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Dec. 2nd, 2003 07:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zaichikarkyToday went interesting indeed. I hung out with people I'v never met before... this time downtown again. If you knew how it was like in downtown santa cruz, you could just come out and say "nuff said". Talked to a geat hobo today, Jim. Gawd I felt to bad about what happened to him. A while ago he got in an awful car wreck... he didn't have insurance and could not pay off the bills... this was 3 years ago. Just *next month* he is finally getting his SSI money ~_~. Fuck, it's so awful when the gvt lets such shit go on... Just kick them when they're down, god. Now I'm worried that shit might happen to TG if he can't get money from his school -_-. *sigh*.
Hm, met another guy. Gawd wtf is up with men and me? I mean, ok. I have been told I am cute... uh, many times by many guys. *shrugs* I SUPPOSE. However, does this give guys the right to just come out and *violate* me like that? By violate, I am being dramatical. I mean, I don't act any different than I do normally... I guess I just "look" cute to them.. I don't know why... can't completely figure it out. But this one just today just met me, convinced me to go somewhere with him(he told me he had a motorcycle ;___; <3 <3). Well I didn't end up seeing any motor cycle, instead I ended up seeing him try to kiss me. In a lame attempt to get him to layoff me, I told him I had an internet luvar, and ANOTHER one I had feelings for. yeah, that didn't work. He kept begging for my cellfone number. I only gave it to him because he blackmailed me into letting me ride his motorcycle. But right now, I'm not sure if I want to see him again. Sure he's a cute person, but come on now. Fucking kiss a girl after what... half an hour? jesus -_-.
This is why I am silently attracted to the "man of mystery" as Titus puts it. There is just something so romantic and cute about a guy who is shy with girls and waits... Sometimes I wonder if guys like that are self-concious about that aspect of themselves... I wonder if they can't help acting like that, or if it just comes naturally to them. I guess it's both... What really aggrevated me was that ChrisP started flirting with me too during the movie we saw. Ugh. At least he got the picture, unlike the other dude. That I wanted nothing to do with it -_-. I am generally not surprised when a guy likes me. The only surprise I ever had was with TG. But then again, TG does a pretty damn good job in acting like he cares about no one. All guys should go more slowly when they like a girl. Seriously, it's such a fucking turnoff for me. -_-.
Oh, what else I did today. I smoked cloves for the first time . Jeremy(the guy who was like madly in love with me 0_o) gave me one of his cigarettes. it was damn good and I fucking want more -__-. *sigh* I really think I will be a smoker some day. Did you guys know that my most vivid dreams are about me smoking? -__-. This is another reason I don't want to see him, I don't want to be addicted to the shit. he says it's an addicting habit- 5 bucks a pack. But the shit is so daaaamn goood ;_;.
I saw Timeline today too.. great movie, great book. Hell, this gives me the incentive to finish it up.. I only have a chapter to go, seriously 0_o. Heh. Laters....
Hm, met another guy. Gawd wtf is up with men and me? I mean, ok. I have been told I am cute... uh, many times by many guys. *shrugs* I SUPPOSE. However, does this give guys the right to just come out and *violate* me like that? By violate, I am being dramatical. I mean, I don't act any different than I do normally... I guess I just "look" cute to them.. I don't know why... can't completely figure it out. But this one just today just met me, convinced me to go somewhere with him(he told me he had a motorcycle ;___; <3 <3). Well I didn't end up seeing any motor cycle, instead I ended up seeing him try to kiss me. In a lame attempt to get him to layoff me, I told him I had an internet luvar, and ANOTHER one I had feelings for. yeah, that didn't work. He kept begging for my cellfone number. I only gave it to him because he blackmailed me into letting me ride his motorcycle. But right now, I'm not sure if I want to see him again. Sure he's a cute person, but come on now. Fucking kiss a girl after what... half an hour? jesus -_-.
This is why I am silently attracted to the "man of mystery" as Titus puts it. There is just something so romantic and cute about a guy who is shy with girls and waits... Sometimes I wonder if guys like that are self-concious about that aspect of themselves... I wonder if they can't help acting like that, or if it just comes naturally to them. I guess it's both... What really aggrevated me was that ChrisP started flirting with me too during the movie we saw. Ugh. At least he got the picture, unlike the other dude. That I wanted nothing to do with it -_-. I am generally not surprised when a guy likes me. The only surprise I ever had was with TG. But then again, TG does a pretty damn good job in acting like he cares about no one. All guys should go more slowly when they like a girl. Seriously, it's such a fucking turnoff for me. -_-.
Oh, what else I did today. I smoked cloves for the first time . Jeremy(the guy who was like madly in love with me 0_o) gave me one of his cigarettes. it was damn good and I fucking want more -__-. *sigh* I really think I will be a smoker some day. Did you guys know that my most vivid dreams are about me smoking? -__-. This is another reason I don't want to see him, I don't want to be addicted to the shit. he says it's an addicting habit- 5 bucks a pack. But the shit is so daaaamn goood ;_;.
I saw Timeline today too.. great movie, great book. Hell, this gives me the incentive to finish it up.. I only have a chapter to go, seriously 0_o. Heh. Laters....
