China? no
. Canada? yeah ^_^
. Danced naked? X3. No.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? Maybe...
. Wish you were the opposite sex? Quite often... well, sometimes I guess.
. Had an imaginary friend? no, really, never had one... heh
. Red or blue? blue
. Spring or fall? fall methinks
. Santa or Rudolph? Rudolph with his nose so bright!
. Math or English? right now? Math...
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Wait for Titus to come on, and if he doesn't, write a bunch of crap....
. What was the last food you ate? pasta.
. High school or college? definitely college
. Are you bored? yes
. How many buddies are on? technically 11
. Last movie you saw? DEAD ALIVE! FUCK YAH
. Last noise you heard? roomate flipping pages...

ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS...
. Laughs the weirdest? I think I laugh weird.
. Will grow up and be a model? XD
. Going to have the most kids? Someone unlikely..
. Have you known the longest? Kathi or Jeniher.
. Is the loudest? KIRSTIN. Though, we're no longer really friends XD
. Is the quietest? Adrienne
. Do you have the most classes with? no one XD
. Is the weirdest? Adrienne X3
. Is the funniest? *shrugs* Wait... *forgot about internet friends* That'd have to be Titus then.
. Is the moodiest? TG
. Can you tell most of your secrets to? I guess now it is Titus/Jeferry.
. Do you usually go to about all of your problems? Titus, poor thing XD
. Last time you went out of the state: um, I think it was July... Er, Early August?
. Things you like in a girl/guy: Intelligence/humor...
. Do you have a crush on someone? Definitely
. Do they know? I hope not -_-. But perhaps I might tell them soon.
. What do you think of ouija boards? "stupiiiiiid"
. What book are you reading now? oh man, here we go:
*sadly* none, really ;_;. Not in much of a reading mood I suppose, plus there are shitloads of college readings I have to do.
. What's on your mouse pad? I do not have one
. Favourite board game? Monopoly
. Favourite magazine? Nintendo Power
. Worst feeling in the world? in depression
. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? When naturally waking up, I guess luv, when not, I tend not to think.
. How many rings before you answer? bout 2
. Future daughter's name? Asuka ^_^
. Future son's name? Yuri.
. Chocolate or vanilla? CHOCOLATE! (XD)
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes, and their names are Simba and Banja ^_^
. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Hell if I know... I just hope I will like it.
. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righty, but wish I was skilled in teh lefty as well
. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? kinda.
. What's under your bed? *looks under*... nintendos, backpack, TONS OF BAGS, random crap...
. Favourite sport to watch? I.Hate.Sports
. Siblings: none : (.
. Location: Santa Cruz, Ca
. College Plans: top 3 choices (in no order): In UC Santa Cruz right now....
. Any Piercings: ears
. Best Friends: IRL: Adrienne, Alexar, Jeferry(I guess he counts XD). Intarnet: TG and Titus.
. Hobbies: NINTENDO... random movies, LEZBEEN LUVARS... talking to fun peeps....
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: usually timely... don't like being late.
. Do You Have A Job: No, the most I've had a job is for 2 weeks... hm, perhaps this last one was 3 actually...
. Do You Like Being Around People: yes, I do. But alone with one or two. Any more than that, and I stay quiet.

STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no....
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: sadly, yes
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: Geeks XD. nerds.... guys with long hair... I suppose? *shrugs* I think it's a general girly thing most females find attractive XD.
. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: kind of... maybe
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes.
. Are You Lonely Right Now: not really.
. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: a bit, but not really
. Do You Want To Get Married: yes
Do You Want Kids: two at the most ^_^. A boy and a girl, preferably.

FAVORITE
. Room In house: my rooooom, computer room comes second XD
Type of music: 80s!
. Song: right now? hm... gah. beatles? Just cause jeferry and I were singing them a little while ago XD.
. Memory: I hope it will be to come...
. Day Of The Week: friday or saturday... used to be Wednesday
. Color: purple/black
. Perfume Or Cologne: ew >_<
. Flower: rose? ^_^
. Month: some winter month... how about December? XD
. Location for dates: never really been on one XD. Er, someplace comfy and alone is nice, though

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
. Cried: nope
. Bought Something: food?
. Gotten Sick: yesh : (, but not badly
. Sang: yes XD
. Said I Love You: I believe so.
. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: no
. Met Someone New: yes ^_^
. Moved On: er, no?
. Talked To Someone: yep
. Had A Serious Talk. Yes ;_;... it was nice
. Missed Someone: yes
. Hugged Someone: yup
. Kissed Someone: no XD
. Fought With Your Parents: they've been outta the country
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: yes...
. Had a lot of sleep: gawd no -________-
. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: YES.

interesting.... yesh.

I suppose I should write something....

or not. I'm so tired. stupiiiiid Jeferry and his snoring. *shrugs* today I should get good sleep, though. Maybe too good sleep... it better not be 13 hours -_-. tha'd just be "good* depression.

Anyway, I've had something bothering me lately... I think I'm already growing apart from someone who means a lot to me, and then growing closer to other people. I'm in love... with my love, most of my HONORABLE SUSCRIBERS know of whom I speak, but those who don't, don't really need to know XD. Anyway, apart from him, I have two crushes that are meaningful... one of them is quite familiar... he's taken pretty much the role of my bf, lacking only the title, and the other doesn't know, but perhaps kindamaybe might be getting a clue somewhere down the road. I feel stupid about it all, but I don't see the point in all of this.

I do not want a boyfriend. I want many jeferrys -_-. I want to be very close to many boys, physically and mentally, and not fall in love. I'm not in love with Jeferry, and that's how it is. If I have many of what I call these "cuddle buddies", I can chose... I can chose the right one. Unfortunately, society doesn't work that way and the boys whom I want to cuddle will want me all for themselves... I was already afraid I was playing with jeferry like that... but he told me I wasn't and he was fine with it, not having a huge crush on me and all... that made me feel tons better. It's not a big deal right now... Jeferry and I are fine with how we are.... but later, what if I develop more curshes? Three is enough right now, but I crush easily, and I get over it easily, very easily, I restrain myself all the time. Now it's kinda different... I actually let guys hit on me... I don't mind it as much as I used to. That's probably why Jeferry is allowed to cuddle with me ^_^*. Because I don't mind it anymore. I'm not sure where I'm going with this... but yeah, society kinda sucks. I'll never be like Intarnet Luvar and have basically more than 2 luvars, I will never allow myself to fall in love more than once at a time, and if I do, then I will do what must be done to "unfallinlove" with one of them. Thankfully, I don't think It'll be getting that far anytime soon.