blarg

I spent the whooooooole day doing stuff for my community. Like literally. Came back from class around 11:45 or so and then worked on it all day. didn't seem like I did much, but I made a few icons, for some retarded reason or another joined about a zillion promo communities and then didn't post in any them, and went through affiliation processes with anime rating communities, but the biggest thing I did today for it was to compile a list of all the character icons made for it. there are over 80 now. that's a huge number, and if it wasn't for scionis, that number would be cut in half. SHe made even more of them for me today too. Did all the garou icons, I took half and she took half.

The community is doing rather well, actually. we have something like 23 members, and it seems like the number of members joining is constantly rising. I'm pretty pleased, but something else that I wasn't anticipating is that half the members have their profiles up, but about half of THEM that put their profiles up are actually going ahead and rating other people. I'm waiting for the community to chill out a bit before I put mine up, heh... the rating is doing pretty well anyway, though. I'm overall quite pleased with it, and hopefully we can get more regulars so there will always be a supply of people rating, and not just people putting their surveys up, getting the stamp, and then running away and not ever coming back to the community. That's the reason I've been so reluctant to post in promo communities... if I did that, there would be tons of girls coming in with surveys, but also knowing absolutely nothing about 2d fighting games, thereby not rating other people. That would really annoy me. So far, the rating is pretty decent. My goal of having ALL the members rate is quite lofty and I doubt will happen, but I'll keep posting about doing this as much as I can.

Fanime is Friday~ I'm so happy. it will be tons of fun. I've arranged room stuff with Isabelle and sean and stephan will be in my room ^_^. Hurrraaayy. I'll be mainly in the dealers room and trying to see what I can get from there with my terrible budget... probably will be like 50 dollars. and I'm probably gunna want to spend a bunch of it on Justin because he bought me like 100 dollars worth of stuff when he went to Megacon ^_^*. *not adequate*. I really want to buy him a fun anime shirt : ). also probably some figurines... Kakashi and Bleach ones.

I'll probably leave on sunday though. my parents are coming down to see me and probably will take me home, and then I'll go back to school on Monday. I wonder if Jennifer is coming down. hm. *text messages her*. Too bad Adrienne left for Dutch-land like today. Kinda left with a bad note with me that sucks :|. Oh well, I guess >_<. Maybe I can send her a fun letter again to dutch-land or Arentina :D. I should get her argentina adress. She gets to travel the globe right now while I'm stuck here stressing about being done with school. *jealous*. And then I won't get to go anywhere this summer anyway because I'm working until october 30, if all works out well with the second job :|.

Tomorrow I'm going to see another apartment... I like this one. I still need to find out from the original one that is taking us when they want the deposit... cause I've been looking for a month now and haven't been lucky with anything better than that one. I really would like a secure apartment soon because it's starting to make me a bit worried. I really need to work on school work tomorrow too :|.

I'm not sure what to do with my custom friends list anymore. I'm not sure when I should be posting in it or why. I get attention with pity-posts like my last one from people not on the list, but yet no one else expresses intrerest in getting on the list. I like attention in any form, usually, even though I don't whine about it, so getting comments is actually nice. I guess I'll just use that custom friends list whenever I go lj-crazy like I did a few days ago. 6 posts in a row is kinda too much, I think. Not sure what else to do with it

Speaking of attention, it upsets me when I work hard to get someone's attention by writing them something very thoughtful that took my time, and I get no response from it. Chris used to always do that to me, and I hated it, so eventually I just stopped writing him e-mails because it wasn't worth my time to waste it and then not get any sort of recognition from it. I always pay people recognition whenever they do nice things for me, or spend time writing something nice for me, or anything. At least I try to. I get sort-of recognition from Justin, but it's always days later when it's "oh yeah, that reminds me of the time a few days ago when ______". And then the conversation stops right there. It's kind of like "Oh? You got it days ago? thanks an effing lot for letting me know, jerk". *cranky*

I've been having a lot of minor relationship problems right now. Like minor to angry fights like every day : (. For some reason, at times I feel like I don't want to deal with being in a relationship, and then I feel all clingy and miss him and am happy when he calls me unexpectedly in the middle of the day. And then... for whatever reason by the end of the conversation I'm no longer happy and don't even want to talk to him anymore >_<. Romantic frustrations suck. I hope I get over myself soon, or else in the future I know I'm just going to say "leave me alone, goodbye" then not communicate with him at all for like a month and that would be really bad :|. I can't help it if I like to run away from my problems all the time... at least I come back and try to fix them eventually when I'm ready.... eventually

*le sigh*