I'm hyper 0_o

Somehow between TG's state of lethargic tiredness and Titus's RETURN, I have managed to get soooo excited about a lot of things... namely ... I wanna go visit them in December : ). I called TG again... hehe... Whenever I'm bored around 4 or 5 pm, I never negelect to call him ^_^*. And so he keeps me VERY entertained for a long time XD. This time, it was fun, as usual, but there were a few TRADEMARKS to our convo. For one, he kept making fun of the way I said "yeah". He thought I say that cute or high -pitched or something... and I would be agreeing with him on whatever and suddenly he'd just put on this really girly voice and go "YEAAAAH! YEEEEAAAH!" XDDD. LOL. This got me to giggle for the longest time. Actually, I am still giggling. Then he put on this Russian accent. LOL. No, my parents wouldn't approve of him being a KGB agent or the leader of the Communist party. So that was fun... what else...

My dad killed my mouse today 0_o. I feel bad because he has to make ANOTHER venture to the store. It took him hours to get the damn thing to work, and when he did, he fried it -_-. Seriously, there was smoke ^_^***. Last time, he broke my laptop lock XD. Okay... anyway. I came back on and Titus came back woooo.

Um... Jeferry took my survey, which I have yet to post, and after all the *serious* matters were discussed, Titus is all in monster ego mode and *thinking* he can beat my ass in Smash Brothers. Let him THINK ALL HE WANTS. He will be under my IRON BOOT once I am finished with him and my Ness... Har. He will SO, SO be crushed. This is... just the way it is. Months of only having SSB as your only new game gets to you and he will FEEL THE FULL FORCE of this by the time I'm done with him. *pets Ness*. Or not. Well, one of us will get crushed, but I think I know who it is : ). O: ). We also disagreed on Nintendo's lack of online support... oh well. I could talk a long time about this "hindrance" of Nintendo... I don't want to get into it because I already did once tonight XD

Somehow, me visiting them got brought up again and I'm creating a list of stuff to do outside the hotel room *cough*. Lesse...

1. See Timeline *
2. See LOTR 3
3. Go to a beach : )
4. Go to a lake *cough*
5. Go to CiCi's(Titus's idea XD)
6. Go to an Orange Orchard <3 <3.

That's all I've come up with so far.... I will be so crushed if *somehow* I won't be able to make it. Every time I think about it, I become more determined, though. I gotta do it : ). Even though this isn't out of the country, it could very well be like my... *dream vacation* if you will XD.

* OMG TIME LINE. Today I got lots of reading into that book. They're about to go into the past it's getting SO SO exciting! The techno babble is interesting, I swear Michael Crichton is like my idol 0____o. I'm not getting into the technicalities of this one, this time it's too much for even ME. The Andromeda Strain is NOTHING copared to Quantum Mechanics -__-. hehe... I'm at the part of the book where they are about to go to the past... the most exciting part, in other words XD. The movie WILL be great, I know it. Because, as I was telling TG, his books might as well be the script of a movie with the way they're written into scenes and all. I'm so so excited... Fall 2003 ^_-. *makes plans to see it the first day it's out* XD. The first thing my dad told me after the book had come out and he read it was that it will become a movie soon, I knew the old man was right XD. I'm only disappointed I couldn't get my act together and read it earlier. Jeez... 2: 30 am. Time is flying today. I'm not tired though. But I'd better go to bed ANYWAY -_-. Don't want to fuxxor up my sleeping TOO much before I go to NY....

Hmm....

Yeah, this probably should be private. And this time, unlike other times, I will edit and add to what I had written in my notebook the night before.

I always like these kinds of journal entries. This will be personal, this will be sappy. It will be very close to last time, when once again, I was writing this all down in *gasp* paper in the middle of the night. But so many thoughts are running though my head right now, I kind of *have* to write them down right now, in some pages of a random notebook I found laying around. This happens to be my AP English Notebook from the last semester, heh. Last time it was my JC history notebook. Okay, enough of this long-arsed intro, time to get into it...

Okay. When I think of my "online life" right now, in truth it all boils down to two guys whom I consider to be my very close friends, and more ! Titus and TG. Since TG already got one of these 0_o, I think it's fair Titus gets on now too. Titus, I would say, he was "destined" to be my friend. I'm serious. He probably doesn't think of our friendship in this way, but I do for several reasons. The first and most important reason goes way back when I was 14-16 years old, mind you, I only met him when I was 17. I *actually* remembered Titus from the original TRHQ, and not being this super posty person I am now, I remember so few people from it. I can't say what it was that Titus posted , what on earth he said, but it was *something* , something that from way back then, I told myself " I want to make friends with him." It was not until I was 17 that I finally did. I'm still 17 btw... heh. omg less than a month now, WOO. *ahem*. What happened next , well, I met him in chat. I went into TRHQ chat back when it was first showing the first rays of dying. It is almost exactly the same right now, in terms of the people who are in it when I go in. I went into because.... I got my few moments of glory with these interviews of people I made. I first made friends with Tako and she brought me into chat. But I discovered that the only place I fit into was the late-night chat where only a few select people were in. There, I guess is the real birth of my next internet life. It still is going on right now... I don't know how long it will last, but I must say it already had evolved. Mind you, I have *always* been Majestic Arcanine... I don't like Pokemon anymore, but even I don't know whether this will ever change. But you see, my *life* as Majestic Arcanine has changed so much. From the time I was at TR Palace and all....

