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zaichikarky) wrote2003-03-04 03:24 pm
zaichikarky) wrote2003-03-04 03:24 pm
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WOW HOW SICK
I have a bad flu. And I've been laying around for the last couple of days, missing school. In some ways, I like it. I haven't been thinking much about all the work I've been missing, but about laying around and being sick and doing stuff I like. It's relaxing and even though I'm in pain, I don't mind it. I still find myself thinking about what I don't want to, but it doesn't really seem to matter anymore.
I got accepted into UC Santa Cruz and UC Riverside yesterday. Kind of was like *w000*. People ask me what I'm going to do with my life, I get apprehensive. I don't know. I have nooo idea. I'm just hoping to figure out that in college. For a while, I've had this goal, well, it's more like a dream. I want to write a book. I want to write something so innovative, so scientific so GREAT that I become famous for it. And live the rest of my life as this respectable figure who wrote this BOOK. Now what, I don't know. My writing ability hasn't exactly shown through in the last few years. After I ended the fic writing... and lost all my fics ;_;. But I think I could do it... if given the oppertunity, if given the IDEA. I mean, what was Michael Chriton thinking when he came up with the idea to recreate dinosaurs? How did he get the idea to clone them like that? It's genious... You just get an idea and flow from there...I want to get that idea and watch it lift off to become a novel, a GREAT novel. Even a modern classic... But as I keep thinking, there have been so many books. The great ones came with sucha fantastic ideas. Have the ideas ran out in my time? It seems like it... I don't know if I can have my chance without reusing someone else's words. Just like someone who wants to become a rockstar or a famous actor, there is hope. I hope my courage gives me wings so I can fly away ^__^. And write? I haven't written in so long. Written for the pure joy it gives me. Truthfully, I can't make myself write anything original. TR fics? That was all I could do because TR's characters were so concrete, already established. All I could do was tweak them however I liked...
Meh, I hope my dream comes true. Someday, I hope and hope I can get this idea, and feel it surge through me. In the meantime, I can wait for it to come....
I got accepted into UC Santa Cruz and UC Riverside yesterday. Kind of was like *w000*. People ask me what I'm going to do with my life, I get apprehensive. I don't know. I have nooo idea. I'm just hoping to figure out that in college. For a while, I've had this goal, well, it's more like a dream. I want to write a book. I want to write something so innovative, so scientific so GREAT that I become famous for it. And live the rest of my life as this respectable figure who wrote this BOOK. Now what, I don't know. My writing ability hasn't exactly shown through in the last few years. After I ended the fic writing... and lost all my fics ;_;. But I think I could do it... if given the oppertunity, if given the IDEA. I mean, what was Michael Chriton thinking when he came up with the idea to recreate dinosaurs? How did he get the idea to clone them like that? It's genious... You just get an idea and flow from there...I want to get that idea and watch it lift off to become a novel, a GREAT novel. Even a modern classic... But as I keep thinking, there have been so many books. The great ones came with sucha fantastic ideas. Have the ideas ran out in my time? It seems like it... I don't know if I can have my chance without reusing someone else's words. Just like someone who wants to become a rockstar or a famous actor, there is hope. I hope my courage gives me wings so I can fly away ^__^. And write? I haven't written in so long. Written for the pure joy it gives me. Truthfully, I can't make myself write anything original. TR fics? That was all I could do because TR's characters were so concrete, already established. All I could do was tweak them however I liked...
Meh, I hope my dream comes true. Someday, I hope and hope I can get this idea, and feel it surge through me. In the meantime, I can wait for it to come....