Prepare thyself for a LONG entry....
Oct. 5th, 2002 06:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zaichikarkyHmm... should I be surprised that my raunchy sleepover was pretty disasterous... It was going pretty good until we made it clear to Adrienne that she had to go home after she was over for a long while, got Matt pissed off, and got wet by him :p. It was water, by the way :P. I decided to take my dog on a walk after that...
We watched Life as a house when you know who decided to start tossing my remote control up in the air again. I told him to stop. He kept doing it. I told him to stop more urgently, then he just started doing it above the couch, over the floor. So guess what happens? The remote crashes down AGAIN, and the batteries fall out. So I scream something profane at him and run upstairs.It's 10:30, and I was a little tired, so I turn of the lights, and hop in bed 0_o. Five minutes later, he comes in my room, pulling off the covers and telling me to get out of bed and "have fun". Oh yeah, I'm really NOT having fun at that point. I told him he can't tell me what to do in my own house and tell him to get the fuck out of my room. He doesn't, OBVIOUSLY, and just starts jumping on my bed. Then he tells me I'm making Alexis upset and he wanted me to tell her she has nothing to do with this. I DO do that. I go downstairs and tell her I'm not mad at her and she shouldn't feel upset. Then I go back upstairs, intending to lock myself in my parent's room. Matt follows me in there, and I try, but can't get him out. So I lock myself in the bathroom. Okay. I spend an hour in the bathroom, rarely talking while he blabs and blabs about shit I can't even remember, starts flooding the bathroom, and takes my parent's electric toothbrush, grinding it at the door. He finally manages to break into the bathroom with a knife and I SCREAM. I didn't have my shirt on because I was using it as a head rest and I didn't want him to see me half nekkid. During the screaming, I somehow manage to put a hole through my parent's door (I really didn't know I kicked it 0_o) and got my neighbor to come and see if we were alright in there 0_o. We assured him we were and sorry for the screaming, and he left.
THEN, I lock myself in my bathroom. I couldn't lock the door that time because he already had his hand on the handle. So I just had to sit against the door. I sat in there for another hour. Once again, rarely talking to him. This time, even less. While I was in there, he read these notes we passed to eachother in Japanese class. Over and over again. He found a 20 dollar bill in my room and put it in the note, passing it under the door. I took it out and gave him the note back. He was like "fuck" haha... I'm not THAT stupid.
I stayed in there until he got sick of gaurding me and decided to be with Alexis. They put Life as a House back on and I sat upstairs, watching it from the balcony. Eventually, Alexis or Matt saw me and then I began cleaning up all the water he flooded my parent's bathroom with. When I got in there, I saw the hole that had somehow appeared. I assume it was because I was trying so hard to keep him out of there. I was beyond angry though. I went downstairs and said something like "I'm sorry, but I'm about to do something that will scare you". Then I took the glass he used to flood the bathroom and threw it outside, on the concrete, as hard as possible. Then I went back into my room. This time, I was left along for about 10 minutes before he came in there, telling me that Alexis is outside crying and shit. I told him I doubt she was because she had nothing to do with this. It turns out, that she was cleaning up the shattered glass... He told me about my dog, whom I'd left locked in the garage that the glass would cut his paws, and I realized he hd left my dog out. So I had to take care of that matter anyway. For the rest of the night, I treated him like shit.. basically. The only thing I didn't do was kick him out of my house, because I can't even be THAT bad of a person.
Some stuff I told him was... That I hated him and wanted nothing more to do with him, that he would never see or hear from me again after that night, and I really can't remember anymore. His responce to "I hate you" was "I love you". BITCH. He didn't understand that I really do hate him... Nope, didn't understand that one bit. His response to "I never want to see you again" was "I will NEVER lose you to a trivial thing like dropping your remote." Right... then he brought up Chad again, and I told him that everything we talked about eventually got brought back up to Chad. I think that hurt his feelings. Good... Eventually he let me go to sleep at about 2:30 am... he stopped bothering me.
I treated him just a little better in the morning, but only for Alexis's sake, who was drivern to tears by all this. I woke up at 8 am to watch my cartoons, so I'm so tired right now >_<.We finally got him to leave at 11:45 by telling him my parents were coming home at 12. I told him that I didn't want ANYTHING to do with him
for at least a month. If he calls me, I WILL block his number. For the rest of the day, Alexis and I spend time trying to fix that hole in my wall, we had to get more putty from her dad, and now, I'm fixing it how he told me to fix it. It's going slowly, but DEFINETELY surely... I'm just taking a little break from cleaning 0_o. I still need to do laundry... because I want the house clean for my parents :p.
Yamato took this movie he made me rent with him... this gay porno 0_o. He left his pendant *cough*necklace*cough* with me and said that I can keep the pendant if he doesn't return the movie or something like that.... great. I wonder if he will return it by wednesday. The movie is more expensive, but the pendant has more value in my opinion. He said that the summer of his 15th birthday, he had to spend with his father(whom he hates). I remember that... the only present his mom gave to him was that necklace... so he really values it. I intend to wear it if I start to miss him... I'm sure I will. Because I REALLY won't speak to him for at least a month. It's not that I'm angry with him... because I'm not anymore. I really am not. I just want to take a long break from him... eventually becoming friends again, but punishing him for the way he treated me. I love Yamato. I really do. But he HAS to realize that he can't treat me like that... He values our friendship. And he WILL miss talking to me. But he'll just have to live with this. During this time, I want him to think about what he did to me. I hope that gets across to him ... and I so hope I can have enough will power to cease our friendship for a month.