Anyway... I really do remember the first thing I told Titus. Because I was actually being serious.... I said something like "Wow, I really remember you from the old TRHQ, I barely remember anyone from back then, but I remember you." He replied with something like "I feel ... remembered?" I don't know if he thought I was just ebing weird or something, but this is when we first became friends, slowly we began IMing each other outside of chat. I remember I met Titus around the time Yamato ( The guy who destroyed my house XD) and I had that big fiasco, and I remember Titus being the only one interested in that. I had my own crisis after a ferw weeks, but this was the "TG moment", when the two of us first realized how much we meant to each other and all, but Titus was still there, having little to say other thatn " I hope you feel better and do what you need to." After I had decided already I was becoming too attached to chat and other things....

SO almost one year fown the road... Titus is the only person other than TG that I simply *have* to talk to every single time he's on. If we don't talk, I think something is wrong. About half a year ago, we both felt really talkative or something , and he got me to stay up until 8 am- my record thus far. This was the first time he had actually said anything personal to me, and I still have the conversation safely hidden in my computer. Titus is the only online friend who's made me cry, that is until about a week or so ago when TG joined his ranks, heh. But this is kind of strange concidering that I can't ever remember a time Titus has ever upset me or really anger me personally. He *might* have known about the first time... I don't know. But it was towards the end of the school year... I think I was PMSing , but that's the kind of besides the point. I wrote this last speech for speech class and posted it here, hoping to get some comments, although I was afraid of presenting it to the class. Titus was first to comment, and he said something like it's a great speech and I should present it to the class. Suddenly I find myself crying 0__o. Well, anyway, I would not find myself doing that now, if the same thing would happen because of my healthy mental state, but still, at the time, it was kinda strange, heh... The second time... *sigh*. That one was even weirder. No one knows about this. Generally, it was because I missed him, plain as that. It was one of the times he disappeared weeks on end because of his phone bill problems. It got to me because one night TG and Koop had both been hounding me for sexual favors -___-. I'd never even give any to Koop , no matter how hard he tries, besides those photos, heh.

Which leads me to my next thought.... I know Titus and I don't have the same kind of relationship that I have with TG, or even Koop. I don't send him nekkid photos, I don't even give him any kind of "cyber affection". In truth, this is more the real me than how I am with Koop and Teeg. See, the only reason I became so "affectionate" with them was because they started it with me. They slowly became affectionate to me, TG slower than anyone XD, and I just had to respond because one, I thought it was sweet, and two, I wanted to do it for them because it shows I care about them. Whatever friendship I have is Titus is differnt, it is special, I value it. Another reason I'm writing this is because I can't really tell it to him personally. It's just not a thing we discuss... I guess a part of me is afraid he will just say something like "This conversation is UNMANLY, please REFRAIN from speaking further". He probably wouldn't do that, but I'm still uncomfortable. I tell TG how much I care about him on a daily basis and he does the same to me, giving me all sorts of cyber affection at the same time. I don't have that with Titus, and I am alright about it, it's just fine.

Still, I tell Titus just about everything. Things that I don't tell TG even... He always seems to be the sole receptor of when I have problems with TG... Sometimes he doesn't know what to tell me, but he's always there, and that's what really matters. Even though he doesn't approve of the the way things are between me and TG, he only tries to protect me. He only wante me to be happy and unhurt with whatever I do. This makes me a bit sad he doesn't have a girlfriend of his own XD. I don't know if he's lusting for one or anything, but I think he will be a very good bf and support this unknown girl greatly.

He is pretty strong, yesh... The girly hair means NOTHING XD. I make fun of him for his overuse of the word "MANLY" , but I only really do it because I think it's so cool XD. But yeah... I think it takes a certain kind of "manly" person to deal with some of what he deals with so calmly. I think the last few days have been pretty near-hell for him, but he handles it... I don't know if I could do that. I can only hope I have strength only close to his...

I should be wrapping this up pretty soon, I don't know who will read all of this besides me, but I felt the need to write it at ... not evern want, but need... at 4 am, heh. I let friends go sometimes, I thought about Nyar today, who was once a close friend of mine I don't really even talk to anymore. I probably could see myself letting go of Titus sometime down the road. But right now, I'm just grateful I have him as a friend. He is more than a good friend... but I don't think I've ever even had a romantic inclination to him. It's hard to explain. Titus is somewhere is the middle of a great friend and an older brother I can look up to for support... I don't know if I can keep him like this forever, or if I will have to let go, but I know one thing: I'm glad he is my friend right now.

^_^

Only one thing to say. I'm already being booted. Will continue later. Amada's so cute XD

Amada: thank you so much for the post card
Amada: I don't know if I thanked you after I came home from the trip ^^;
Amada: No one's ever sent me anything. ^_^
MajesticArcanine: awww!
MajesticArcanine: *huggles*
MajesticArcanine: I'm happy you're happy ^_^
Amada: **hugs back** XP


XD. I must make sure to MAIL HIM B-DAY PRESENTS. Later I have anime-related ramblings....

Ugh, the third time

I've tried to write this. stupid , bitchy computer. I'm not in the mood so much anymore... but I saw "Crest of Stars" , it is this absolutely gorgeous anime I've been watching on my laptop. Been taking screen caps. I'm already having wild dreams about a site XD. Laifiel(sp) is so cute... took like 20 shots of her so far XD. I'm not in the mood to summarize it yet... perhaps when I watch more of the series. But it's only 13 eps, a good size for me. hmm.... also rented " A wind called amnesia". looked good at the time, now I think it might be a mecha anime 0_o. I think I'm going to bed now. I feel bitchy. Maybe I'll come back secretly later XD. Or not. I went to bed at 5 last night, I am tired.