I have to do this. No matter how much he will call my house, no matter how much he MAY stop and visit, I can't speak to him. The only way I could possibly speak to him is if it drives him to tears. I really don't want that to happen >_<. I must stop being friends for this amount of time. He has to learn, he can't get his way with me. I call myself his bitch, but I really am not. This is a test of our friendship. I hope he and I will both pass.
We watched Life as a house when you know who decided to start tossing my remote control up in the air again. I told him to stop. He kept doing it. I told him to stop more urgently, then he just started doing it above the couch, over the floor. So guess what happens? The remote crashes down AGAIN, and the batteries fall out. So I scream something profane at him and run upstairs.It's 10:30, and I was a little tired, so I turn of the lights, and hop in bed 0_o. Five minutes later, he comes in my room, pulling off the covers and telling me to get out of bed and "have fun". Oh yeah, I'm really NOT having fun at that point. I told him he can't tell me what to do in my own house and tell him to get the fuck out of my room. He doesn't, OBVIOUSLY, and just starts jumping on my bed. Then he tells me I'm making Alexis upset and he wanted me to tell her she has nothing to do with this. I DO do that. I go downstairs and tell her I'm not mad at her and she shouldn't feel upset. Then I go back upstairs, intending to lock myself in my parent's room. Matt follows me in there, and I try, but can't get him out. So I lock myself in the bathroom. Okay. I spend an hour in the bathroom, rarely talking while he blabs and blabs about shit I can't even remember, starts flooding the bathroom, and takes my parent's electric toothbrush, grinding it at the door. He finally manages to break into the bathroom with a knife and I SCREAM. I didn't have my shirt on because I was using it as a head rest and I didn't want him to see me half nekkid. During the screaming, I somehow manage to put a hole through my parent's door (I really didn't know I kicked it 0_o) and got my neighbor to come and see if we were alright in there 0_o. We assured him we were and sorry for the screaming, and he left.
THEN, I lock myself in my bathroom. I couldn't lock the door that time because he already had his hand on the handle. So I just had to sit against the door. I sat in there for another hour. Once again, rarely talking to him. This time, even less. While I was in there, he read these notes we passed to eachother in Japanese class. Over and over again. He found a 20 dollar bill in my room and put it in the note, passing it under the door. I took it out and gave him the note back. He was like "fuck" haha... I'm not THAT stupid.
I stayed in there until he got sick of gaurding me and decided to be with Alexis. They put Life as a House back on and I sat upstairs, watching it from the balcony. Eventually, Alexis or Matt saw me and then I began cleaning up all the water he flooded my parent's bathroom with. When I got in there, I saw the hole that had somehow appeared. I assume it was because I was trying so hard to keep him out of there. I was beyond angry though. I went downstairs and said something like "I'm sorry, but I'm about to do something that will scare you". Then I took the glass he used to flood the bathroom and threw it outside, on the concrete, as hard as possible. Then I went back into my room. This time, I was left along for about 10 minutes before he came in there, telling me that Alexis is outside crying and shit. I told him I doubt she was because she had nothing to do with this. It turns out, that she was cleaning up the shattered glass... He told me about my dog, whom I'd left locked in the garage that the glass would cut his paws, and I realized he hd left my dog out. So I had to take care of that matter anyway. For the rest of the night, I treated him like shit.. basically. The only thing I didn't do was kick him out of my house, because I can't even be THAT bad of a person.
Some stuff I told him was... That I hated him and wanted nothing more to do with him, that he would never see or hear from me again after that night, and I really can't remember anymore. His responce to "I hate you" was "I love you". BITCH. He didn't understand that I really do hate him... Nope, didn't understand that one bit. His response to "I never want to see you again" was "I will NEVER lose you to a trivial thing like dropping your remote." Right... then he brought up Chad again, and I told him that everything we talked about eventually got brought back up to Chad. I think that hurt his feelings. Good... Eventually he let me go to sleep at about 2:30 am... he stopped bothering me.
I treated him just a little better in the morning, but only for Alexis's sake, who was drivern to tears by all this. I woke up at 8 am to watch my cartoons, so I'm so tired right now >_<.We finally got him to leave at 11:45 by telling him my parents were coming home at 12. I told him that I didn't want ANYTHING to do with him
for at least a month. If he calls me, I WILL block his number. For the rest of the day, Alexis and I spend time trying to fix that hole in my wall, we had to get more putty from her dad, and now, I'm fixing it how he told me to fix it. It's going slowly, but DEFINETELY surely... I'm just taking a little break from cleaning 0_o. I still need to do laundry... because I want the house clean for my parents :p.
Yamato took this movie he made me rent with him... this gay porno 0_o. He left his pendant *cough*necklace*cough* with me and said that I can keep the pendant if he doesn't return the movie or something like that.... great. I wonder if he will return it by wednesday. The movie is more expensive, but the pendant has more value in my opinion. He said that the summer of his 15th birthday, he had to spend with his father(whom he hates). I remember that... the only present his mom gave to him was that necklace... so he really values it. I intend to wear it if I start to miss him... I'm sure I will. Because I REALLY won't speak to him for at least a month. It's not that I'm angry with him... because I'm not anymore. I really am not. I just want to take a long break from him... eventually becoming friends again, but punishing him for the way he treated me. I love Yamato. I really do. But he HAS to realize that he can't treat me like that... He values our friendship. And he WILL miss talking to me. But he'll just have to live with this. During this time, I want him to think about what he did to me. I hope that gets across to him ... and I so hope I can have enough will power to cease our friendship for a month.
I have to do this. No matter how much he will call my house, no matter how much he MAY stop and visit, I can't speak to him. The only way I could possibly speak to him is if it drives him to tears. I really don't want that to happen >_<. I must stop being friends for this amount of time. He has to learn, he can't get his way with me. I call myself his bitch, but I really am not. This is a test of our friendship. I hope he and I will both pass.
